Crepusculum Stella: Twilight Star

By: Silver-Serval

Disclaimer: I merely own my character taking the place of Bella... Other than that, Stephenie Meyer owns the Vampire Saga.

Summary: Bella never existed, but Stellar did. Stellar moves to Forks after her parents disappear. Stellar herself in not 'alright', though not clumsy, she's not very sociable either. Only when the handsome boy in her lunch hour catches her eye does she ever feel like she'll fit in... But, wait... 'How did he know I was thinking that?!'

Author's Note: I finished Twilight in one night. I'm rereading Eclipse at the moment - I love these books!! The ideas are pouring in now, especially since I'm listening to Nightwish, my favorite band and my most serious vice. xD!

I used to dabble in the vampire fiction-writing, but I lost my motivation... Until I read Twilight, that is. Everything, including ideas, are back in full force. So please, forgive me if my writing is a little lame, I'm not going to steal every idea from the book... I'm pretty good at improvising! xD My writing should get better soon, so please deal some constructive criticism, and nice reviews are always welcome as well, lol.

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Chapter 1: Wish

I sighed softly, staring blankly out the window of my room. The sky was an overcast grey, the same color it had been when I'd first gotten here three days ago. Unfortunately, it was raining, sorta. Sure, it was winter, but it should surely be snowing. Who hadn't heard of a white Christmas, even if you had to use fake snow?

I scowled at the window pane, I sure hadn't. But here in Forks, they must have enjoyed the rainy weather rather than the chilly snow.

The soft clicking sound made me blink, gaze torn from the detestable weather. It wasn't as if I hated rain, I loved it in fact, but if it was too cold outside to dance in said rain, I hated it. My eyes wandered to the door which opened a crack. My breath caught in my throat for a moment until a furry head with tan pointed ears attached peeked around the door.

"Wish!" The kitten meowed at me, her aqua eyes large. "I thought you were a rat," I added sheepishly. Then again, I was stir-crazy. "Come here, Wish, come to Momma." The tailless kitten slipped through the cracked door, bounding to the bed. She meowed once more before leaping onto the quilt draped across the foot of the bed, claws allowing her to stay on the spot until I grabbed the scruff of her neck and pulled her close.

Wish rolled onto her back, aqua eyes staring at my curiously. I was immediately reminded of a ficitonal book series about warrior cats that I'd read on the plane on my way to Forks. I grinned, right hand scratching the fuzzy up-turned belly, "You'd be a rotten warriors, Wish. The Shadowclan cats would eat you up. In fact..." I mock growled while making claw motions with my hand at Wish's head.

It was just too funny when she automatically reached up to bat carelessly at my fingers. She closed her eyes to yawn, little, white kitten teeth glinting in the dim light. It seemed, to me, that I wasn't the only bored person.

"Wishy-baby, wanna go outside?" Her tan ears perked up acutely as if saying 'yes'. "Alright then, let's go walk the forest real quick. I won't be able to tomorrow, I have school." Finally. The high school had been out for nearly a week, so far as I knew, because pipes had flooded the school.

Within moments, I carefully plopped Wish on the bed and darted to my closet to find a different skirt, just in case it began raining again. I tossed a jean mini skirt onto the bed and carefully pulled off my Yuna-like skirt that I'd made myself. Wish watched my hang it, for she was still glancing curiously in my direction when I flounced over half-naked in my tank top and pale blue panties.

After slipping the skirt on, I snagged a quickly protesting Wish and bounced into the hallway. I grabbed my band wrist wraps from the table beside the door and bit one tightly between my teeth while trying not to drop the struggling Wish. Repeating the same with the other arm, I slipped my feet into a snug pair of black hiking boots beside the door. My other pets had gathered around my at this point, eyes glittering in a bemused manner.

I caught them looking at me and grinned sheepishly, "Kinslayer, you're in charge." Said tortoiseshell tabby looked stricken then meowed as if he'd understood me. Grinning like a fool, I waved at the group of felines and slipped out the open door.

Wish bit and clawed at my arm as we stepped onto the porch and I dropped her into a pot of dirt, hand wrapped around where I'd been wounded. "Wish I had an Angel!" Another odd thing, I guess, about me: my cats were all named after songs by my favorite band, Nightwish. "Bad girl! Do you want to go back inside? I'll walk alone!"

