WARNING: there will be boyXboy love, mentions of mpreg and possible mpreg in the future, misuse of alcohol, drug use

I dont own!

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harry potter was adopted by the cullens when he was three years old, becoming hadrian james potter-cullen. at 11 he get accepted into hogwarts and meets his godfathers and their family. at 12 he and his school friends start a band and get release their first CD when he's 13. the summer before his 4th year is the last time that he visits his family for three years. at 17, he visits home totally diffrent then he was from when he left. the cullens soon find that under his sarastic and cruel exterior is their youngest son just looking for help.

characters-

cullens

carlisle

esme

emmett

jasper

rosalie

alice

edward

hadrian james potter-cullen

lupin-blacks

sirius

remus

jonathan

draco

luna

swans

charlie

isabella

wolf pack

blaize zabini

dean thomas

ch.1

Esme Cullen sighed as she held the picture of her little boy in her ice cold hands.

The picture showed her youngest son at fourteen years old, with his bay horse Sidi, after a day of writing. Her little Harry looked tired and a bit sweaty, but his sweet smile could light up a room, even if it was just a picture. His messy black hair hung around his head, almost like a halo, and his emerald green eyes shown with youth and happiness… so much different then how her son was now.

Esme hadn't seen him in three years, and if he chose not to visit home during the upcoming summer, then it would be four. She only saw her beautiful baby boy in pictures on the internet and magazines, and she didn't like what she saw.

Her little boy had changed. Gone was his youthful and innocent appearance. He now dressed in dark colors, normally dark jeans, either a dark t-shirt or a button-up shirt, his leather jacket, and a pair of worn out black of dark blue converse. In one particular photo of her son jogging, Esme had seen a tattoo of a dragon on her sons back and what looked like the start of another tattoo on his waist. Her son's ear was pierced and his hair had gotten more curly then messy in the years when he hadn't visited… he son was all gown up and she had missed it.

In fact, Esme could still remember the last conversation she had had with her son in person, right before he had left home to go back to London and go to school at Hogwarts school of Witchcraft and Wizardry…

"Mom?" Harry asked, biting his lip.

"Yeah, baby?"

"I need to tell you something… I just don't know how to say it…"

"You know you can tell me anything, right?" Esme asked, pulling her youngest in for a hug.

"I… I… Ed-"

"If we don't leave now were going to be late!" Esme's husband, Carlisle yelled from outside, where he was putting Harry's trunk in the car.

"Just a moment! What was it that you wanted to say, Harry?" Esme asked.

"…R-remember to send Sidi to Sirius and Remus, okay? Just in case Professor Dumbledore lets me visit them on the weekends."

Esme smiled. "Of course, Harry."

Harry smiled and walked to the door. "Mom?

"Yeah, Harry?"

"I love you.

"I love you, too, baby." Esme said, smiling

Looking back on that conversation, Esme wished that she would have questioned Harry more until she got a truthful answer. But, she never did… and she had to live with it every second of every