Dear Damon,
The past few days have been crazy. I've been really thristy these days, I keep attacking people. God, I shoudn't be killing them. What am I doing that? Anyway. Today was a good day. Summer is officialy over and I couldn't be more thrilled. Sophomore year. I guess it's the year you're supposed to choose your major. You're reading the future doctor Elena Gilbert. My teacher, Jo, is really the best. And my vampire mind made me remember everything so I'm like her favorite student. I made a friend, believe me or not. His name is Liam and he is also a medecine major. At least now, I have all access to bloodbags, it will stop me from feeding on everyone.
You won't believe what I'm saying but Alaric is also one of my teacher. He tries to adjust to the vampire life but it's hard for him. The travallers spell didn't last long so we could get back to Mystic Falls but a week ago, the spell worked again so no suppernatural in Mystic Falls anymore, again.
Matt never been better but we can't stay the same for Jeremy. He is a mess, clearly. He stays all day on his couch playing video games and making out with random girls. Anyway, moving on.
And Stefan. Last I heard je was looking for a way to save you. I really hope he has some leads. We haven't spoken in months. He's grieveing. We lost so much. We all did. But, we all getting through it, in our own way. I'm hanging out with Caroline and Tyler faking to be okay. But that's all fake to hide that I take witchy drugs to talk to you. I know, it's weird that I'm seeing you but I write you letter, but I really like this idea. It's like writing my diary all over again.
Damn, Luke is being a pain in the ass. He won't give me anymore drugs but I want them, I need them.
I attacked a girl on the road to mystic falls but she ran when Caroline saw me and surprised me. And I told her everything... Me about not being that fine, taking witchy drugs, not getting over your death. I called Stefan and what he said broke my heart... He didn't even look for anything. He lied to me. For months. He think there is no hope anymore... But I need hope. That's the only thing that keep me from dying.
I took thise witchy drugs for the last time, tonight. To tell you goodbye. It was hard at first... But eventually, I let you go. I told you for the last time that I loved you, I kissed you for the last time, I thanked you. I cried and broke down. When I got in my dorm, I saw tye tee shirt that you left one year ago. Remember? When you visited me and that under Silal compulsion, We made out and I tried to kill you after? Good times. I smelled this shirt and it felt like you were still here. Gosh. I stared at a picture of us for hours and Alaric came into my room telling me to sleep a little but I couldn't... I was so hurt.
Come back to me.
Your love,
Elena.