Pairing: Tall!Curly!Goth/Red!Goth aka Ash/Izzy
Warnings: Slash
Author's Notes: Song used is "Butterfly" by Crazy Town. This really didn't come out the way I wanted, but I'm still getting used to writing in the South Park fandom. XD Review, loves!
I don't deserve you unless it's some kind of hidden message
To show me life is precious
Then I guess it's true
But to tell the truth, I never really knew
'Til I met you
See I was lost and confused
Twisted and used up
Knew a better life existed
But thought I missed it
-'Butterfly', Crazy Town
Ash knew he didn't deserve Izzy, but he was glad that he had him, even if he didn't show if for fear of ruining his Gothic image. Even when they were alone together, he was still distant and aloof. He knew it hurt the younger boy, but he couldn't help it.
That's just the way he is. He can't let anyone get too close because they'll just end up hurting him, or he'll hurt them and it's just bad either way. He doesn't want that to happen to him and Izzy.
The thing is though, that he doesn't take Izzy's feelings into account. Doesn't think that Izzy will be any different than the others, but the other Goth is determined to prove him wrong and show him just how much he loves Ash.
Izzy knows that life hasn't been kind to the older boy, that he's been used and abused by the people he thought cared about him, but Izzy loves him just the same. He's not going anywhere for a long time. Now if only he could get Ash to believe that.
Years of trying to get Ash to open up to him have taken them from the third grade to their senior year in high school. They are together finally, and as happy as their Gothic selves can be. Ash finally knows that life can be a good thing and Izzy is the only person to fully earn his trust.
Nothing is going to tear them apart.