AN- Heeeeere's Draco. Please leave reviews. This is a completely random story that crossed my mind in the matter of seconds...Which is ironic because I like it more than most of my ideas lately. Welp, read up! Au revior...
June 13th- Year 6
The last time I saw her deep, dark eyes stare at me pleadingly was the night I watched Dumbledore fall from the tower. She knew there was something different that day by the way I'd acted. I tried to stop myself from whatever I was doing that gave it away, but somehow she knew me too well to distract. Even though I'd already neglected her and even though I'd treated her with more resentment than I could imagine treating her with in the beginning just to keep her safe, she still came back to me.
If I hadn't have felt the way I felt for her, I would have thought her behaviour revolting. The way she always came back to might remind someone of a pet returning to their master. But I knew it was because she loved me. And I loved her too. Too much to keep her by my side and too much to keep the truth from her.
I thought I'd escaped dinner without anyone noticing. I should have known better, she was the reason I had to leave. It felt like a weight in my stomach and my throat. I couldn't breathe, couldn't speak, couldn't eat, all because of her and the urge I had to be with her. Those doe eyes bore into me from the second mine had met with them. Seeing someone's arm around her made me sicker than usual, adding onto the weight I carried on my shoulders from rest of the ill-fate that night held for me.
I hurried out of the tall doors, without glancing back to see her there behind me. All I had thought to care about was escaping the fever that had enveloped me. My face radiated heat. It burnt and when I wiped my forehead with my hands, I realized the temperature ran all the way to my fingertips. I rolled my sleeves up and loosened my tie, leaving the top two buttons of my shirt undone with hope it would provide ventilation.
"Draco!"
I tried to swallow down my anxiety but nearly choked in the process. Her voice made my nerves shake, more like butterflies but right now it only made me sick to my stomach.
"Draco wait!"
I rushed down the winding staircase, keeping my hand on the wall as if it would secure me from falling. Her footsteps got faster and faster, closer to me.
"Would you please talk to me!"
Her throat tightened, I could tell because her voice became high, fearful.
"Leave me alone Libby! Stay away from me!"
My feet began to work on their own, slower than the speed my mind wanted them to go. I wanted there to be miles between us, maybe my head would stop throbbing, and maybe my heart would stop aching. And I might even be able to catch my breath that had gotten heavier and heavier.
I was struggling for air now, when I flinched at the touch of her soft, cool hand on my wrist. Her hand made a pathetic effort at holding me back, I waved her off even though she grabbed hold of my face right after.
"Please just listen to me."
I backed up against the wall, staying alert as if I was searching for an opportunity to dart.
"No, you need to listen to me like you haven't done this entire time! Now it's too fucking late and I tried to warn you! You need to leave me alone! Let me go!"
I grabbed her hands that were on the sides of my face, cooling those spots in contact down slowly. Her face was just as worried as mine, except hurt not anxious.
"You don't make any sense though! I wish you'd just leave us be and we could just go back to being"-"No! You don't understand Libby! You will never understand! I can't even be seen around you! If anyone even saw the way I look at you it would all be a joke! I can't do this anymore Libby! It's not safe for either of us!"
"That's not what it's about Draco! You've been hiding something else! And that's what's coming between us and I'm going to make it go away if it takes the very breath from my lun"-"Don't say that! You don't understand what that means to me!"
I had shoved my sweating hand over her mouth to keep her from swearing to do something I couldn't bare to hear her swear. My hand quivered to the tips of my fingers.
"If you don't get away from me Libby...I'm going to have to hurt you." I shut my eyes regretfully, wishing I'd never blinked in her direction so I didn't have to face these consequences. "If I don't hurt you, someone else will. And I can't stand the thought of that!"
She began to cry and threw herself around me, making me fall back against the wall. Her embrace soothed me and made my heart pound harder all at once. Heat rushed through my body but it wasn't because of panick. Her passion could distract me from anything. Like it had then. Before I could push her away our lips crashed together passionately. I couldn't help myself, knowing this might be the last time in this place that I'd get to see her, feel her heartbeat against mine and hold her like she was my own. As our mouths moved together like puzzle pieces I turned her and put her up against the wall, wrapping my arms around her tiny waist while she ran her fingers through my hair. I warned myself over and over again as I longed to continue pouring my heart into this. My heart raced and my head screamed wrong. Her hands crept around my back, slowly begining to send shutters up my spine until I broke away abruptly.