Wish seemed to look apologetic and she mewled pathetically until I picked her up at arm's distance to scrutinize her carefully. "Fine, I guess. You're forgiven." She meowed loudly and darted off in reply as I placed her on the ground. She disappeared into the knee-high grass; I was only able to follow her by the loud meowing sounds.

We hit the edge of the woods and I found her waiting, aqua eyes seeming to smile at me. Grinning in a reply, I darted ahead now and she followed in my wake.

It was a game, almost like follow the leader.

"I wish I had an angel with one moment of love, I wish I had your angel tonight." My clear, sweet voice filled the woods surrounding Wish and I as I followed again in her wake. I was content to let her lead, for now, and I continued my song. "Deep into a dying day, I took a step outside an innocent heart. Prepare to hate me, fall when I may, this night will hurt you like never before."

Wish mewled from her perch on a log nearby. I grinned, scooping her up and continuing onwards to the meadow we'd discovered the day before yesterday. "Old love, they die hard. Old lies, they die harder. I wish I had an angel for one moment of love, I wish I had your angel, your Virgin Mary undone. I'm in love with my lust, burning angel wings to dust. I

wish I had your angel tonight!" The last note of the chorus drifted eerily through the forest; a grin drifted to my face as we hit the border of the meadow.

Wish struggled from my grasp, this time without claws, and began bouncing through the damp wild flowers and knee-high weeds. I chuckled and darted forward. "I'm going down so frail and cruel. Drunken disguise changes all the rules. Old loves, they die hard. Old lies, they die harder."

I paused at the lonesome pine tree and plopped beneath it's boughs on the prickly brown-green needles. "I wish I had an angel for one moment of love, I wish I had your angel, your Virgin Mary undone. I'm in love with my lust, burning angel wings to dust. I wish I had your angel tonight."

My voice stilled, the meadow falling into a deadly silence. The only audible sounds now was Wish attacking the weeds and the distant stream that bordered the meadow to the left.

I should have been put at ease, but I wasn't. Why? The songbirds had stopped...

I glanced to the left, then the right; I could have sworn I saw some bushes rustle to my immediate left when I looked that way again. My heart stopped as I lurched forward into a flat-out run. "Wish!" The weeds moved towards me, my kitten coming to the pained call. Wish leapt into my arms as I bent low.

I barely had enough time to tuck my chin to my chest, my arms wrapping protectively around my baby, as something knocked my flat.

My head crashed into the ground first, closely followed by my side, then my knees as I rolled against the cold ground. Only a second after my eyes opened to find a pair of black eyes glaring down into mine did I realize Wish was gone.

But even then, it was hard to think while staring into those depthless topaz eyes. They seemed to see me through and through before they turned away. Only then did I realize that I hadn't been breathing. Inhaling sharply, I struggled into a sitting position. I groaned sharply, clutching at my head, falling backwards.

The depthless eyed figure stared at me, and in the coming dusk I realized dimly that I couldn't tell who it was. They turned back to the unmoving figure of Wish who made a strangled whimpering sound.

My eyes turned a hateful midnight blue and I lunged at the figure. "You hurt her! You hurt Wish!" I could've sworn that they were so stunned at my outburst that when my hands found their throat, I'd have knocked them to the ground.

Instead, I found myself pinned, wrists in a frozen grip of ice. And though I struggled, I knew that I'd failed. But I struggled anyway, threats flowing from my mouth. "Don't you dare touch her again; I'll kill you!"

A chuckled, rich with bemusement came from the figure. "Kill me? Have fun."

It irritated me even more now, "If you touch her, I will."

The man, or I was pretty sure it was a man, smirked. His velvety voice surrounded me, "I think you'll let me have that cat, as a gift for ruining my evening."

The eyes were so hypnotic, and the voice so smooth I nearly gave in. Only another strangled meow of pain from Wish broken the trance. I smiled dreamily, "No." It was all too easy to raise my knee and hit the man where it hurt the most. Of course, he grunted in pain and rolled to the side.

Since I was free, I wasted no time grabbing Wish and scrambling off in the general direction of the stream we'd found. I heard the footfalls behind me and grimaced. It was by the fate of the Goddess that I tripped and flew forward to land with my head right beside the stream.

