me again i've been on a roll lol! i've been way behind on my anime so i finally watched naruto shippuden 235 and heard Naruto talk about his love for Sakura and i really don't care that this was a filler i just love it so i came up with a monologue for Sakura plz tell me wat u think i wrote this last night at like 9 and finished by 9:30 lol
Ever since Sasuke-kun joined the academy I fell hopelessly in love with him. He basically ignored my existence, and my naiveté simply allowed it. I fooled myself into loving a man that would later nearly put an end to my life several times. Needless to say, at one point I was content to allow him to do it.
I so desperately wanted him to love me, believing he only needed time and when he left the village, I was sure he would come back. Even after Naruto-kun left the village to train, I still believed I loved him. I simply had to, who else was I to love? I put the weight of it all on Naruto and he bore it without anything in return. I was such a stupid, weak, ignorant child. Maybe I still am.
He once told me as long as I was happy he was happy, I thought he had finally gotten over his crush, but I was dead wrong. Little did I know back then, but he believed that he was in unrequited love with me, and was content to keep it as such, as long as I was happy, his happiness didn't matter. Why didn't I see it?
Sasuke-kun was never there for me, he was a friend sure, but he did not like me the way I had believed I loved him. He nearly ended my life multiple times, each time only Naruto was able to save me. He was never someone I could count on, I simply made it so he had to protect me, but he never cared, maybe as a friend, at one point, but that's long gone by now.
What's worse, is that when I finally realize who I truly loved was, it was too late. He is still in that timeframe of me in love with Sasuke. I once tried to explain to him my feelings were mutual, sure it was to get him to let go of Sasuke, but the truth is, I was never lying. When he accused me of lying, my heart broke, I used my anger to mask everything. It made me blind and I tried to kill Sasuke myself, however I'm sure you know how that went.
Quite frankly, I'm really just trying to make sure my happiness does not go wasted, and I do not reject love because of my past. Upon further examination of my sensei, Tsunade and Jiraiya, I finally found out that they truly loved each other. It's funny how much Team 7 was alike to the Legendary Sannin. Orochimaru leaving the village much like Sasuke, Jiraiya being content in watching Tsunade from afar, like Naruto, that must make me Tsunade. But if that's the case!
I'm sorry, I'm rambling, but I need to find a way to make things right. The Fourth Great Ninja War is approaching, Naruto is unknowingly in hiding, and I may not be here tomorrow. I just wish I could embrace him one last time, had known that before would be the last time I touched him, I would've told him everything. I would've rambled on in tears, just to have him understand I don't love Sasuke! Sasuke is in the past! I never loved him!
I don't want my life to be ruined and my chance of happiness to be lost like Tsunade's! there must be something I can do!
Please, Naruto-kun, I truly have a hate deep in my heart for all that Sasuke has done. He has turned our world upside down and possibly ruining happiness for us in the future! He means nothing to me! Our lives will never be the same, but I'm fine with that. As long as you're by my side. I never loved Sasuke, but I always did love someone. A knucklehead, ass-kicking Shinobi. Someone who could manage to annoy me and make me laugh at the same time.
Naruto-kun, there is only one man out there for me, one man that can truly make me happy. And thanks to this war I may never be able to embrace him again! Naruto, the only one that could make me happy is you.
I love you….