Dear Sir,
I don't know what to say to you. I am getting possessive, unnecessarily angry, mean spirited and I don't know what else. It is not something I am enjoying but it is not something that I can get rid of. I want to get you out of my system. I don't want to be so bothered by you any more...in fact I have a boyfriend who really loves me a lot and I have recently been unable to reciprocate his feelings because you are always messing with my mind. I just cried a while ago...it somewhat eased the pain. Then I prayed hoping to calm myself. Still when I saw you didn't reply to my last text, maybe you didn't even bother (and really why should you? as much as you r concerned I am just a student...no, if you ever read this I will be your creepy student) it again started the heart ache. The bitterness, the pain of not getting what I want...hell I don't even know what I want any more...and do u know the hardest part? I can't even tell anyone about this. Not to my friends, not to my boyfriend...no one, not even you...that is why I will never send this mail to u...cause I don't want you out of my life...even if it's just a glimpse, even if it's just a 'how was your exam text' I still want that. I still won't trade that for anything in this world. Even if it breaks my heart every time you give preference to other ladies over me..even if it tears my soul apart every time I don't get a reply to my text...I am ready to endure all that...because…maybe…
I love you...
yes, I said it...I love you...I don't know if it's the temporary attraction kind or the forever kind...but I do love you...I love you Mr. Jeff Winger...I love you. I have really fallen for you but you are hurting me like hell sir, and I hate you for that. In fact I hate myself…..
Annie stopped writing and looked at her computer screen. 'Am I going crazy?' she did not know any more but she sure felt like it.