Chapter 1 – Nothing Lasts Forever

It is so easy to see
Dysfunction between you and me
We must free up these tired souls
Before the sadness kills us both

January 16, 2008:

She walked…and walked…and walked. For hours, she walked through the park in a daze, bumping into everyone and everything, not caring. Her feet seemed to know where they were going, she completely trusted them, as her eyes wandered all over the place, while the wind pushed her hair behind her.

She could feel her phone vibrating in her jacket pocket…and it kept vibrating.

"How could this happen to me?" she muttered to herself, soft tears forming in her eyes. Her face burned from the cold January air, but she didn't care.

Serena walked through the opening elevator doors, heading straight up the winding, marbled staircase in the Waldorf house to Blair's room.

"Blair," She knocked on the cracked door, pushing it open, immediately seeing the brunette sitting on her bed with her head in her hands, "hey." Blair looked up, giving Serena a weak look. "I came as soon as I got your message. What's wrong?"

Her mind, confused with so many different thoughts and emotions, felt like it was going to explode. She had found a small bench, a cold one, and sat down, the metal bars pressing the coldness against her body.

"I'm late." The way Blair spat those words out, all in one breath, made Serena jump. Her best friend looked like she was going to burst with tears and her maternal instincts immediately kicked in.

"It's okay," Serena moved closer to Blair, taking Blair's body in a tight grasp, "it'll be okay."

She found herself facing his house once again, only now from across the street. She needed him so much right now…she needed to be in his arms and she needed to hear his soft whisper…she needed him.

The sounds of cab horns, people talking, and all of the hustle and bustle finally woke her up from her daze. Her eyes blinked quickly, and then she jogged across the street.

Walking up to the stairs, she could feel tears forming n her eyes again, but they refused to roll down her cheeks. She though she was past the crying hoop-la.

"Ah, Miss Waldorf," The servant opened the door, "come in." She would've mustered up some kind of sarcastic remark, but her brain was too weak to think of one, so she just nodded.

"Mr. Archibald is upstairs."

"Thank you." she whispered as he took her jacket, the arms of the jacket sliding off the sleeves of her blouse.

"We need to know, Blair." Serena and Blair were back in Blair's room, sitting on the bed again. "We need to know if you're going to have a baby."

Blair shook her head, biting her bottom lip, "I'm scared." Shivers went up her spine all of a sudden as the fear began to sink into her body.

"I'll be right here…I promise."

He looked so peaceful in the library, quietly reading a big book in a leather chair, the walls of book intrigued her as she made way towards the door of the room.

But she stopped. And she started to panic. What was he going to say? How would they deal with it? Would he deal with it?

"Blair…" He opened the glass doors, worry was brushed all over his face. She stared at him, he was searching for something in her pained eyes.

And then she jumped into his arms, finally letting her tears fly as she buried her head in his shoulder. He was taken aback, but he comforted her, his hand gently sliding up and down her back.

"Shh…" he reassured her quietly.

"You have to tell someone, B." Serena advised Blair, who was now pacing around her room.

"I can't."

"You have to." she repeated. "You can't keep this a secret." Blair knew Serena was right, but there was no way anything that had happened would've sit well with anyone.

"And you know pretty well that someone will find out sooner or later, whether you say something or not."

"Hey," He pulled her into the room once she got her tears under control, "what's wrong?"

She pulled away from his gentle grip, facing towards the window, ultimately seeing the busy city that was hushed by the walls. "Everything. It's all falling apart." She faced him again, her lips quivering with the news they held.

"What's falling apart?" His eyes were concerned as they stared deep into hers, piercing her gaze.

"There's something I need to tell you…"