Addiction and Her Name
Artist: There For Tomorrow
Chapter 1
If I have to look at these white walls any longer I think I may actually snap. I've been in this room for days. I don't want to see anyone yet I don't want to be alone. There's too much time to think which I'm sure is their master plan. Let's leave her here to think about what she's done, yeah that'll work. I turn on my side laying donw on the most uncomfortable mattress. I try not to think about how many other girls have layed in this bed. Then again, maybe it's a good thing. It's a sign that I can get out as well.
It started out as nothing much. A few drinks here and there. At parties and gatherings, your practically obligated to sip champagne and mingle with the crowd. That was the basis of my life. My family being one of the most affluent in our social circle, I had to play my part. Clearly I played it a little too well and just became who I was. Every weekend there was some event we had to attend. Gala openings, new restaurants, banquets, you name it. I used to love that life. I loved shopping for new shoes, trying on different dresses, hunting for the perfect accessories. It was a life any girl would want to live...unless she actually had to.
Somewhere along the way, I got lost in the shuffle of things. The flashing lights would dim and I would fall into this darkness I couldn't explain. I never lived in a city long enough to make any friends. The people I called my friends weren't really friends, just the children of people my parents knew. We had no choice but to talk to one another. If it weren't for my brother Declan, I don't know what would have happened to me.
"Miss Coyne, you have a visitor," Ms. Morgan said as she knocked on my door.
"I'll be right out." I put on my slippers and opened the door.
"Fi! How are you?" I looked into the green eyes of my best friend Holly J. I hated seeing how worried she was about me.
"I'm not exactly sure." Holly J went to the windows and opened up the blinds.
"You need to get some light in here. Sitting in the dark will only make you feel worse."
"It's rehab, I'm not exactly seeing a silver lining."
"You get out in a few days, if that's not a brightside, I don't know what is," she said taking a seat on the edge of my bed.
I sighed. "I suppose you're right, I can't wait to get out of here. I think this place is making me crazy."
She looked around. "I can see why, it's so plain. Boring white walls, no splash of imagination, it's enough to make someone as creative as you want to rip the doors off this place."
I smiled. I loved having Holly J. around, she had a way of making everything better if only for a second.
I took a seat next to her. "Two more days and I'm a free woman! God, we have to celebrate. I'm thinking a girl's night out or something."
"Sounds like a plan. You really deserve it, you've done so well."
I hated talking about my recovery. I gave a little smile and changed the subject. "So what's new? How's everyone?" I only really cared to hear about one person, whether I wanted to admit it or not.
"Everyone's great. Let's see Riley and Zane are better than ever, Sav and I are still good,uh " she hesitated. Her green eyes searched my face for any changes. I put on my best poker face. I wanted to know how he was.
"And Adam?" I asked after a short pause.
She looked skeptical. "Honestly? He's a wreck. He's happy you'll be out soon but he's still nervous to see you."
"Is that why he hasn't come by to visit me?" I asked getting off the bed. "I'm stuck inside this hell-hole, he hasn't even visited once!"
"Fi, please relax. Just calm down." I did my breathing exercise. It didn't take long to steady myself.
"I'm sorry, I'm just a little upset."
"Kind of an understatement," she said jokingly. It was enough to make me go to a level 1 anger-wise.
"Yeah, I don't know. I though he's be in here all the time. I guess this whole thing has him freaked."
"He cares about you too much to see you like this I guess. I'm sure once you're out, he'll be with you plenty."
"I really hope your right," I said pacing the room. "I really do"