Disclaimer: I DO NOT OWN ANY HEY ARNOLD CHARACTER
i only own the characters created by me
Hello everyone
This is my first fanfiction ever, first of all i wanna say thank you to everyone who is taking time to read this first chapter and also sorry if this first one is a bit bored or so short. i will work my best to make it better.
The idea of this story came one day when i was listening to music on my way back home i started to developed it and thanks to my good friend Yineska who helped me i think it will be a very enjoyable story.
Also english is not my mother tongue so sorry for any grammar mistake and please let me know if you see any.
Chapter 1
(Those words)
Helga POV
Everything was just like always just that we were not the same 9 years old kids. We were 18 and about to finish our last year before going to university.
Many things have happened since then, Phoebe is still my best friend of course just that know she has a boyfriend indeed since 3 and half years now and i gotta say that i'm not surprised that Phoebe and Gerald are a couple but to be the "cool and fresh air" guy of the school it took him quite time to ask her out to a real date and then ask her to be his girlfriend, i was so happy for her when she told me because i knew how much she liked tall-hair boy whose hair was not so tall anymore. Besides that everything i could say was same as always, Rhonda is the rich princess whose best friend has an obsession for bugs and nobody understand how they get along so well not at all. Harold is stil the pink boy just now taller and eating more and dating Princess Rhonda. Eugene is still Mr Bad Luck but without him everything would be a little bored i guess. Sid and Stinky only talk about video games and how they dont understand they bad luck with girls and of course my feelings for Arnold are the same, i'm completely in love with him but i just can't tell him and none of us mentioned what happened that day at the FTi building. Arnold hasn't change so much either he's still Mr Bright side and yes, he still has a crush and tries to win the heart of Mrs Perfection. Gotta say that maybe i'm the one who has changed quite a lot besides the fact that i have no longer the unibrow and i dont wear pigtails anymore...and even though i'm still the girl with the iron fits and cruel and sarcastic jokes that side of me nobody knew somehow took control over me when i turned 16 and even through at the beginning i was not sure of how to take it i got good results and a bit of more "normal" friendship with Arnold was the best. Nevertheless i still wonder how long my feelings for him would be kept as a was a normal morning, 7:30am Helga was opening the door of her house to go to the school and Phoebe was already waiting for her outside
End of Helga POV
- Good morning Helga!
- Good morning Phoebs! How is it going? That happy faces means something am i right? She said smirk
- Everything is very good Helga, and well.. Yes certainly you're right i'm so excited because today i have a very special date con Gerald. She said with an obvious blush on her checks
- Let me guess... Another month with the not so tall-hair boy.
- Certainly yes Helga i cant believe how time passed so fast and soon it'll be 4 years with Gerald.
-I could have never guess Phoebe i swear.
Helga gave a smile to her best friend and they kept walking, and she couldnt help but think that it was true time passed so fast and she still felt trapped in a rabbit hole without any idea of how to do to change the situation she was dealing with since many years ago something that no matter how hard she tried no matter how much she wanted it to change it was just complicated and yet so easy like Helga G Pataki afraid of saying some simple words? Yes of course some simple words she has been keeping as a deep secret for so many years and that even when she felt ready to let it go to let him know to take it out of her chest she just kept taking a step back and forgetting about the whole love confession thing most when she turned 16 and it became a deepest hole without a single rope to try to get out of it.
Phoebe however could not avoid to notice the sigh and helga's smile started to fade while she seemed to be submerged in her own thoughts. Phoebe could imagine what was helga thinking about or better said who... She was completely sure it was about Arnold. She couldn't help but feeling bad for Helga after all she knew everything her best friend was going through.. See him everyday and pretend he was just another friend someone without relevancy not to mention that he was still trying to win Lila's heart. She could even remember the day Helga told her how Arnold asked Lila out while they were talking in the school hall and how that time was completely different than the others 10.000 times he asked her out and how when they were exactly in front of Helga's locker he said the words that have been hauting her best friend since then
- I really would like to go to the cinema with you Lila or to have dinner of you prefer
- That's ever so sweet from you Arnold and i'd like ever so much but i hope you don't forget that i dont like you like you i only just like you
- I know Lila but... you're the girl i've like since so long and i won't give up so easily i really like you like you and i still have hope.
