Dear S,
You want to know the truth? What's been going on inside my head? Well here it is. I'll bare my soul to you, drop all my walls and defenses I've set up over the years. I'll tell you here what I've been to afraid to say out loud, at least to your face.
I love you. I don't know quite when it happened, but it did. I don't think it was when I first met you, though I did find you physically attractive then. It could have been after I got to know you. Your personality did draw me to you more and more as I got to know you better. Or maybe it was the night I sent you that message.
I never thought you would respond the way you did. I didn't think you would go for it. I could be egotistical and think who wouldn't take up an offer like that, but I'm not egotistical. I didn't think you liked me like that. I guess I was wrong.
Whatever the case, I have fallen in love with you. I allowed myself to have feelings for you and you dug yourself into my heart. I opened myself up and you snuck inside. I can't stop the way I feel about you. I've tried.
Why would I fight the way I feel? Because I don't know how you really feel. I've tried to talk to you about it, but we never really get anywhere. The most we get is I like you, you like me, but where do we want this to go?
You said you don't think you want a relationship. The sad news is no matter what, we do have a relationship. It's not very well defined, but it's there. The things we've been doing constitute a relstionship, even if it is just physical.
You asked me where I would like this to go, what I want. For awhile I was unsure. I kept thinking about the consequences of all possible choices. I was afraid that no matter which one I choose, or which one I told you would destroy our friendship and what we have going on.
I'm not afraid anymore. I want to take this to the next level. I want to be yours and you to be mine. I want to be able to touch you with others around. Not the touches of a friend, I want to be able to cuddle up to you and to kiss you. Hell, I want to know where we stand on kissing in general so I can kiss you when it's just us two and not feel bad.
I'd give up everything to be with you. Anything you want, all that I am, I'll give to you. I'd give up forever just to hear you say you feel the same. I'd give up my life for you and all the other cliché things I can think of Just to be with you.
Forever Yours,
Me