Someone
Is Waiting
I broke something important today.
I know that I should apologize but the words don't ever come out right. I'm not good with words like Hakkai is, so I can't make the apology pretty. I can't even yell or flirt until I am forgiven like Gojyo would. And Sanzo; What good would trying to harm my friends do? Even my fourth companion can not offer me any advice.
I know someone is waiting for me to speak.
They don't expect me to apologize. They don't even think I am capable of understanding anything beyond food, sleep, and how to do my job. I am an important part of the group but there's no way the others see me as an equal. I am just a baby, treated like a pet to them.
I realize that I can't speak words they will understand. I can speak, yes, but they do not know the heart of a child. They can not see the infinite wisdom my unique lineage has given me. They can not hear the centuries I spent in isolation, waiting for a chance to return to their side. These fools can not see how much I gave up to find them again. And I can't tell them.
But even if I can't, I know. Someone is waiting for me to curl up on their pillow after sundown, kyuu softly into their hair, and whisper my apology in the words of dreams so that this someone, this broken boy of a man, can smile and accept my apology without words.
Someone is waiting for me.