Disclaimer: I don't own HP.
A/n: this started as my monologue for my drama final but I soon realized it took the shape of a fanfiction. It's still my monologue though.
For so long I hoped and I prayed. I thought, that maybe if I tried hard enough, he would notice me. I thought there might be a way to get him, no matter what the way was. His best friend was my brother and his other best friend was my best friend as well. Both of them knew, for so long, what I thought and how I felt. They knew how much I liked him.
How I wish I could be so close to him. How I want to be included in their group. I may never be there, be that close to him. I can wish and dream but it may never come true.
For five years I've watched him from a distance, thinking that I could catch his attention. I never thought I could. I still don't think I can. He's decided to go through with his course. I told him I understand and I do but only a little.
He might forget me and I would hate for that to happen.
So I guess I'll stay here and patiently wait for him to come back to me, if he does at all. He said he doesn't want me hurt so he refuses to let me help. But, does he understand that I'd die for him? Yes, I think he does because he'd do the same for me.
So, I'll stay here and wait for him to come back because I have a feeling he will, as he always does. It was his choice and I knew that this day would come eventually. He needs to continue on this path.
I don't want him to go at it alone, though I know they'll be there with him. I wish I could be too. I want to be by his side, though I know I can't.
But, I'll let him, knowing it's what he has to do.
I'll always be here for him though. And, no matter how hard I may try, I could never forget him.