Title: Pray To God He Hears You
Summary: Hawkeye is finding the war getting to him and his friends try to pull him out before he gets too deep.
Warnings: Angsty.
Notes: This fic was inspired by the song 'How To Save A Life' by The Fray. The lyrics are in Italic throughout the story. Sometimes I've directly quoted the song. I had no idea for a plot here, the story came from this song. The chapter titles come from the video which has words come up on the screen. I jotted them down and used them as I saw appropriate. I guess technically it's a song fic, but not one of those cheesy one's where someone here's the song and it describes just how they feel. The words are just there for decoration. It's friendship and nothing else!

"Step one you say 'we need to talk',
He walks you say 'sit down it's just a talk'"

1. Hold Still

"Hawk."

BJ Hunnicutt followed his bunk mate across the compound, trying to catch up with him.

"Hey, slow down will ya." BJ said, knowing his words were falling on deaf ears.

Hawkeye didn't stop walking until he got to the Swamp. Once he was inside, he simply stood there.

BJ for once was glad that Korea's winters were harsh and cold so that their tent offered them privacy. He stood there with Hawkeye for a moment before he moved over to the still and poured out two drinks. He offered one to Hawkeye who didn't take it, so BJ left it by the still before sitting on his cot. He drank his before he tried talking to his friend again. "We need to talk." He said matter of factly.

Hawkeye began to move again and worried that he'd leave the tent BJ got out of his seat and grabbed Hawkeye's arm. "Sit down. It's just a talk."

"He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through"

Hawkeye reluctantly sat on his cot. He smiled at BJ, a hollow thing. Like a mask he'd put there for show. BJ stared at his friend, looked into his eyes and tried to see what he was really feeling.

"There's nothing you could have done." BJ said, watching Hawkeye's reaction.

"That's practically what I did do," Hawkeye said. "Nothing."

"Hawk, there was no way. You did everything you could for him, but none of us could have saved him. If he'd gone to the best hospital he still wouldn't have made it through. You have to know that after you've been here so long."

Hawkeye looked at BJ then. Actually looked at him. His eyes were so intense and filled with such emotion that BJ had to look away. "You can't even look at me." Hawkeye said.

BJ's head immediately shot back up. "You think I can't look at you because I'm ashamed of what you did?" BJ said, knowing that Hawkeye was heading for a rough few days if he let him think such things. "Hawk, I've never been prouder of the way the fought for that's kid life. None of us would have done more. I hate to look at you and see you blaming yourself when it wasn't your fault. I know I would feel as bad as you do if I had been in your position and I know that you would be doing the same thing right now, trying to pull me out before I got too involved."

"Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right"

Hawkeye stood up but didn't move anywhere and BJ followed the movement upwards.

"Just stay here, get some rest." BJ pleaded.

"I can't rest." Hawkeye made his way out of the tent, heading off to the left.

BJ followed him to the door, watching as his friend walked away. He then left the place himself, walking off to the right.

TBC