My heart has shattered into a million pieces and now rests at my feet waiting for repair. I am frazzled and lost. I thought by marrying Edward that my old life would cease to exist, but today it came running up behind and tripped me, causing me to land flat on my face. I never dreamt that Jacob would return or come to me, asking me to come back to him. After all I went through because of him, how dare he come back into my life and try to gain my love once more. He left me broken hearted and distraught, wishing he would take me back that he was just scared of commitment, but now, when my life is already slowly heading in the right direction he comes.
Now after what all went on this afternoon I am flustered, terrified of what might happen if Edward finds out. If he finds out about the kiss, that almost rekindled my love for Jacob. How I loved kissing him again, after all these years apart. It was full of passion and lust. I felt like I was floating away from all my worries, as if his love would heal all my wounds, bringing my spirit back to life. The blood boiled in my veins, my face reddening each second that we were together, but I knew it could not last.
I am married now and cannot imagine how Edward will take it if I tell him about the kiss. Thank goodness Angela was here when everything happened or it would have gotten out of hand.
I cannot help but wonder now though, if Rosalie had seen the luscious kiss between Jacob and myself. I know if she had seen that everyone in town already knows about the kiss. The town already knew about some visitor coming down to the house, because Edward came barging in all of a sudden, when I was cursing Jacob.
I thought I was saved from that piggish wolf who calls himself a man. Edward walked up to Jacob and calmly introduced himself, as though he was just an old friend that had come to visit. Moreover, if I was not dumbstruck at the time I would have screamed at the top of my lungs, for the next thing I knew, Edward invited him for dinner. I was relived when he(Jacob) finally left and my heartbeat slowed. Edward then asked if I wanted an annulment and said I could leave with Jacob if I wished. My mind was frozen; I did not know what to say. I still do not know if I should tell him about the kiss or not.
