Summary:Bella is just your average small town, tomboyish, stubborn yet shy, seventeen year old girl. Pretty normal, right? Well, not really, did I mention that Bella has a secret? No? Must have slipped my mind. Throw in a cheating and abusive boyfriend, alcoholic parents, and a secret that would make any person cower in a mixture of fear and pity and what do you have? A not-so-perfect life, right? Thought so. So anyway, Bella finally gets the nerve to leave her small town behind. She moves to California in hopes that she will finally have a chance at a normal life. Lesson learned.....never trust a school news flier....they tend to lie. Watch how Bella meets Emmett, Jasper, Rosalie, Alice, and, of course, Edward. (the biggest player in the school.) But will Bella tell her new friends her darkest, deepest secret? Or will she always push away the people she cares about? Will she open up to Edward? Or will Edward open up to her? Read and find out!

Disclaimer:I do not own, nor will I ever own Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse, Or Breaking Dawn. They all belong to the wonderful author Stephanie Meyer. Any of the songs you see are NOT written by me, they all belong to their respectable owners. No copyright infringement intended.

Warning: This is my first fanfic on , so therefore, it may suck. Their will be a lot of song writing in this fanfiction. If you do not like that then either skip those parts or just don't read. Their will also be a lot of songs repeating themselves. (Maybe, I haven't quite decided yet:)

Pairings:Eddie/Bella, Alice/Jazzy, Emmy/Rose, Carlisle/Esme, Jacob/Angela, and Victoria/James.

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"Mom, I'm home!" I yelled as I threw down my back-pack, I didn't get an answer....but I really didn't expect one. I went quietly into the living room, only to find my mother passed out on the couch. Surrounding her was two and half empty bottles of Vodka. Figures, I glanced at the clock, Phil should have been home by now. Then again he was probably at a bar, making up for the lost time when he wasn't allowed to drink. Phil is my step-dad, he is really nice, but like my mom, he is an alcoholic in denial. I quickly did my afternoon routine, I put a pillow under my mother's head, I put a blanket over her, and I cleaned up the vodka bottles. Next, I took a warm washcloth and tried to soak up the spilt beer and vodka, then I put some really good smelling stain remover over it. After that, I threw the washcloth in the dirty laundry, cleaned the rest of the house, put some pain killers by the table so when my mom woke up, she wouldn't have to deal with a hangover. Then I set a towel by the toilet in the bathroom, for when my mom would throw up.

After I was done with my chores, I went upstairs, I had already finished my homework at school, like I do every day, so I was completely bored. Five minutes had past by and so I decided to play my guitar. After an hour I glanced at the clock again. Time to go, I thought. I quickly grabbed my jacket and snuck out my window. I then ran down town and waited for the others to arrive. I guess your probably wondering what the hell I'm doing huh? Well, I'm in a band, I'm the lead singer actually, but I play guitar and piano. My parents don't know, but I don't really think they care. Still, it would be nice to go on stage singing and see your parents smiling and shouting your name proudly. But I guess I'll never see that though.

I guess I should introduce my my band mates. James is my bass player, he's two years older than me, (I'm seventeen by the way) and he has long shoulder length blond hair and blue eyes. Victoria, she's my drummer, she's also Jame's girlfriend (same age). She has long curly red hair, and green eyes, and like me and James, pale skin. Laurent is my guitar player, he has beautiful, dark brown skin, chocolate colored eyes, and black dreadlocks.

That pretty much sums up the band, and for the record they all do the back up vocals and harmonies, but for some songs, it's just me and Victoria. Anyway, so after they arrived, James signed us up and we were told to go on in 15 min. While we were waiting, James and Laurent went to get the equipment. "So, Bella, How was today?" asked Victoria. She and the others were the only ones who knew about my parents. But none of them knew about my...other secret...and I didn't plan on telling them anytime soon. "fine, fine....and yours?" I asked, knowing that she knew something wasn't right. All the more reason to want to leave this small town. "It was....okay." she said hesitantly, I think she was still worried about me. Victoria was like my big sister, she was their for me when I would come home crying. She was also their for me when I use to go to her house with bruises and cuts all over me. She would always doctor me up and make me feel better. James, was like my big brother, very protective and caring. Laurent, on the other hand was more like my best friend. I could confide anything in him and he would always take my side, no matter the cause. But as much as I love them, I have to say that I can't trust them as much as I once did. In fact, I can't say that I can trust anyone the same again. Ever since last year, I've been like that. And it's all because of him.

