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Oh-em-gee this chapter is so sad.
Poor Yuuki, poor Zero.
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I felt tears leak out of my resisting eyes, I didn't want to seem weak especially when Kaname sat there inches away, his face carved out of stone and his eyes flat and emotionless. But I sank to the floor, my shaking legs unable to support my body and I buried my face in my trembling hands, grief swallowing me. But anger was also there flaring and pulsing through my veins, how could he do it me. After four years, after four years of slowly breaking the barrier he had built up around him, after four years I thought he had let me inside, broken down the wall that separated us. I looked up at Kaname, and grimaced, since when had a vampire and a human ever fully understood each other anyway? The image of him when I very first saw him, his face etched so clearly with pain, despair and suffering and his violet eyes showed nothing but unimaginable torture. His catatonic state had lit something on fire inside me and I found myself nurturing him, in the vain hope that maybe I could help his heart heal. In those four years I thought I had been someone he could lean on, a shoulder for him to lean on. But here he lay, dying. A violent sob broke out of my chest and I felt Kaname rise from his seat, slowly and gently. I looked up ashamed but he leant down and tucked a lock of my hair behind my cheek so he could see my face.
"It's ok, Yuuki" He murmured, his voice a caress against the air as he soothed me. His eyes bore into mine, reassuring my heart that Zero would survive. I let a feeble smile touch my cheeks and his own cheeks lifted in response and he wound his arms around me, pushing me against him. "There's my Yuuki" I clung onto his jacket tighter, never wanting him to let go and he rubbed his hands along my back in a comforting motion.
"Kaname" I whispered, my voice course and broken. "Kaname, I miss him so much" Kaname stiffened at my words and his arms fell to his side quietly. I looked up nervously, afraid of what my words might cost me, he was running his fingers through his hair and smiled once more at me, but it didn't touch his eyes.
"I'll go see what the nurses are saying, Yuuki, you should get some rest" I nodded at his words, but I new that until I saw Zero's eyes alight with there usual burning determination , sleep would never touch me.
"Ahh, my wonderful Yuuki has returned to me!" Exclaimed the Chairman flippantly, flying out of the kitchen exuberantly. I sighed and gave a little wave and in less then a second his face dropped dramatically."Ahh, no change on Zero, what will I do without my brilliant son to protect the school, and poor Yuuki will be on her own and…" I stalked out of the room not bother to keep up with his erratic trains of thought and collapsed on my bed and stared at the plain, peeling ceiling, immersing myself in thoughts that were none to pleasant. The image of Zero, sprawled against has sheets, his body contorted and anguish clear on his face. Blood was splattered across his chalk white face and the constant flow of crimson red coming from his bare chest made it harder and harder to distinguish his clothes from the sheets. But it wasn't the ample amounts of blood or his agonized face that made me collapse in a heap when I first laid my eyes on the scene; it was the Bloody Rose that Zero had so clearly pointed at himself, there mere memory causes a silent tear to run down my cheek. Zero loathing his vampirism so much, has attempted to take his life, rather than face a world of onslaught and blood lust. It was a decision that had my heart shredding itself into tiny pieces. Distant voice filtered in from the kitchen and I strained to catch what they were saying, it sounded oddly like an argument but their voices sank lower and I couldn't hear what is was about. I heard footsteps approach and I shrank away, not wanting anyone to see me in my current state.
"Yuuki" The chairmen murmured quietly coming into my room "The nurses are allowing visitors for Zero" The final piece of my heart shredded, would I be able to cope seeing my best friend in a hospital almost dead? But I knew I had to, just to see, just to know. So I got up and nodded, not trusting myself to speak. "Ok, Kaname will escort you" I could only nod again as Kaname appeared behind the chair man reluctantly, seeing him sent a jolt up my broken body, he walked in slowly his foot steps barely making a sound.
"Lets go Yuuki" His voice was still so gentle and it sent a strange warmth through my body.
"Ok" I only barely managed to string together those two letters, but that small feat gave me confidence. The confidence to face whatever lay behind the Hospital Doors. I didn't take in the surrounding as Kaname and I walked, my mind was preoccupied thinking of the sunny days of Zero and I roaming the school and the careless banter we would have had.
"I'll wait here" Kaname spoke softly and I felt relief swarm over me, at least now if I broke down no one would see me. "I trust you know where to go" I had stared at the door so many times, waiting for news and imaging the worst for what lay inside, it was a place I would never forget. My hand shook as I attempted the simple task of opening a door, but finally I managed to wrench it open and peer inside.
"Zero" I whispered loudly my voice breaking, I ran to the edge of this bed. The tears were falling thick and fast now. "Zero" I said again more loudly. My whole body quaked and I looked up at him. His face was so calm and serene and for a split second I wondered if he was happy. Happy not to have to worry about his desire for revenge, but I was selfish. I wanted Zero back to me, back to the world that caused him so pain. "I promised I would be there for you" My throat was so chocked up my words were barely audible "Why did you do this to me, Zero" I couldn't see anymore, my eyes were so full of tears. "I love you…Zero".
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