Post 5x04

I don't own a thing! Unfortunately!

I was devastated that Stefan didn't remember Bonnie. I mean come on! Ok so he didn't remember everyone else … but still! LOL

I was torn of whose perspective I should write this from. I started with Bonnie, but ended with Stefan.

… Enjoy.

There was a pull to the cemetery, something he couldn't explain so when he arrived the only logical explanation was to go to his family's crypt. He had a lot of thinking to do. The revelation that the woman he was supposedly in love with, Elena, had left him for his brother tore him apart. He didn't understand why but it cut him deep to know that. She was beautiful, smart and her smile lit up his world yet she wasn't his. She was his brothers. How could he fall for a woman who would go into his brother's arms? He didn't understand and it was best if he left this place, started over somewhere new. Yet he couldn't leave.

He heard footfalls come near and he was surprised to see that Caroline Forbes, his best friend was here. After explaining why he was there he turned to see her somber beautiful face. From the pictures he's seen she was always smiling wide, a light in her eyes that could not be dimmed yet the woman before him was sad. Once she told her that their friend Bonnie was dead he understood. He felt a pull at his heart, unexplained since he didn't recognize the name Bonnie, but he saw the pain in her eyes. She was important. At least to Caroline. When she went on about only having sadness and anger he knew he had to stay here for her.

"You have me," he told her. "You were there for me last night, so let me be there for you."

She leaned into him and he wrapped his arm around her shoulder and felt the sobs begin, wrecking havoc on his friend. "I don't know what I'm going to do without her" she sobbed and all he knew to do was hold her. After a while, when her tears stopped and her sobs lessened, she turned to face him wiping away her tears.

"I know you don't remember her but… would you want to … just … come with me? We're holding a little memorial for her," she told him as she began to stand up.

He knew his brother and Elena would be there but he couldn't say no, not to her in a time he knew she needed him most. So he agreed and walked with her to a clearing where sure enough Elena stood in Damon's arms and a blond guy to the side. Damon caught his gaze but said nothing as he led Elena into the clearing. The blond man handed Caroline a pair of pom poms and she held them up to her chest closing her eyes. Her pain was evident and it took everything in him not to reach out and hold her.

As they reached the clearing he saw Elena's younger brother and when the young Gilbert caught his eyes he saw confusion. He noticed that he looked to his side as if something there caught his attention but Stefan didn't say a word about it. He walked beside Caroline to a tree stump which had a bell on the top. Jeremy placed a picture down and stepped back, then Caroline stepped forward and placed her pom poms down. When she turned around her crestfallen gaze met his and she ran into his arms as she allowed the tears to run. Her sobs broke him apart but he remained strong for her. The blond guy went up followed by Elena and finished with his brother. Mementos laid down that must have symbolized Bonnie to them, something he could not partake in since he didn't even remember her. Once again Stefan watched Jeremy's attention be called to his side but didn't focus on that. Instead he watched as Elena fell against his brother who looked equally pained as the rest.

"We ring this bell in honor of Bonnie, in remembrance of her," Jeremy stated then rang the bell.

Caroline pulled away from his embrace and stood next to Elena, taking her hand as they watched on. He stepped back, feeling like an intruder as Jeremy began to speak as if Bonnie was there telling him what to say. When he was telling Elena that she doesn't need to be there for everyone, to go back to college and live it up Stefan looked everywhere but at the brunette. Jeremy then spoke to Matt; telling him that he didn't do anything wrong and Stefan noted that the man was trying to keep everything in but he was about to break. Which he did when Jeremy told him that Bonnie missed him.

"Caroline, she watched you decorate that dorm room like your life depended on it," the laugh his friend gave was bittersweet then he saw her pain again. "She knows that college isn't everything you expected and you feel like something is missing… She wishes she could fill that gap because she wanted to go to college. But she can't so she wants you to enjoy it for her too ok?" Jeremy finished then he switched his gaze to him.

"Stefan, she knows you're hurting right now … She's seen you fight against it all… you showed her that what you are doesn't define you. Who you are deep down is what matters and you're so strong. You will get through this… She needs you to keep your word and be there for Caroline. When you get your memory back, know this… It was easier with you." He didn't know what the last part meant and he didn't know how Jeremy could know about his promise to Caroline but the only thing that struck him to his soul was that what you are doesn't define you. He needed to hear that. He looked down and closed his eyes and let his words sink in. He heard Caroline gasp and run behind him to a dark haired man and kiss him. He was surprised that he didn't feel jealous instead he was happy someone was able to put a momentary smile on her face in such a trying time for him. The guy went to place a white rose down and they all remained in silence for a while longer.

So I had to re-watch the scene to make sure my storyline matched somewhat and I finished this in tears! AGH! I hope I get a review or two on what you all think.

Yes... There are many MANY errors... I'm sorry.

Just so you know the reference to "It was easier with you" is to a deleted scene in season 1.

I hope you all enjoyed this!