Just then James and Laurent came back with guitars, amps, drums, speakers, a piano set, a keyboard, picks, basses, and last but not least, my microphone case. Victoria and I went over to help them, trying not to laugh at their very tired state. James gave Victoria a kiss on the cheek and I just laughed at Laurent. "Guys, your on in five." A lanky man with a microphone head set, said. Then he disappeared behind the curtain. We quickly set up are individual equipment. "Alright are you guys ready for some awesome rock quality music?" We heard the man yell, we quickly got into our places as the curtain went up, "Then give it up for the talented Isabella Swan, and her band!" As soon as the curtain went up I heard the screams of the crowd. I smiled, I loved this feeling, the feeling you get right before you go on stage. Some people hate it, probably because their nervous, but for me...it's different, I actually feel.......loved. "Thank you! All right!....This is one of my earlier songs that I wrote. I really hope you guys like it!" I said and smiled again.

Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby?

Right now I feel invisible to you, like I'm not real.

Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you?

Why'd you turn away, here's what I have to say.

I was left to cry there, waiting outside there, grinning with a lost stare.

That's when I decided...

Why should I care, cause you weren't their when I was scared.

I was so alone.

You, you need to listen. I'm starting to trip,

I'm losing my grip and I'm in this thing alone.

(Losing Grip, by Avril Lavigne)

After I was finished with that song I immediately went into the second one,

I can not find a way to describe it.

It's there in side, all I do is hide.

I wish that it would just go away.

What would you do, you do if you knew?

What would you do?

Of all the pain, I thought I knew.

All my thoughts lead back to you.

Back to what was never said,

back in forth, inside my head.

I can't handle this confusion.

I'm unable come and take me away.

(Take me away, by Avril Lavigne)

After we were done, I was going to sing three more songs.

They pretty much were Perfect world, (by Simple Plan) Crazy, (by Simple Plan) and Together.(by Avril Lavigne). So after that I glanced at the clock and realized that I was late. panicking, I looked at Victoria, who gave me a nod in reassurance that she was here if I needed her. I packed up and ran home. Phil was back, and my mom was awake. Damn. I quietly snuck through my bedroom window and went down stairs, "Hey Mom, Dad, what's for dinner?" I asked. But I just got two mean glares, "Isabella Marie Swan! How DARE you sneak out!" I looked at them, surprised that they were both sober enough to even know what was going on. "What are you talking about, I was upstairs, in my room." I said. Phil just glared at me, "The hell you were! We were just up their!" I heard the booming sound his voice made. "Look, I'm sorry, it won't happen again!" I swore, but of course, I was lying. "Would you mind keeping it down, we're not exactly in the best of moods to deal with you!" snapped Mom. It was my turn to glare, I'd had it with them, and I was royally pissed off, "Oh shut up, don't give me that crap! How many times do I come home and find your drunk asses passed out on the couch! How do you think I feel when I have to take care of you!" I yelled, I loved my parents but after seventeen years of this shit I had finally cracked. Mom and Phil just glared at me. "Go up to your room!....NOW!" yelled my Mom. I scowled, "Good, now I won't have to be near a drunk ass bitch!" *Slap* I now grasped my swelling red cheek. I looked at Mom who was now red with anger. I glared at her as tears stung the brim of my eyes, "Look what it's doing to you Mom." I whispered as I turned around and ran upstairs. The last thing I saw before I slammed my door was the guilty shock on both my Mom's and Phil's faces.

I put my face in my pillow and screamed as loud as I could, I did this until my voice went hoarse. That's when I heard a quiet knock, I slowly got up and tried to dry my eyes, but it still looked as though I was crying. I opened the door to find my mother and step father standing outside it. Mom was crying, and Phil just looked guilty. "What?" I croaked, Mom jumped at the sound of my voice. "Honey, I'm so sorry, I wasn't thinking, and I was mad and I couldn't stop myself!" She cried as she hugged me. I didn't hug her back though, I just stood there, my face was blank and my eyes, unreadable. Mom looked up to me, I just looked down to her, "What's the matter sweetie? Oh! Please tell me you forgive me!" she said worried. I couldn't stand this for one more second, I watched her face as tears formed and ran down my cheeks, "I'm sorry Mom, but you never listen, and if I forgive you, you won't change." I said. I watched my mom break down and cry, and I tried not to cry anymore, but that was impossible. I just turned around and started to pack my clothes. "W-where are you going?" asked Mom as her voice cracked. "I'm leaving." I simply stated.

