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Chapter 1: Adoption

Bella's POV

I didn't understand what possessed me to do this. It was absolute madness and some may even go as far as to say completely stupid.

I could only hope that this would heal, or at least help mend, the whole that had been left in my heart years ago.

When I was human I had a baby girl. Renesmee Carlie Cullen. It was Edward's idea to give her away when the Volturi threatened us and her. I didn't want to do it but Edward did. We had very bitter arguments about it all of the time.

Then one day while I was out hunting Edward made his move. He took her far and left her at an orphanage.

I nearly killed my then-husband when I found out about what he had done. I immediately divorced him and left. I hadn't heard from him or the Cullens in over 14 years.

All this time I have been searching for my daughter. But that didn't stop the emptiness that I felt. That's why I made a decision. The decision to adopt a child or a baby. I wanted to be a mother. Babies and children made me happy and I wanted one of my very own.

So here I was at the local orphanage. After having passed the preliminary background I had been deemed a good candidate to adopt a child or baby. Now I was here to pick the one I wanted.

I walked straight up to the receptionist who wouldn't look up from her stack of papers for nothing.

"Ahem" I cleared my throat hoping that would get her attention.

"How may I help you?" she asked in a tone of voice that clearly meant she was irritated.

"I'm here to adopt. I'm Isabella Cullen"

"Oh yeah. Right this way ma'am"

She led me to the area where all of the younger children were. There were also babies in there.

One baby in particular caught my attention. He was easily the smallest and the youngest baby there. He was also the youngest. He kept bellowing his lungs out. Tears streaming down his bright red face.

Something about him in particular drew me in. The lady, or Anna, as her name read, started to show me some other kids. However, the baby boy drew me in.

I walked over to his crib and observed him. He was an adorable baby boy . He had bronze-curly hair that reminded me of Renesmee. His chocolate brown eyes were exactly like hers to. He was beautiful. He was perfect.

I reached in the crib for him and picked him up. I held him close and his crying lessened a little.

"Excuse me ma'am but you're not allowed to hold the babies" It was Anna the receptionist again.

"Excuse me? Why not?"

"No one is allowed to touch the babies unless you're feeding them or changing their diapers. That's it. Other then that they are to stay in their cribs at all times"

"You never just hold them to comfort them or give them affection?"

She made a face. "Ewww. No"

That seemed cruel to me. Poor baby.

"Well I want this baby. He's the one" I told her.

"No. Trust me you do not want him. All he does is cry. He's cried non stop since we got him a month ago. Annoying little thing he is"

Annoying little thing? He's a baby for goodness sakes! A baby that doesn't even get any kind of attention at that! This woman was annoying me!

"I don't care. I want to adopt him" I said through gritted teeth.

"Okay, fine. You can have him. I just need to give you his file and have you sign some papers"

I looked through his file and there was not much information about him or his parents. His mother was a 14 year old girl. It didn't say her name though. The father's information was empty.

"Is there anymore information on his parents?" I could not help but ask.

"No. His mother was a young teenager. 14 years old I think. She looked a lot like you actually. She came in a month ago to give him to us. The baby was conceived in rape. That's all she said about the father"

Rape? A 14 year old girl was raped and ended up pregnant? How sad and heartbreaking.

"She couldn't take care of the baby so she dumped the bastard on us instead. Stupid girl. She looked like a slut . By the way she was dressed she asked for that rape-"

"Stop! Just stop!" I shouted. I could not take it anymore. This woman had pushed the very last of my buttons.

"How dare you say that about a teenage girl. How dare you blame that girl for what happened to her!"

I was seeing red now. I had to calm myself down before I hurt the baby boy in my arms.

"You know what just give me those damned papers so I can sign them already and get out of here with my baby. I can't stand even being within 10 feet of a woman like you" I growled.

I signed the papers so fast that I was surprised I didn't tear the paper in half.

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