Disclaimer: I don't own Bleach. Italicized lines are from scanslataions of Bleach.
Don't preach to me of good and evil- your words are empty, hollow. After all, it's you that's doing the killing, slicing up those sad remains of human nature, masked for your sake, not theirs, so you don't feel pain or regret. How can you possibly call me the evil one, hm?
And don't be so hypocritical as to hate me, when you use my power so thoughtlessly for your own needs. Every fucking time, as soon as you get into a pinch, you call on me, harness the strength I bring, to save you and those weaklings you call friends.
And all the while, you sneer at me, call me evil, push me away when I try to protect you.
Why can't you understand? You too want power to protect.
But what you want to protect, is not what I want to protect…
Each time, you beg for power, and I give it to you. But this time, I won't let you. Don't you get it? If you get this power, I… you…
You'll disappear from your world.
No, not that human plane. This is your world. This sideways, fucked-up world that recently, has been more or less flooding with rain- this is your world. And if, if I give you this power, you'll disappear from here, leave this place…
Leave me.
And I'll be alone.
Again.
It's really lonely in here. It's only me and Zangetsu. But having yourself for company is not… It's not exactly company, is it?
Why do you think I try so hard to stay out when you call me? I don't want to return to that fucked up lonely world. So I fight you. Not only to stay longer, but also in the hopes that you'll come see me again, in order to re-subdue me or beg for power again.
You see the depths I've fallen to? Can you understand this feeling?
No, no you can't. Because you're surrounded by friends. You're never alone, while I am always alone.
And now you come to me for the ultimate power, for the final blow- to get the last, greatest strength that I can provide.
You come so that you can leave forever.
Well fuck that. And fuck you. Don't you see? If I give you this power, you'll protect everyone you want to for a short time- and then what? What will you do? You'll still be in the same danger you've always been in, without a single way to protect yourself.
Why can't you just try to have even the slightest sense of self-preservation? Why can't you just understand?
I'll never let you gain this power. I'll never let you die.
I'll never let you leave me forever.
Don't look at me with those desperate eyes. Don't suddenly drop your sword like that. What do you think you're doing, bastard?!
I'm so lonely. Please, don't leave.
Don't leave me…
"What I wanted to protect… was you."