Letting Go
"I can't stop thinking about that night; every time I close my eyes I see her face." Wiping her sweat, she swings her feet over the side of her bed. Dangling her feet over the ledge of her bed, she can already feel the cold air touching her feet. Before she fully places her feet on the surface, she grabs a towel and wipes her forehead once again. Getting up she places her hand on her head, tightly closing her eyes and stumbling to the door she sees Prim's face. "Prim!" she yells, reaching for what is in front of her. She felt nothing but air; slowly she drops to her knees. "Why! Why does it have to be her? Why couldn't it have been me?" Tears were rushing down her face. Her eyes were like a broken faucet that kept leaking even after she tightly closed them and wiped them. Her knees were turning purple from the cold floor, but she refused to move. Weak and helpless she laid there waiting until the sun rose. "Katniss! Katniss!" She looked up at the door as the voice was coming closer. As the door slowly opened she saw a head popping through. Her eyes were barely opened and her vision was blurry. The sun was shining bright behind the figure and all she saw was the black figure standing there. "Katniss! What happened?"
As soon as the voice pierced her ears she knew who it was. Her lips were purple and shivering as she tried to talk, "Gale." She felt the warmth of his arms wrapped around her body. "Shhh, don't say anything." She laid her head on his chest, "What are you doing here?" Gale gently laid her back on the bed, wrapping her in the colorful quilt her mother kinted, "You need to take care of yourself." She pushed him away, "What do you care! You took away what was most important to me!" Her nostrils flare and she clenched her fist. Her wide opened eyes closed into tiny slits and her eyebrows were creased. Losing her temper, she pulled her fist back and fully extended her arm making contact with Gale's face. Her knuckles were red and the physical contact with Gale's face sent shock waves through her arm. "Ah," she screamed shaking her hand up and down trying to get rid of the numbness in her arm. Gale sat quietly looking at the ground as if he didn't feel any pain. Katniss looked up and saw the imprint she had left on Gale's face. "Well don't just sit there say something!" she clenched her fist once more. "I'm sorry Katniss, I didn't know she'll be there, I thought-" "Enough!" screamed Katniss and looked the other way. She placed her elbows on her knees and leaned her forehead on her hands. Katniss bit her lip trying to fight back the tears. "I can't get her back" she whispered softly.
Placing his warm hands underneath her chin, he slowly guided her face up looking at his face with very few dirt streaks across his cheek. She can tell he has been working at the factory before heading over to see her. "She was like a sister to me; do you believe that I really wanted to hurt her?" He looked straight into her eyes. Katniss didn't reply, "Katniss" "Gale, can you imagine losing someone so special so dear to you? Can you!" her eyes widen and her eyebrows slowly lifted up. Keeping his eyes on the floor he looked up, "I've lost you, I've lost the person I once loved my entire life." His voice was weak and quiet. She stared at him with her mouth open and the wrinkles in her forehead were slowly disappearing. She saw the tears building in his eyes. "Maybe I was wrong, to really believe that you didn't love Peeta but to think that you'll come back to me. To think that you think about me every night before you slept and that maybe you shared the same feelings I have for you with me. Maybe I was still the one you came to when you were in trouble." The tears streamed down his face. Trembling for words he continued, "But I can see it in your eyes now, what we once had doesn't exist anymore. Those memories are long gone." His hands slowly slipped from her chin and gently fell onto his lap. She felt his rough finger tips run across the bottom of her chin. Lost for words Katniss grabbed his hands, "Gale-" "It is okay Katniss, you don't have to say anything." He smiled at her and looked at the ground. Freeing his hands from her strong grip and slowly stood up. Walking towards the same way he enter he stopped. Barely turning his head with just the side of his face in sight he pulled open the door, "I'm sorry Katniss. You don't have to forgive me, but promise me you'll recover soon. Don't hide yourself too long, people will start to worry."
Katniss watch him exit without a simple good-bye. Tears fell down her cheeks and as they hit the floor she felt the pulse of her heart beat in sync with her tears. "I couldn't have told him," she thought to herself. "It is better if he didn't know." She reached for her pillow and squeezed it as hard as she could. Falling back onto her bed she laid quietly. Still holding the pillow between her chest and her arms she fell into a deep sleep.
"Katniss! Katniss! Help Me!" Looking around fiercely Katniss saw nothing but the woods surrounding her burning. Her eyes were getting watery due to the smoke caused by the red flames around her. The smoke soon built up blocking her path and her eyes were ready to give up. She closed her eyes and let her bow guide her through the woods. Katniss continued the direction of the voice. Approaching the voice she could hear she was getting closer. She opened her eyes for a quick peek and saw a little girl sitting on the floor. Running towards her Katniss tripped over a branch lying in her path way. She felt the pain from her knee and the throbbing from her palms. "Help me! Katniss!" With the terror hitting her ears she fought the pain and slowly rose to her feet. As she got closer to the girl she began to fade. Katniss was screaming her name but nothing was coming out of her mouth. Not a single sound came out as she opened her mouth. She reached out her hand but it was too late. In a split second she watched the bomb above the little girl go off. She watched as the girl exploded into pieces and nothing remained. Her heart was racing and she fell to her knees. She covered her eyes as tears were falling down. "Why Katniss, why didn't you save me, instead you watched me suffer." Removing her hands from her eyes she saw Prim's head lying in front of her. Her eyes were cut out and blooding was running down her cheeks from her nonexistence eyes.