This chapter happened while listening to the soundtrack of Wicked. Enough of my rambling! On with the show!
I'm Not That Girl
Visas sat in her dormitory, thinking about the events that had past. The inclusion of the bounty hunter into the party had shocked her, particularly since she was a bounty hunter. But it had gotten worse.
She had felt it emanating from him, the attraction, the desire. And it hurt her, and the jealousy had seeped into her heart.
The worst thing was, she didn't have a clue of how to be that way. She didn't know how to make him feel that way about her.
There were times when their hands would touch, and their eyes would meet. She savoured these moments. There would be a sudden silence, and a sudden heat. Her heart leaped in a giddy whirl, and it thumped so loud she was surprised he didn't comment about it.
She knew he could be that boy.
But I'm not that girl she reminded herself, pulling herself back to centre.
She often found herself daydreaming about finding herself in his embrace, and had to warn herself not to dream too far, and not to lose sight of who she was, and why she was here. But it was so hard, to try and forget the happiness, to tell herself not to remember that rush of joy.
She knew he could be that boy.
But I'm not that girl she banished all possibility from her mind.
But every so often she longed to steal to the land of what-might-have-been, to just creep away from the others, and live in her dreamland. But it never softened the ache she felt, when reality set back in.
She pondered about the bounty hunter, she with the blithe smile, and the lithe limb. She who's winsome, she wins him; it saddened Visas to think of it that way. Her red hair, with a gentle curl.
That's the girl he chose. A great sadness overcame her,
And heaven knows
I'm not that girl
Her mind was fraught with anger and tinged with sadness. She cursed her wishing heart, wishing only wounded her heart. She wasn't born to have his loving heart.
There's a girl I know, Visas relented,
He loves her so
Her heart heavy with the weight of admitting it to herself, Visas finally believed her mind when it told her,
I'm not that girl……
There you have the first of the Visas segment; the next will be up soon! Please Review!
Happy Days
BreeLady