She angered me most then, because I wanted her so badly. The voices in my head frustrated me when half of me said to comfort her and the other realistic half reminded me that I was only pushing her closer to pain.
"Draco please." She begged in my ear but I was ready to reject it now and any other time after.
I drew my wand, holding onto her.
I kissed her forehead one more time before backing away.
"Get away."
She sobbed and shrugged cluelessly.
"I don't understand Draco."
"Did you not hear me! I said leave!"
Although I trembled, she flinched like she hadn't before, circling around me so she was on the inside of the staircase, nearest to the edge.
I stepped toward her, keeping my wand steady.
"Draco please."
"Are you fucking stupid! You're nothing but a filthy, worthless Mudblood! What makes you think I would want you around me! You're an embarrassment! I've never loved you! That's pathetic!"
She cried harder, shaking her head in confusion.
"But you change you're mind every second Draco! One minute you're telling me you need me and the next you hate me and can't stand the sight of me!"
"Don't you get it? I need you to leave...Please Liberty Prince...Please don't make this harder than it already is."
Her shaking body made me feel worse than I ever had. I'd never made her cry this hard. I'd never thought it would come to this. Every nerve in my body wanted to make her tears go away. I wanted to make her smile again but I wanted her to leave and be safe even more.
I felt a bit of bittersweet relief as she turned to take a step, but only stopped again to speak to me.
"But you're the only one Draco. I can't have anyone else with all these questions...I can't love anyone else. I love you."
I closed my eyes and absorbed the sound. It calmed me, without taking away my focus, it just gave me the strength to persuade her.
"Libby. I was lost without you. You're by far the only one I want and ever will want...and the only person who's heart I've ever hurt this bad, needless to say, we have both equally lost hope."
She shook her head again in disbelief, taking a few steps back where there was no room.
I swallowed hard, dove forward, and reached out to her all in once while my eyes widened. The moment was in slow motion. Every move that was made slurred by.
"Nonononono! Libby stop! Stop, stop, stop!" My screams were too late, and I wasn't fast enough to catch her. I landed on my stomach, only being able to see her fall from where I now watched helplessly. Her screams were bloodcurdling to me. I couldn't stop shouting for her either, and reaching to her as if it would help.
I was tormented the most I'd ever been in those seconds of my life. I watched my favorite girl, the girl I'd cherished and secretly loved with every bit of love I could produce fall stories down to a hard stone floor.
I involuntarily jumped to my feet without watching her land. My feet took steps at a time, three four, sometimes five but it was never fast enough. I couldn't get to her quick enough. When I did finally get to the bottom, I fell beside her motionless body. Pained moans still escaped her mouth. I scooped her up without observing her furthermore. The race to the Hospital wing was a heartbeat in my mind. When I layed her down on the white bed and screamed for help her eyes cracked open.
Liberty looked at me one last time. "Don't go Babe. Please stay with me." My voice was strained, I could barely get any air. "I love you. I love you Libby."
Her eyes had some kind of light in them, it was like the look she gave me the first time we kissed. Scared shitless but full of hope.
"Draco. Don't leave me."
Her words were barely audible.
I stroke the side of her face, trying to whisper things through my strained throat.
I heard gasps from behind me but couldn't make up what the voice said past the sound of my sobbing.
Before I knew, I was being pulled away by a set of strong arms that I struggled against. I kicked. I screamed. I shouted. I did anything I could think of to try and stop them from taking me from my angel.
"Libby! Libby! I'm sorry!"
I was dropped on the ground and the Hospital Wing doors slammed closed before I could rush back to her side.
Gravity overpowered me, pulling me down with my sobs onto the cold marble floor.
"Get up, you pathetic boy."
Snape's voice was unwelcome, I couldn't deal with him or anyone else.
"Leave me alone!" I kept my hands over my face so I wouldn't be disturbed any more.
"Your emotions need to be contained Mr Malfoy. Control yourself, so you don't embarrass the both of us."
I ignored him for a few more moments, until I heard his footsteps leave me and echo through the halls.
Libby's voice rang through my eyes, buzzing like a fly that wouldn't leave me alone.
Her famous last words to me were simple. She could have said anything, but she chose those ones.
"Draco. Don't leave me."
I couldn't even do the last thing she wanted me to do before she left my life forever.
"Oh if I only had the heart
To find out exactly who you are
You know I'd try now
But it's just fine
No you can't save me
It's no fault but mine
Please just blame me" -The Maine
