Life's Soundtrack
Standard Disclaimers Apply
Song: Two Out of Three
Artist: Meat Loaf
Summary: Jim and his girlfriend Carol Marcus talk - set pre-academy
Jim Kirk stared at his girlfriend trying to figure out what was upsetting her. She had been cold to him for the past week and tonight she had suddenly broken down into tears. He racked his brain. Had he done something to piss her off? He was new at the whole relationship thing but he didn't think that he'd done anything that would make her react like this.
"Carol, what's wrong?" He tried to reach for her but she pulled away. She wiped her faced before turning towards him.
"What do you feel for me Jim?" The question was asked in a small voice. It was like she was afraid to hear the answer. He hadn't thought that Carol Marcus was scared of anything.
"Umm…" What was he suppose to say?
"Don't look at me like that. You shouldn't have to think about your answer. We've been together for a while now and you've never say once how you feel about me, about us. I just want to know what your feeling are. Where do you see us going?"
Jim shifted in his seat. Why was asking him about this now? "I've never really thought about it before. What do you want?"
Tears filled the young woman's eye's again. "This isn't about what I want. I know how I feel. Do you want me, need me in you life? God Jim, I'm trying to figure out if you love me. There's no right or wrong answer. I just want to know the truth." The tears were falling again.
Jim took a deep breath. "You know how I feel about you. I know I don't say it but I thought that I was doing a good job of showing you. I want you. I need you. These past few months have been the best of my life. I really care about you.
Carol's breath hitched. "But do you love me?"
Whatever he had planned to say died in his throat. Did he love her? What should he say to her?
She spoke before he had a chance too. "You don't love me do you." A sob racked her body. "Do you think you could one day?"
"I don't know what love is Carol. I've never been as close to a person as have been to you. You mean a lot to me, but I don't think I'll ever be able to love you. Not the way you're thinking of."
The girl let out a small wail and started to collapse. Jim caught her and pulled her close. Her sobbing shaking his body.
"It not you." She leaned back and shot him a 'yea right' look. "I'm telling you the truth. I'm to screwed up to love anyone. I'll always want you and I'll always need you, but I'll never love you. Please stop crying. Two out of three isn't bad!"
She pulled away from him and took a few shuttering breaths. "Yea it is. I understand what you're say but I want more Jim."
"I won't lie to you."
"I know and I'm very grateful for that. I love you Jim and I want to be loved back. I thought for a while that what we had was enough but something's happened that changes everything."
Something clutched in his chest. "Had?"
"I don't want to see you anymore Jim. Wanting and needing aren't enough, I want love too. Promise me that you'll stay away." She walked over to the door.
"Please…Wait."
"Promise me." Something flashed in her eyes.
Jim took a deep breath and damned himself for his answer. "I promise I'll stay away if that's really what you want."
"It is. Goodbye Jim."
Jim blanked as she walk into the night. What had just happened? Carol had never been one to talk about feelings and love and everything else. What had brought all of that on? She said that something had changed. What was it?
To: Mr. James Kirk
From: Miss Carol Marcus
Subject: No Subject
Message: Jim I just thought that you should know, I had a baby. His name is David.
C. Marcus
PS: Remember your promise.
AN: What did you think? For those of you who don't know Carol Marcus and her son David were characters in Star Trek II - The Wrath of Khan.
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