This is a one-shot about after Destiny leaves Matthe. I couldn't sleep was listening to some sad songs and thought about them. Here we go
Matthew sat in his room staring at the wall blankly thinking about everything that happened in the last 24 hours. Some dude called Trey Songz was singing about how he wished they hadn't done it. Matthew snorted wasn't that the truth? He would never regret having sex with Destiny but now everything was complicated, he had feelings but didn't want to ruin their friendship because what if it didn't work? Not like it mattered anyway she wasn't speaking to him and it was killing him.
'And I wish we never did and I wish I never fell so deep in love with you and now there ain't no way we can be friends'.
He ran his hand over his face and laid back on the bed staring at the ceiling. He could still feel her there, he could smell her sweet scent on his pillow as if she had never left. Feel the touch of her soft hands on him, the kiss of her lips on his. He could see it as though it were happening now. Like in slow motion, the clothes on the floor, heavy breathing. There had been no hesitation just him and her, together. He had fallen asleep with her in his arms and woken up as if no one had been there. As if it had been a dream. She had left him, her spot still warm with no evidence except her taste on his tongue. No kiss no note just an empty bed and confused thoughts swirling in his head.
He turned the radio off and closed his eyes. She had left. SHE had comforted him and the left, when HE needed her the most SHE had abandoned him and made HIM feel so many emotions he couldn't even function. The silence was deafening it pressed in his ears and drove him crazy.
'I should call her' he thought to himself. What was the point? She wasn't going to answer he'd get her voicemail again. He wanted to talk to her just to make sense of everything. He got up from the bed and walked to the window looking over the city. All the lights reminded him of her eyes, looking at him with pure understanding no judgement just understanding.
He wanted to call her yell at her, kiss her, make love to her again. He wanted to throw things scream at the top of his voice, curl up in a corner and cry. He just wanted things to make sense! WHY HOW had she done this to him?
He picked up his phone and dialed her number before he could stop himself.
"Hey its Destiny leave a message" BEEP. He was silent for a minute then " I love you" he whispered and hung up. He stared at the phone then threw it at the bed.
THIS was his Karma for breaking her heart on New Years, for kissing her and then playing it off. For picking Becca over her , for picking Dani over her, for everytime he hurt her and brought a frown to her beautiful face. He was feeling what she had felt. It was well deserved he was an asshole and now he was getting his karma.
He was going crazy over a girl. Not just any girl but Destiny. She always had his back, always there for him when he needed her. Now she had made him feel like heaven one minute and the next he was sitting in hell. He loved her no- loves her with all his heart but had denied it for so long now it was almost too late. She probably hated him but he would still love her always and forever he would love her. It was with these thoughts and a heavy heart he went to bed with.
THE END
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