AUTHOR'S NOTE: Just a little something on how Bellatrix felt after killing Sirius, just a little idea taken from the monologue of National Anthem by Lana Del Rey.
It hit me, hard. I watched him a few moments, before making her move. One... I appeared. Two... I breathed in. Three... A single, quick flick and the curse hit him square in the chest. I didn't deserve it, I didn't. I shouldn't have been the one to do it. He was my soul mate, my lover, my fighter. I knew he was the one for me, the one I would always love, the one I would always trust. I was forced to break that trust through means I could not control, I was told I did well. No one saw it my way, no one could know how I felt for him, not now though Master knew, he never said a word but he knew. I wanted him; he was something so great, so immense and powerful, so brave. The way he walked and talked everyone wanted to know him, I watched him fall, I couldn't do anything about it, I knew that, and in his last moments I saw in his eyes how he loved me too. I knew he did, I knew he wanted me as I wanted him. No matter how much I screamed, I pled; I cried for him back, nothing would bring him back. I broke, in front of everyone. I didn't do anything wrong, why did I deserve that? I was good, I was faithful, I returned. Please, please. Give him back. But in his last moments, I saw something in his eyes; I saw something that told me we would meet again. I knew there was only way for that to happen, I would have to meet the same fate as him. We promised each other as children we would go together, promised we'd live every day side by side, together, to be together. There was no sympathy, not for a woman like me, a woman who was forced to stand straight and stay strong; he would understand if I told him, he would know how it feels. I was told over and over 'love makes us weak', it was forced into me from a young age, and yet I fell in love and yes, I became weak for him. I saw him, in my dreams I saw him, I told him how I felt, he comforted me, his hands were on my skin, his warm hands that filled me with hope, he understood what I did, why I did it, he still loved me, he said. He told me every night he would visit me the next, and he did. He was my only company. Before it happened, we lay together at night, we were lovers. Powerful ones, everything about him made me fall more in love with him. Everything moved before me when I did it, the exhilaration this time didn't kick in. I watched as his eyes found mine, a slight smile on his lips 'I've always loved you' his eyes said, they remained on mine 'you know I had to do it' I told him silently, he understood. I killed Sirius Black, I killed him when I loved him, I was in love with him, I love him, I loved him, I was in love with him and I still am.