None of them noticed that Helga was there taking some books from her locker and she didnt dare to turn to see them but she could felt how something inside her broke and it now it felt empty.
Everytime Phoebe remembered the moment when Helga told her that and how for the first time she saw tears on Helga's eyes, real tears of sadness and pain and how Helga seemed so lost and helpless she felt bad to see how Helga only keeps pretending being strong and heartless.
Then Phoebe dared to speak
- Helga, dont you think it's time you tell Arnold? She said with fear for mentioning his name
Helga reminded silence couple seconds thinking what she should say
- No, its pointless Phoebs -she sighned- after that day two years ago in the hall my fear of rejection faded away any little hope i still had left -But Helga... Said Phoebe- No Phoebs i already told you its pointless and you know it really doesnt matters at least Football-Head sees me as a true friend and i think i cant ask for more. Said the blonde with a sad smile and a monotone voice tone
Phoebe was not convinced at all and she took a deep breath to tell Helga what she was thinking Helga liked it or not
- Helga you can't do that just be ok being his friend and let it like that.. What will happen when you got accepted in New York? Will you leave just like that without telling him and never knowing what could have happened if you only tell him the truth instead of letting fear control your actions? Said Phoebe with a annoyed tone. Helga looked at her for a moment in shock and then sighed
- It's not that easy, i'm only his bully and now a friend who still put pranks on him calls him names and makes sarcastic comments, nothing will change that besides i dont think i will get that beca. Said Helga still with the monotone tone but this time her eyes reflected even more sadness
Helga applied to get a "semi-beca" to study 6 months in New York and if she was lucky she would get a complete beca and could finish her studies there and become a writer, nonetheless she did it not because she was too excited to study in New York she did to prove her parents and so perfect sister that she has talent enough to be accepted in such a great university but she really couldnt see herself going that far from Arnold and her best friend.
- Helga you are very talented i'm sure you will get it and that why i think... -Helga interrupts her pointing that they were getting close to school and Gerald was already waiting for her at the stairs with Arnold-
It was normal that Gerald always waited for his girlfriend and Arnold was almost always with him so it was pretty hard for Helga to have to see him that earlier almost everyday so she usually avoided it by walking fast and leaving Phoebe alone with Gerald and Arnold.
- Come with me Helga please at least only say Good Morning to him. Asked Phoebe while they were about to cross the street, Helga thought about it for a second, maybe Phoebe was right maybe saying him Good morning was a good idea maybe she could have a conversation with him but that thought was took by the words she couldnt forget "you're the girl i've like since so long and i won't give up so easily i really like you like you" so she just sighed. When they finally crossed the street and went upstairs where Gerald and Arnold were Phoebe kissed her boyfriend said good morning to him and Arnold, she didnt noticed that Helga have started to walk slowler behind her so when she turned to face Helga never imagined she would ever see that much sadness in her best friend eyes even Arnold and Gerald noticed that Helga seemed to be different that morning.
Helga stopped to see Phoebe, Arnold and Gerald, she said Good morning and kept walking without another word.
- It's just me or Pataki doesnt looks like Pataki today? Asked Gerald
- I think helga couldnt slept so well last night and she's very tired this morning. Said Phoebe hoping that Arnold and Gerald to buy it
- She looks a bit... Sad, its not common on Helga. Said Arnold with an evident worry tone.
It was when Phoebe noticed that Arnold didnt stopped looking at Helga while she walked and seemed to slowly disappear from everyone's sign and then she thought it was obvious that he worried for her and that meant that he cares and maybe just maybe that could means that Helga certainly had a chance.
Helga kept walking till she entered to the bathrooms, washed her face with cold water and looked at her on the mirror...
"Whats happening Helga old girl it was something as easy as change shave cream with Harold for a Mr Fudgy WHATS GOING ON? WHY THOSE WORDS ARE STILL THERE? "you're the girl i've like since so long and i won't give up so easily i really like you like you" It's ridiculous it has been already 2 years WHY? WHY? WHY? Have been all these years, poems, shrines, EVERYTHING just a no sense carousel i cant get out of? I LOVE HIM and yet...
Helga was took out of her thoughts when she heard Phoebe entering the bathroom
- What was that Helga?
- I said good mornig didnt i? Said Helga not showing emotion
- You perfectly know what i am talking about Helga... Why cant you left those words behind?
