I don't think that I have ever been this nervous about something in my entire life.
What if they don't like me?
What if I don't make any friends?
Not one single friend.
I shouldn't think like this… I'm a major over analyser, and I often make situations out to be a lot worse than they are.
That's what people tell me anyway.
Today is my first day at school. I took the leap, and decided to leave home and stay in accommodation.
Something that I was, and am still, extremely nervous about. Sharing my space with other people.
I walked through the big double door entrance towards my class. Gym class. I have to admit, I'm not exactly the greatest at gym, but I like to give it a good go. I'm not one of those 'screamy' girls, who runs away from a ping pong ball.
Lucky for me, someone decided to speak to me in the changing rooms. She was an extremely pretty girl, not one of those that cares about looks and dieting and dating the popular boys. But, the type of girl that is nice to everyone, friends with everyone, and loved by everyone. At least I wasn't going to be on my own ALL the time.
We walked into the gym, to get ready to play soccer. It was at that moment that I noticed him.
Dark brown eyes, jet black hair, and I don't think he could have added another muscle to his body. Perfect.
I didn't realise that I was staring until Ellouise nudged me on the arm. 'His names Jake'
I don't know why, but I kind of felt like I knew him already, that we'd met before. Obviously I hadn't met him before, but there was still that odd feeling that we were extremely close.
After a 'briefing' from the coach, we started to play soccer. Jake was on the other team, in fact, he was playing in the same position as me.
The ball was heading his way, so I thought I'd better tackle, rather than be an ultimate fail.
This was the ultimate bad idea.
I'm not normally a clumsy or underbalanced person, but this tackle was just embarrassment.
I ran for the ball, went to kick it, got my leg wrapped around his and fell on the floor, bringing him down with me.
I think I may have hit my head a little hard, as it was throbbing. My chest felt really heavy as well, like I had this massive weight on it.
I did. Jake.
I didn't quite know what to do. I was laying in a pile on the floor, staring at him, staring at me. Crap.