First of all I do not own Big Time Rush, or any of the characters. I only own this story.

I hope this comes out as good as it does in my head, or I'm gonna be pissed. This is my first story so I hope you all like it.

CHAPTER 1 First Try

"Come on Logan wake up, if we are late for reheasals again Gustavo will have our heads". Ugh Logan moaned as Kendall shook his shoulder to get him up. "Get it moving, the rest of us are ready we have half an hour to get to the studio", "fine i'm up you can stop shaking me now" Logan aswered back. "Give me ten minutes and i'll be ready" and with that Kendall left the room, and let logan get ready. As he walked into the kitchen he saw James, and Carlos eating their breakfast, "where is my mom and Katie" James aswered "your mom took Katie to a audition for some commercial, thell be gone all day, is Logan finally awake", "yeah, hes getting ready he'll be ready in about ten minutes" "more like ten hours" Carlos whispered under his breath. Leave him alone Kendall said to Carlos, "why we all now hes a little prim madaona", "knock it off Carlos, you now thats not true". Changing the subject James asked "hey Kendall whats with that notebook youve been carrying around" while looking at the brown colored notebook he was writing in. "It's nothing, just something for me to relax". "I dont know how you can relax by reading, or writing your starting to sound like Logan" Carlos said with a laugh. Neither one of them had noticed Kendall wasn't even paying attention, as he was scratching his pencil across the paper. Everyone looked up when Logan came out of the bedroom ready to go. "It's about time, lets go" James said as they rush to the door, as they were leaving Logan looked back, and noticed Kendall still writing at the counter. "Lets go you rushed me now i'm rushing you" Logan said as he tried to grab Kendall's arm, "I'm coming, I'm coming" Kendall said back standing up from the stool as Logan went to catch the others. Kendall walked out the door, locked it, knelt down and sliped a folded piece of paper under the door, I hope he likes it he said to himself and ran down the hall to meet the others at the elevator.

They began to drive out to the studio when Logan ask "hey Kendall what were you waiting for", Kendall looked at him with a suprised look, "Oh that I had to tie my shoes thats all". The rest of the drive whent on with Carlos, and James goofing off in the back seat, and Kendall looking out the side of the car, and Logan wondering what was wrong. They finnaly mad it to the studio where they meet up with Kelly "it's about time you got here" "sorry were late Kelly we had to wait for these two" Carlos said as he tried to put his arms around the two taller walked up to the recording studio, where of course Gustavo was ready to yell down their throats. Other than that things went on as normal they rehearsed a new song, yelled at by Gustavo, same as ususal. On the way home they stoped to get something to eat, James, sat next to Carlos and Kendall next to Logan. "That had to be one of our better rehersals" James brought up, "sure was" Carlos spoke next. Logan looked up at Kendall who was being really quiet "everything all right Kendall"? Logan asked, "what? I mean yeah everything is fine" Kendall retorted "maby we sould get back now i'm kinda tired" Kendall said. As they left Logan looked at Kendall again but coulnd't help but think something was wrong.

When they got back to their apartment, James and Carlos banged into the door not relising it was locked. Kendall, and Logan couldn't help but laugh as Logan unlocked the door and watched the other two get up rubbing the back of their heads. Loagan was the last in as he let the others in first just so he could laugh a little bit more. As he walked in Logan noticed his foot slide a little bit, "whats this" he said out loud as he bent down and picked up a small folded piece of paper from under his foot. "What's that" Carlos asked bringing everyones attention on Logan, "I don't know but it has my name on it", "well open it" James said. "It looks like a poem" Logen said, "are you serious read it" Carlos exlaimed. Logan began to read out loud " The shadows in my heart disappear when I see the light of you smile. The memories I wish to forget are gone but I can never forget you, to feel your warmth and to never forget. To feel your heart as it beats with mine as I hold your hand and never to let go. To be with you forever Logan, my Logan". Logan wasn't sure of it but as he read that last line he thought he might have seen Kendall blushing, somethong he rarely does. "Kinda cheesy if you ask me" Carlos said, Logan looked again and this time he was sure that he saw Kendall blush and frown a little trying not to show it. "Well no one asked you" Logan said defensively, "I like it, I think it's sweet" Logan looked over again to see Kendall still lightly blushing but this time he had the coner of his lips pulled into a smile. "Ok, ok don't bite my head off" Carlos said as and Katie walked in. "Whats going on boys" said looking around, "nothing Moma Knight" Logan said, "Ok, well it's time for bed", everyone gave a kiss on the cheek, and said good night, then went to their rooms.

Kendall was quiet as he, and Logan got ready for bed, but surprised Logan when he asked "any idea who it's from". "I don't have a clue but I do like it, and I hope whoever wrote it, gets up the guts to at least say hi to me", "maby they already have" Kendall said as he got into bed and fell asleep. "Yeah maby they have" Logan said smilling at Kendall as he shut the light off and sliped into sleep himself.

I know it kinda short, but this is hard when it is your first time and I hope you guys like it. And before you ask somewhere along the line Logan will find out who wrote the notes, even though I think I made it way to obvious. And there will be sexual moments between the two.