Dear Lita,
Believe me, this isn't
an easy letter to write, actually it's the hardest letter I will ever have
to write in my life, and I know that the knowledge that this is breaking
my heart as well, isn't going to help your heart once you read all of this.
This wasn't planned Lita,
NOTHING in our relationship had been planned ... especially our first kiss.
That kiss was so on the spur of the moment, and I think that is what made
the kiss so incredibly great and when you kissed me back, I could feel
and taste your shock but love at the same time, and at that moment in time
... everything had been perfect with us.
But nothing stays perfect
forever Lita, you should know that ... I know that this doesn't help your
trust issues ... after what Essa did to you, and then how Dean stalked
you and now "this", but you have to believe me when I say this, I really
do love you Lita; I love you Lita with all my heart and soul, but right
now ...
Things have gone too far,
we have been walking on a thin line with our relationship for a long time,
it all started with Eddie ... you don't have to lie, I knew you were attracted
to him. And then Trish had kissed me, and then the whole Stacey Keibler
thing happened, and now I don't want to let this relationship end up where
it is going to end up at.
I don't want to let our
relationship get to the point where we hate each other, because Lita I
could never live if I knew you hated me, because you are so much to me
Lita and you hating me would hurt me so damn much. Please don't let this
effect what happens to Team Extreme, we're a great team ... we have always
been and I just don't want to see everything we have built, go to hell.
God, this is SO hard ...
why did this have to happen to us? Us of all people? We were supposed to
live through it all, and then ... we didn't. We have both been attracted
to other people, sure we never left each other but the fact that we have
been attracted, is enough to realize where we need to cut our losses off.
God, that sounded so cruel ... I'm not trying to be cruel or calice, just
honest ... honesty is what you need, you need the truth ... and no matter
how much it hurts, I can't lie to you.
Me and you, we're not
working out. My hands are trembling right now writing this letter, my heart
is breaking, but I know with time you will see, that this is for the best.
One of us were going to do this eventually, we weren't actually going to
stay together forever ... that kind of love really doesn't exist Lita,
that sort of love only exists in fairy tales and movies, but this is real
life Lita and we need to realize, me and you have been over for a long
time. There hasn't been the long passionate kisses anymore, all we give
each other are little pecks on the lips, like a way you would kiss your
sister. There are no more longing looks, I hardly spend time with you ...
you actually spend more time with Jeff then me; Jeff is going to kill me
when he finds out I ended "us" this way, but facing you .. I wouldn't be
able to do this to you face-to-face. I know that is cowardly of me, but
I'm scared Lita.
Scared a lot of things
actually, mostly scared of what is going to happen between us now. Where
are we going to go after this? Is there anywhere to go after this? Will
you be mad at me for the rest of your life? Or will you find the space
in your heart to forgive me for ending our relationship in a letter? I'm
sorry, if that helps anything. I'm sorry we're over. But we are.
-Matt
Lita crumpled the letter
in a small ball and threw in the backseat of her car, everytime she read
the letter, the more tears fell from her eyes, how could he do this to
her? How could Matt accuse her of being attracted to Eddie Guerrero? Eddie
was a friend, sure a good friend but that was all it had been ... Lita
had only been attracted to one guy, and that had been Matt Hardy, and what
had he done in the end? He dumped her. He dumped her in a letter, Lita
wanted to be forgiving but all she could see was that Matt was a chickenshit
and didn't care enough to come to her and break up with her in the right
way ... no he had to break up with her in a letter, a letter that was so
false, everything in the letter was all false about their relationship.
Lita had never lost the passion she had about Matt when he first kissed
her, she had loved him even more passionately every single day they were
together. This was wrong, they weren't supposed to end like this ... they
were supposed to last, he was supposed to last ... he wasn't supposed to
leave her. He was supposed to love her like no one ever would, he was supposed
to tuck her in at night, he was supposed to sing to her when she was sick,
their love was supposed to be one in a million ---- but it wasn't.
Matt Hardy never did any
of that --- he was attracted to Stacey Keibler, some dumb ass WCW bimbo,
the same bimbo that had been surgically attached to Shane McMahon on her
debut into the WWF. The same blonde WCW bimbo that shook her ass in front
of Rhyno making him lose the hardcore belt to Test; The same blonde WCW
bimbo that along with Torrie Wilson kissed Jeff and Matt. The same blonde
WCW bimbo along with Torrie Wilson that Trish and Lita had fought with
at InVasion.
This wasn't fair, how could
she lose Matt to Stacey? Stacey wasn't even attracted to Matt, it was just
a ploy to get things stirring in the WWF, Stacey had no intention on being
with Matt, like Torrie had no intention of being with Jeff. But yet Matt
was breaking up with her because of Stacey Keibler ... why did Matt have
to do this to her?
"Bastard!" Lita grumbled
underneath her breath as she sped away, right now she needed to be alone,
alone with a vodka.
~*~
Jeff Hardy walked into the
bar, he pushed some half naked women, throwing them a look before actually
being able to enter the crowded bar, Jeff shook his head when he saw Lita
passed out, still holding her glass of what Jeff guessed to be vodka. Jeff
sighed and walked over to Lita and put his hand on the top of her head,
making her stir in her drunken slumber. "Lita."
