A crush: a brief but intense infatuation for someone, especially someone unattainable. An obsession: an idea or thought that continually preoccupies or intrudes on a person's mind.

Neither of these words nor their definitions quite described what Colin felt for Harry. What he had been feeling these past four years was certainly not brief. It also wasn't something that was constantly preoccupying his mind either. What Colin felt was undeniably Love. Occasionally he had bouts of intense passion. This wouldn't have been a problem, if not for Colin's unsurety in his sexuality, his general shyness and the fact that Harry seemed so unattainable.

Often Colin would look at Harry and get butterflies in his stomach. When he saw him at the other end of a corridor Colin would try to look cool and calm and collected, while trying to appear 'cute' as well. This was a sort of subconscious thing, which he couldn't help but do. Every time he looked at Harry when they were near each other he hoped to catch him staring, though it was yet to happen. Colin had had many dreams where harry loved him back or they ended up together or just even Harry admitted he had feelings for him. This reassured Colin. However he also often came to terms with the reality that this was unlikely. Sometimes he cried at the thought of this. Sometimes Colin would think his feelings for Harry were finally going away, but then he would realise that they would not stop tormenting him yet.

Colin liked loving Harry, but at the same time, he hated the fact that nothing good had or ever would come of it. Thinking about this made him sigh out loud. "What's wrong colin?" Isak asked him. Isak Andersen was one of his four dorm-mates, and was from Denmark. "Nothing. Just thinking about the impending O.W.L.S" Colin Lied. Isak laughed.

After getting changed, Colin and Isak went downstairs to meet the rest of their group for breakfast. Their rather large friendship group consisted of Gyffindors: Laura Braithwaite, Alex Kim, Isak and Colin; the Ravenclaws: Judy Hepburn and Lakshmi Gupta; and the Hufflepuffs: Michael Woodridge and the twins Mia and Lucas Roth. They were all in Colins year. Currently Judy and Michael were dating. Everyone else who were in relationships were dating people out of their group. Isak was dating Audrey Clearwater and Lakshmi was dating Anthony Goldstein. Right now they were all stressing because it was their 5th year: and with the 5th year came the O.W.L exams.

Unfortunately, being in different houses meant that they had to sit at different tables. After Alex, Isak, Laura and he had sat down to eat, Colin's gaze was immediately drawn to Harry, Ron, Hermione and Ginny. Harry had obviously had a haircut, and looked so hot, sitting there, laughing with his friends.

"Colin?" Laura Asked.

"Hmm?" Colin replied, tearing his eyes off Harry as fast as he could.

"What were you looking at?" oh no. Colin saw a glint in her eye. This could be dangerous. Colin started to feel panicked.

"wha- oh, um, Nothing. Just thinking about exams and ahh, studying and, ya know, that stuff." Colin had successfully managed to change the topic and spark a conversation. Phew. Then he saw Laura looking back and forth from him to Harry's group. Holy Shit. Mother of God. Jesus, Joseph and Mary. Oh, Lord. Why in Hell? Goddammit. He was running out of swear words to say in his mind. He joined it on the conversation and tried to ignore the pit of dread his stomach had become.

Colin avoided eye contact with Laura for the rest of the day. He could not have anyone suspecting anything – especially not Laura. She was famed throughout their year for having surprisingly accurate intuitive when it came to guessing who people liked or who would get together. She had had a major part in bringing Judy and Michael together. They had been dating for nearly a year now. So, yeah, that made Colin slightly worried.

In the evening, after all their lessons, Colin walked to the Library to study. Ideally they would be doing it in the common room, but since they were all in different houses, that wouldn't work. It also provided excuses to avoid conversation with Laura.

Authors Introduction:

Hello, I'm Sylvie. I'm Writing this most likely because i'm bored or have school work to do and want an excuse not to do it. If for some reason you keep reading this story until I Abandon it: BE WARNED. I give up really easily. I am very creative, but I also have imagination droughts. So if i stop for a while and then post three or four chapters in a few days, now you know why. I'd just like to say thank you for reading my story!

p.s. By the way I DON'T DO SMUT. Just letting you know, so It'll mostly be kissing and suggestive themes at most. :-)