The one thing I don't get about being a stupid werewolf is this imprinting crap...i swear mostly everyone has gone through it,its weird especially since Embry imprinted on Alex,the gay guy that sadly I have to admit is hot hes also the jock at our school,i mean whoa who knew Embry was gay?And then me of everyone I imprint on stupid Edward Cullen yeah my mortal enemie...but rlly I dnt understand y...its a mystery to me.

~flashback~Bella got me and Edward to come over to celebrate her 19th birthday,Edward postponed the wedding and everything...it was weird but he did and now shes another year older...it was good. Maybe she'd choose me after all. Well I went to sit on the couch Edwards big retarded leechie head was in the way of the t.v so I just called him names in my head,he turned around looked me in the eyes and smiled it was like BAM!!!instant imprint!!!I ran out of the house fighting the urge to go up and just hug him and kiss him...ick.~end of flashback~

Its been 3 weeks since then and I have avoided Edward very well but I don't feel whole when I ran out of the house I left half of him with me...it sucks I haven't phased since then either...but today I have to so I have to not think of Edward Cullen. I ran home and ate spaghetti with my dad. I haven't even told him,i don't think hed mind I am gay...but me imprinting on a bloo...vampire thatd be the heart id rather imprint on Blondie then Emmett tear me to pieces and I wouldt have to deal with it!!Stupid Edward...y do I love u?I sighed and walked out of the house to get ready to patrol.

Hey Jake!Quil thought.

Oh hey.i thought back.

U feeling better?he asked.

Uh yeah just tired.i lied well I was tired.

Its just u and me tonight Embry bailed he had to go watch Alex's football said un-happy.

Oh.i mumbled.

I wonder whos thought.

Gross I chuckled.

I know...uh Sam said to check the outer rim and the moutains...which do u wanna take?he asked

Moutains.i said and ran ahead of him.I like to run it makes me feel good,the way the pads of my paws hit the ground I dnt know it feels nice.I ran into the moutains,and checked it out it was clear,but I still ran I found a small-ish meadow and decided to rest,so I phased back pulled on my shorts and layed down in the middle letting memories and fantasies of Edward flood into my mind it is the only way I could sleep,it was freaky but Id rather dream of him than not sleep at all.I wonder how he looks in the sunlight?Bellas so lucky she gets him all to herself,he is hers...i stopped there it hurt to think that he would never love me because he has Bella...my bestfriend the girl I used to soon found me,something cold slipped next to me but it was just a dream...i hope...it felt nice I wrapped my arm around it and just slept longer,i was was the first time I actually slept without waking up in weeks.

I dont know how long I was asleep or what the cold thing was but the next thing I know is I am all wet and Embry is THE HELL!!!I I needed to get u up he smiled. I knew I would dry off sooner but couldn't he have taken a more suddel approach?He helped me up and we ran home...well he ran home I went to the beach.I always go to the beach to think about...things...mostly Edward.I sat there for an hour then Bella came its weird to think about her Edward when shes around,it feels Jake she smiled okay here we bloodsucker let you go?i NOT BLOODSUCKER!!!UGH!!!Jake be nice and Edward is gone today he went hunting in the mountains not to far but far said sitting next to could that have been?no it couldnt he cant know can he?Hes been acting weird lately ever sincemy party...he seems starting to scare me Jake I dont think I could take it if he leaves whispered leaning on me.I dont think I could either.I I love him...you know I do she whined.I smiled and let her drone on about him acting strange...maybe Edward does now and thats how have you been?she just tired lately...but everthing is fine.i lied except about the tired wrong she asked.Y does something have to be wrong 4 me to be tired?i asked y did she know me so well?Jake you look sick...i mean like I did when Edward left and thats bad what wrong...did you imprint?she CRAP!!!!