I lunged into the extremely high, bone-numbing water, and as I resurfaced, I coughed pain flooding my body. It was quickly numbed away as I held Wish close to my body, spnning around to see a lanky figure watching with piercing black eyes.

"You cheated."

"Yeah, well you asked for it," My voice was shaky, my whole body was. In fact, my heart was threatening to stop right now, but keeping Wish safe from this lunatic kept me awake, midnight blue eyes furious.

It had just been a matter of time, I realized dully as my knees gave out and my body crashed into the freezing water. It was pure reflex that I thrust Wish above water to try and keep her somewhat dry. It was also on reflex that I tried to take a breath of air for my shrieking lungs. I swallowed water and began coughing.

A wave of darkness overtook my open eyes, willing them to drift shut. It was too easy to answer with a loving yes. With a second thought for Wish, my arm wilted and dropped into the water, my baby still carried carefully in it's grasp as I began to drift.

There was a barely audible curse and a strong arm grabbed my waist, hoisting me out fo the water with ease. My head lolled to touch my chest, Wish still clamped loosely in my hand. I felt myself carefully dropped somewhere dry, a hand slapped my back. Water spewed from my lips as I fought to claim life again.

I felt detached from my body as Wish was taken from my grip. Of course I struggled, but lips pressed against my temple right above my ear, "Shh, relax." His velvety voice soothed me slightly and I stopped, but my eyes opened wide, back to their original icy blue as I searched for my missing baby.

I had barely enough warning, Wish being dropped carefully into my lap, to hunch over, and the hand against my back disappeared. I opened my eyes again, glancing to my left.

He was gone; Wish and I were safe.

I nearly rejoiced then and there, but the pained nearly inaudible mewl from my lap caught my attention. There my baby lay, front paws moving jerkily, back not moving at all. Tears flooded my eyes, mingling with the numbing water from the flooded stream, "W-wish..."

Aqua eyes caught mine and I whimpered myself, biting hard on the inside of my cheek to keep from crying any more. "Come on, Wishy-baby. Let's get you better, 'kay?"

It was impossible to save her. It was all too obvious her spinal cord was broken. She'd die soon anyway, it should be as painless as possible, for she had given me so much and taken so little in return but a warm house and loving family.

I held the mortally wounded kitten to my chest, savoring the smell of vanilla from her recent bath. "I'm sorry you're hurt, baby, I'm so very sorry." Turning to face the stream, I held her at arm's length, icy, pained eyes regarding her carefully. "I forgive you for everything, please forgive me now..."

Wish mewled softly, purring to the best of her broken ability. As I thrust her beneath the numbing water and held her there, I broke into tears. It only seemed fitting to save her from the pain. But was I really saving myself?

I held her under so long that my hands numbed over and the stream nearly ripped her from my grasp. Carefully, to make sure that I wouldn't drop her, I slid off my tank top, my white bra showing brightly through the twilight darkness.

It was all too easy to wrap Wish up as I slowly walked up the little incline to the tree where I had been sitting. It was obvious the man was still here, I felt his eyes burning into the back of my head and neck. Pulling the cloth-wrapped kitten closer to my chest, I paused, attempting not to loose it and fall. After a moment, I regained my sense of balance and continued the final feet to the tree where I lowered the bundle to the ground.

The ground was relatively dry here, so it was somewhat easy for me to dig up a suitable sized hole. I glanced down at my stained hands and reached for Wish's bundle. I held it once mor to my chest, the sweet smell already fading form existence. "Please forgive me, Wish," And with that, I placed her in the ground and began scooping dirt over her.

The glare of the eyes lessened and I smiled bitterly, a song ringing through my head. Hey, it was fitting. "I wish I had an angel for one moment of love, I wish I had your angel, your Virgin Mary undone. I'm in love with my lust, burning angel wings to dust. I wish I had your angel tonight..." A bitter smile rose to my lips as I stood, task completed, my voice rising in sadness and grief, "I wish I had an angel, I wish I had an angel, I wish I had an angel, I wish I had an angel."

And with that, I turned, walking back towards the edge of the meadow. I needed to go home...

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