"Kamui"
'-Powerless-'
Fuuma always - always, always- finds him, one thing leads to another and then the damn human kisses him and everything disappears, Kamui stands weak and harmless.
That human has such power over him so his mere presence, as well as being irritating, makes his chest tighten and raises the heat all around him.
He hates him a lot, too much, but not quite Fuuma as a living… thing -which would be giving the bastard too much credit- he hates the feeling that arises within him whenever he sees him, whenever he feels him… whenever he wants him. Those feelings shouldn't exist and less for such a thing as that human.
Kamui shouldn't feel anything…
'Your heart should be made of ice Kamui, you shouldn't feel, you wont feel! Even less for beings as repulsive as humans'
The voice resonates in his head… he doesn't remember who said it, if it was Hokuto or Subaru, but he recalls the words…
'As cold as ever Kamui-kun'
And those, he does remember who said them and Kamui hates the mocking tone of that damn hunter.
He's always been the stronger one, the focused one, the one that sought the logic of everything, the one that killed; killing without batting an eyelid, without disgust, without remorse.
He has always been the one that keeps them standing, the one that keeps Subaru alive and the one that held no emotions so to protect them, to protect Subaru of any harm because his brother was as easy to break as a china doll and Subaru was everything. Kamui cannot afford to lose him - that's why Kamui will kill that hunter because nobody is taking his brother away from him- although, deep down, he knows he already did.
That's why he hates that human so much, not only for being his equal in battle, but for having so much power over his emotions that with only one slight tracing of his fingers over his skin, Kamui looses every bit of self-control he possesses.
And the damn bastard knows and takes advantage of it. Kamui glares, tries to avoids him, tries to fight against him, really hard… but he can't, he just melts against the damn leader of the tower and his mind goes blank.
The existence of this being is so irritating to him that he would really like to kill him, but he can't and that, more than anything else, is what disconcerts Kamui.
He cannot kill Fuuma. He can't. As much as he tries –and he does try-, he just can't.
Therefore it always ends the same, so close to that human that his breath tangles with the bastard's. Their hearts beating so closely that Kamui has no more option but to make melodies out of Fuuma's rhythmical heartbeat.
It's terrible and degrading, for Kamui, to be so weak, so helpless, so painfully manipulated by a human. It is humiliating, the need, so desperate and insane, of the heat of a being so blatant and cynical.
Fuuma smiles - the evil smile, (that smirk) that makes his knees go numb and his face heat up - then touches him – with those damned hands that can be everywhere and burn his skin open - then kisses him – the evil mouth, which makes his heart beat so fast it feels as it will rip out of his chest and makes him beg for another one – and humiliates him –the damn sexy bastard! - leaving him open and vulnerable.
But the worst thing isn't that it happens – very, very often- it's that, it doesn't matter how much he denies it, Kamui really enjoys it.
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