Hello loves c: This is my first 'real' fanfic. I've made one about Tyler Blackburn + Ashley Benson but… I kinda just stopped with that. I hope that you all like it and that it isn't too confusing or anything. Enjoy!

finding you.

1502, Mystic Falls, the USA —
Stefan was sitting on a little bench outside his house. He was thinking about which country he'd visit tonight for fresh blood. Maybe he should just do a Europe tour, he thought. Go to England, France, Greece... Stefan had been doing this for a couple of months now. He was so greatfull to his brother, Damon, who turned him into a vampire on his 17th birthday. Life got so much better. Stefan was able to do more, like traveling around the world, searching for blood. He was a true ripper. No humanity, no love, no compassion, no nothing.
He became hungry. He jumped off the bench and went searching for blood.

All of a sudden his mother called him. He wiped the leftover blood from his mouth. She could not know what he was. He walked over to her.
"What is going on, mom?"
She seemed really excited.
"A new young lady is coming to Mystic Falls!"
Stefan sighed. Did she really let him come to her just because there was coming some new girl? He faked a smile. He had to. He had to pretend that nothing had happened. He was only able to go travel the world in the night, because there was no way that she was gonna find out what he was or that he had no humanity and that he didn't care about anything possible.
"What's wrong, my man? Aren't you excited?"
"I am."
"I am what?"
"I am, mom."
Mrs Appleboom-Salvatore was very strict with both her sons. They always had to finish there sentence with mom or miss. Stefan sighed again.
"Sorry mom, but can I go now?"
"No. I need your help."
"But mom, I am—"
Mrs Salvatore shaked her head.
"Uh uh, you are going to help me with washing the clothes. Including yours."

Damon was pacing up and down, thinking about her. How she left him without even saying goodbye. He gave her so much, and she just dissapeared. Damon didn't just turn his humanity off, like Stefan. He cared more than he ever did. He even felt guilty that he turned Stefan, even though Stefan told him a million times that he was very pleased with how he was now, and that Damon had made him feel like that.
But Damon watched his brother destroying his life, including this town. No, worse, this earth. There were hundreds of bodies found, all over the world. Damon knew it was Stefan, he saw him leaving town every night, and heard him coming back around 5 a.m.

After Stefan was done with washing all the clothes, it was 5 p.m. He took a deep breath and walked up to Damon. Damon was so boring in his opinion. He never went to parties or festivals. Most of the time, he was just pacing up and down. Stefan convinced him several times to turn his humanity off so that they could have fun together, but it just didn't work. He was too naive.
"Hello, little brother."
Stefan was 2 years older than his brother.
"Leave me alone."
"Oh, come on. Why don't you go on a little walk with your lovely brother."
Stefan laughed at his own joke.
"Not funny. I'm busy."
"You're always busy! I don't believe you anymore. Why don't you wanna do anything anymore? What is more important than having fun? What is on your mind all-the-time?"
Stefan had never understood his brother. He used to be so happy and springy all time, but after he turned into a vampire, that completely changed.
"Katherine, Stefan, Katherine!"
Stefan burst out laughing.
"Are you still not over her? That girl ruined our lives!"
"And I loved her!"
"She used you, Damon! You're never gonna understand that, are you? You only see her good parts. She ruined our relationship. We had such a strong bond. She ripped us apart. Because of that, you do not want to be friends with me anymore. And you know, Damon, that still hurts me every single day!"
Stefan was screaming.
Damon saw a tear falling down Stefan's face. He was shocked.
"Stefan, what is… that… on your cheek? Is that a…?"
Stefan rubbed his cheek. It was wet. His eyes widened. Was that a… tear?

Stefan ran away really hard. This was going on for a while. He completely lost it whenever he thought about Katherine. She had hurt them both. And they kept it inside. Never talked about what happened. But it had hurt them more than anything. They both remember the day they walked up to her house and it was all empty. She left with no goodbye. The brother's were devastated. But then the good times came. At least for Stefan.

It was the day Caroline came into town. Damon saw her and it was love at first sight. They hooked up, and one day, when they were kissing on the bed, she told him she was a vampire. Damon laughed at her and said that he didn't believe in those nonsense. Caroline ignored him. She pulled him closer to her, and kissed him. Suddenly, Damon felt something pointy. He pushed her away. He lay back on the bed. He tasted blood. He touched his lip and it was full of blood. He looked up to Caroline and he was scared to death. Her face was completely changed. Her eyes were all red and he could see the veins under her eyes. Her teeth were pointy. It was true... She was a vampire. As soon as Damon realized that he started to scream, but Caroline compelled him to be quiet. She bit him, fed him her blood & killed him. When Damon woke up and he didn't remember what happened. He ran away. He was so scared. How could Stefan saw him upset walking around. He asked him what happened, but Damon only stared at his neck.
"Damon, what are you doing?"
Damon breathed deeply.
"Damon, what the-"
His teeth became pointy and he ran up to Stefan and bit him. After that, he fed Stefan his blood and killed him. When Stefan woke up, he also didn't remember much. Damon told him everything, and said that he had to feed within 24 hours.
"What did you do to me, Damon? And why? Do you think I'm happy now? Do you think that this is what I wanted? Because if you do, then you're completely wrong! I never wanted this! You probably just did it because you didn't want to be alone, didn't you? Because you are that selfish. And you have always been like this. You always tell me that I should change, but look how you are. You are way worse than me!"
Damon touched his brother's shoulder. He felt so bad.
"No, DON'T YOU DARE TO TOUCH ME. I'M DONE WITH YOU."

Stefan was crying. He ran away, bawling about how this wasn't supposed to happen. At one point, all the pain was just too much. In a flash he remember that Damon told him that there was some sort of an invisible humanity-switch. If the pain was too much to handle, you could just turn it off. So that is what he did.
He turned it off.

Stefan awoke from his flashback. He wished he hadn't turned his humanity off, but just be strong, like Damon. Because now there was no way he could ever turn it back on. Just the thought that he had to feel that pain again, and break through that too killed him already. Stefan sighed. He decided that he had to apologize to Damon for his weird behavior. He knew that he went home, he saw him going inside the house. Stefan walked over there. He opened the door.
"Damon, can I talk to you for a minute?"
No answer.
"Damon, I know you're here, I saw you going inside. I just want to apologize."
Still no respond. Stefan walked to Damon's bedroom. He knocked.
"Damon?"
Again, no one replied. Stefan opened the door of Damon bedroom. His eyes widened.
"What the-"

A/N: I don't want to give away any spoilers yet. I want to keep it a bit mysterious :) I hope you enjoyed, and please give me feedback if you can? I just started so I'd like to hear what you think of it!