After I was finished I went towards the door, I looked back at my parents, "Mom, Dad, please don't go about this the wrong way. I've tried for many years to tell you how I felt about your drinking habits, and whether you remember or not, this is not the first time you have hit me. I love you both, but I'm not coming home until you guys get some help. I suggest checking into rehab or doing something productive. I'm sorry, Goodbye, and I love you." and with that, I walked out the door.

I didn't want to leave, but I had to. I didn't know whether they would take my advice or if I had just made things a whole lot worse, but either way I was free. But I didn't exactly feel free, instead I felt overwhelmed and scared. I had no place to go...what can I do? It was then that I decided to take the opportunity to ditch this old town and have a better life. but how? Where would I go? I had no job and no money! I was now walking by the town's old dump when I stepped into a mud puddle. "Dammit!" I muttered as I looked down. It was then that I found something that would help me out a great deal. A flier. I picked it up and quickly read it; Come now to the Cali Highschool in Sandiego, California! Located just north of Penny Avenue on 3980 West point! I reread the flier again and with not really thinking about what I was doing, whipped out my cell phone and with shaking hands, dialed my school's number, "Hello, and welcome to Forks, Washington High school, sorry we are unavailable now but if you leave your name and phone number we will get back with you as soon as possible." I heard the machine say, I took a deep breath and cleared my throat. I then made the tone in my voice, the exact tone of that in which my mother would use, "Hello, Principle Stanley? This is Isabella Swan's mother, Renee', and I would just like to inform you that Bella will no longer be attending Forks High school, due to job circumstances concerning me and her father, all that I ask is that you transfer her records to the highschool in Sandiego, California, one names Cali-High. Thank you, bye, bye." After that, the guilt that I had been consciously ignoring consumed me and I ran to Victoria's house. I wasn't surprised to see James and Laurent there and from the look on Victoria's face, the anger on James' and Laurent's, and the guilt on mine, I knew, that they knew what happened. "I'm sorry." I whispered as I cried, Victoria came and hugged me, followed by James and Laurent. "I didn't know what to do, so I left....I'm so sorry, I have no place to go, I'm sorry." I kept repeating, but Victoria just hugged me tighter, "Shhh, it's all right, you can stay here. We'll protect you, don't worry." she said, her words soothed me and I was soon falling asleep.

The next thing I knew I was in a bed, and the sun was out. I slowly got up and went into Victoria's kitchen. Victoria looked at me and smiled, "Hey you, how was your night?" I smiled and looked to the floor, "It was fine." I said, that's when James cleared his throat. "Bells, we have a plan..." I looked up to him confused, "What do you mean?" I asked, Laurent sighed, "Well, because you quit school, bailed on your parents, and have nowhere to go...we came up with two options; either undo what you've already done or give you a change of scenery by following the previous plan you had in mind. Obviously, we all agreed that you'd take the second choice so... we're moving to California." I allowed a smile to consume my face for a total minute before I frowned. Unlike me, James and the gang all liked Forks...a lot. So if they were moving...that meant that they were going to give up their happiness for me. "What's wrong Bells? You don't like that idea?" Asked Victoria, I sighed, "Thanks guys, but I will not allow you give up your love for Forks because of me." Victoria smiled, "True, we don't want to move, but because of your impulsive decision, it got us all thinking about our future last night. Obviously, when we quit school, we were out of high school...but before you told us it was because of your parents...we thought that the reason you quit was because we all did...and so we all agreed that we did kind of miss school and with a lot of thought, James, Laurent and myself have all decided to go back to college. So we applied to some colleges and quite a few excepted us, but we chose California State University because they also have a high school about a mile away from the college." I looked at James, Laurent, and Victoria with wide eyes, "So...I get to go and live with you guys in California! You mean it?!" James chuckled, "Yes." I squealed and hugged them each one tightly. "Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!" I said as I let go of them, they were all laughing.

"There's just one problem." Said Victoria, my expression immeadiatly became grave, "What?" I could see her try to hide a smile, "When are we going to go school shopping?" I laughed and hugged her. Then I became worried again, "Um...guys,...how are we going to afford all of this?" Everyone looked at James, he smiled gravely, "As you know, my last living relative just passed away and he happened to be my grandpa." He said, the rest of us nodded, urging him to continue, "Well they found his will and apparently he had saved up over twelve million dollars and in his will, he said that when he passed away it was I who would get the inheritance." I looked at Victoria, and Laurent, but they were looking at me with amused expressions. So apparently they already knew. I looked back at James, "So you have twelve million dollars in the bank right now?" James nodded. "Cool!" I said and nearly fell off the table, everyone else laughed.

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