Lita opened her eyes slowly,
she pushed herself up and groaned when she saw Jeff, her eyes were puffy
and red from crying, her throat felt like it was on fire from all the alcohol
she had consumed, and most of all her heart was breaking. "Go away." Lita
said, finishing her drink, she went to raise her hand to bring the bartender
over for another drink but Jeff pulled Lita up.
"Look I know you're hurting;
Trish told me what Matt did, and after I confronted Matt about it, he confessed
and yeah I'm pissed off at him for ending your guys's relationship like
that, but I am not letting you get drunk off your ass and probably end
up in some stranger's bed. Sure you're going to hate me, but in the morning,
once that hang over goes away, you're going to thank me." Jeff replied,
he wrapped his arms around Lita's middle and carried to the car.
"Room for one please." Jeff
said at the clerk behind the desk, Jeff nodded and grabbed the key and
continued to carry Lita up the stairs, he opened the door and put Lita
in the bed, sighing he tucked her in and shook his head. "See you tomorrow
Lita."
Jeff stared at Lita for a
few seconds before locking the hotel room door behind him, once he was
halfway down the hall, Jeff picked up his cellphone and dialed Trish's
phone number. "Yeah, she's cool. Yeah she was where you told me she would
be, right now she is passed out in her nice, comfy hotel bed. She is going
to be regretting those vodkas in the morning."
~*~
Lita walked into the Smackdown
arena, her eyes were covered by purple tainted sunglasses that fit her
face perfectly, Lita sighed and walked over to the coffee machine, and
went to get a cup of coffee; But she stopped when she saw no other then
Kurt Angle at the table looking as though his dog had gotten ran over,
or he had lost his best friend. "What's wrong with him?" Lita asked, directing
her question at Edge and Christian who were staring at Kurt as well.
"The alliance cheated him
out of the WCW championship belt." Christian replied, looking sorrowfully
at his depressed friend.
"Assholes." Edge muttered.
"Don't they have enough gold? Why did they have to take Kurt's belt? I
mean he hasn't had a belt since he lost the WWF championship belt to Rocky."
Lita stared at Kurt, she
shook her head sadly and poured herself a cup of coffee. "Well life sucks
guys, it's not headline news or anything. Sometimes you get a break in
life, and then big shocker here ... you don't."
Edge rolled his eyes. "Bitter
much?"
Christian nodded. "Sheah
'Red, you're making us depressed with your negative attitude."
"Oh sorry guys for raining
on your parade." Lita said, rolling her eyes.
Edge turned to Lita. "So
still in the blues about the elder Hardy boy dumping you in that letter?"
Lita stared at Edge, shocked.
"How in the world --- "
Christian smirked. "Word
gets around here fast; Kurt we're going --- coming?"
Kurt pushed himself up, holding
on to his cup of coffee, he shot a look at Lita, Kurt shook his head
and took off with Edge and Christian. "So what happened to Lita?" Kurt
asked curiously.
Edge smirked. "Redhead got
dumped by Matt Hardy --- "
"In a letter." Christian
finished for Edge.
Kurt looked back at Lita,
and frowned. "Wow --- that's harsh."
"Double harsh." Edge replied.
Lita watched Kurt walk off
with Edge and Christian, she froze when Kurt looked over his shoulder and
stared at her for a few moments, but then her initial shock was gone and
anger filled her body, when she realized they were probably talking about
her; But for some reason while looking into the blue pools of Kurt Angle's
eyes, Lita couldn't seem to stay mad at him.
~*~
"Does the whole wide world
know?" Lita asked Jeff and Trish, while stretching for her match tonight
on Smackdown.
Jeff paused his stretching
and stared at Lita, her red hair was in her face, he watched her stretch;
Jeff sighed, this had to be hell for his friend, but typical Lita, she
was dealing with it in her own way. "Lita --- "
"Pretty much, yeah." Trish
replied for Jeff. "This is the WWF Lita, we all know each other's business.
No one is safe from gossip or news from this company, I just think it is
so chickenshit of Matt to break up with you in a letter, where is jerky
punk boy anyhow!?" Trish asked, her eyes slanted in a glare.
Jeff stared at Trish. "Jerky
punk boy?"
Lita giggled. "You will crush
Matt with your insults."
Jeff grinned. "What exactly
is a jerky punk boy?"
Trish rolled her eyes. "A
jerky punk boy is you."
Jeff laughed. "That doesn't
affect my overflated ego, one little bit I hope you know."
Lita took off her overshirt,
leaving her in a midrift black tanktop with the Hardy Boyz sign on the
front of the shirt. Lita pushed down her black baggy pants so they showed
her black thongs. "Ready Jeff?"
Jeff nodded, staring at Lita.
"Are you ready for this?" Jeff asked, staring at Lita, waiting for her
answer.
"As ready as I can be." Lita
replied.
There was going to be a new
storyline for Jeff and Lita; A storyline not even Matt knew about. Tonight
on Smackdown Jeff and Lita were going to go out into the ring and announce
their departure from Team Extreme, and they were also going to announce
the new Team Extreme, a team without Matt. Jeff had gone to Vince about
the storyline, considering it would be for the best considering that Lita
and Matt were no more and it was obvious things weren't going to go back
to the way they were before.
"Alright, let's go then."
Jeff said, grabbing Lita's hand, Jeff turned to Trish. "Wish us luck."
Trish smiled. "Luck, jerky
punk boy."
Jeff laughed as walked out
of the room with Lita, who was laughing as well.
