Note: This idea popped into my head for Valentine's Day and dammit it's coming out whether the internet likes it or not.
See if you can guess who's talking.
I don't own Glee.
Chasm
As I walk down these stark pale halls
Lined with chattering bodies and metal-on-metal crashing
The hustle and bustle of public school life
I can't help but feel pain.
Torn in half, I look out the window
Feeling the emptiness of a soul-rending chasm
I hear the faint call of my name
As the football field summons me once more.
The footfalls distract me
As I take my frustrations out on this foam body
Tackling it to the ground again and again
Coach Bieste is very impressed.
She says I've been really working harder
She thinks it's because I'm dedicated
That I'm trying to prove my worth
But in reality she couldn't be more wrong.
I wrecked myself, my body and spirit
I kept myself broken when I should have made it whole
In fact, I broke it further and kept it that way
Not even the king's horses and men can help me now.
So what do I do?
Do I hold myself under?
Waiting to drown in self-pitying hate?
Or do I go back and try to repair my soul?
Dad noticed that something was wrong.
My grades have slipped, and I've been lashing out.
How do I tell him why or how?
He'd never understand what it is to be me.
When the halls are empty after school
I sit in the boys' locker room and I cry
For in my locker is a little plaster object
A man and woman holding hands
A wedding topper from weeks ago.
I take it in my hands and hold it
Singing softly to myself
About my sorrow and my pain
And how I can never repair it.
He's gone so far away
And he'll never come back
Because of what I did to him
How I treated him.
No one knows why I hurt him so badly
No one knows why I drove him off
I was jealous and scared
But I loved him so much and maybe I hated myself for that.
I know I can never fix what I broke
So from this moment and from now until forever
I must live with this emptiness inside me
This chasm dividing myself in half.
I loved you so much
That I drove you so far away
So I'll hold this wedding topper forever
Just to pretend I'm not such a jerk.