- It's not that easy, it wasnt like that summer when we ended up in the same beach house, its not like it was with Ruth its different and i definitely wasnt ready for that. Said Helga looking at the floor and she felt she was about to cry
- Helga you should try remember what Dr Bliss said you have to face him you have to tell him he deserves to know maybe that will change the things maybe... -Helga interrupts her- Maybe he will fall in love with the girl who makes his life miserable and will live happily forever with his own personal torment. End. What a nice story. Said Helga with a sarcastic and hurt tone
- NO! Helga you are more than that you are the one who gave her new Nancy Spumoni boots, who spent 3 hours in the trash looking for his hat, who did everything to be Juliet in that play just to kiss him, who pretended to be his pen pal from France just to have a date with him, who did everything to look good and sophisticated in that dinner, who risked EVERYTHING to help him to save the neighborhood, who worries more for him than helrself...- Helga interrupts her-
- And who confessed her feelings at that rooftop and took it back with his help convincing themselves it all was only "the heat of the moment" and not like if something really happened.
- Helga that was so long ago maybe he wasnt ready
- And here we are 9 years later and it still was "the heat of the moment" let's be honest Phoebs this is not a love story where at the end everyone is so happy it's just... Another moment in Helga G Pataki's life.
Helga felt so broken inside more than ever and it wasnt just because of how bad she felt for herself for not being brave enough to tell Arnold or because she thought he'll reject her or laugh hysterically it was because somehow he already rejected her when he said those words to Lila two years ago and it wasnt like she could just move over that this time was different this time she couldnt find something to say that would make it better like she did years ago.
-But Helga... -Rings the bells-
- Let's go to class you know Mr Brown doesnt like when we get late
The day went by as you could say it's "normal course" but not everything was like always and Arnold couldn't help but ask himself if something happened to Helga, even though they were not the best of friends Arnold cared about her and always for some reason Helga seemed to be always there and more than that she had helped him so many times, one in particular was on his mind...
It happened when they were 16 the literature professor assigned them a quite long essay about XX Century's Czech Poets and by the time he remembered and ran as fast as he could to the library it was a grey and windy day and by the time he got there it already closed and Mrs Pinderschloss was known not only as one of the most hard to pass in the whole school but for always recognizing when a project was from internet, she was a very old fashioned woman and all her assignments must have bibliographic reference and she did know all books so well, Arnold sighed and started his way back home when he saw Helga coming...
- Don't tell me Mr Bright side is trying to be the sun to this gray day.
Arnold wasnt in the mood to jokes, his final grade depended on that essay and he forgot about the book he felt quite down
-Indeed, i forgot the book for Mrs Pinderscholss literature essay and the library is already closed to i was just going back home
- Then you're lucky that i came this way football head i was just about to give that book back.
She took the book out of her backpack and gave it to him and without another word the turned around and started to walk
- Helga wait...
-What now football head?
-Did you already finished yours? It's quite long and...
-Who do you think i am? Criminy football head of course i finished it.
And with that she left.
Arnold spent almost the whole night doing the essay really thankful with Helga and the next day when everyone had to give the essay to the professor Arnold noticed that Helga didn't and when the class was over Mrs Pinderschloss asked Helga to stay after the bell, everyone left and Arnold waited behind the door so he could listen...
-Helga what happened? Asked Mrs Pinderschloss
-I'm sorry Mrs Pinderschloss i forgot to borrow the book from the library and when i went it was already closed
-That nots common from you Helga but considering it's the first time i will give you the chance to do it again but not over the whole note and i hope it wont happen again
-Thank you Mrs Pinderschloss of course
Arnold couldnt believe, she lied and gave him the book even though she didnt finished her essay maybe not even started.
When Helga was leaving that day Arnold followed and stopped her to ask why
-Helga wait
-What do you want football head?
- Why? Why did you lied? Why you gave the book when your essay wasnt finished?. Asked him so calm
She looked at him for a second sighed and tried to be as clear and rude as possible
-My literature grades are not that bad football head and criminy you seemed so pathetic that the less i could do was to give you the book ok but dont expect more favors from me pal. She turned and left.
Arnold only stayed there analyzing her words without a chance to say something but yet still thankful somehow. Helga always seemed to be there when he needed something and when he needed someone it always turned out to be Helga.