Hiya bois bach. I've had this story idea FOREVER I just haven't been in a great place to write it. If anything, I'm in an even worse place now but I need something to distract myself. I fear that if I don't write this story then I might explode.

This story focuses on Ellie and how she handles 'normal life' in Jacksonville with Joel as a father figure. It focuses on how she accepts love in her life in these hard times blah blah blah. There is going to be an OC that's quite an important character. I want to introduce them as soon as possible but I don't want the introduction to seem forced.

This story contains an autistic character. I will do my very best to represent her as accurately as possible. I myself have an autistic brother and I run a support group for autistic people so I'm pretty sure I won't offend anyone. If in any way you are offended just private message me and we can have a chat :)

This story is rated M for obvious reasons. Trigger warning, this story contains rape, substance abuse, mental illness. Smut in later chapters (Ellie will be involved) and loads of swearing because that's the Ellie we all know and love. Ellie is going to be bi in this story (Not saying she's bi in the game, just in my version) There will also be a few other members from the LGBT community. If you are homophobic and trying to get help, I'm proud. If you are homophobic and are an ass to LGBT people then piss off.

Remember people that English isn't my first language and unfortunately, I don't have a beta so you must excuse any spelling/ grammar errors. I am also British so excuse any different terminology, I will probably use words like sofa instead of couch and boot instead of trunk. I'll try and get the American characters to speak American but I make no promises.

This is not. I repeat NOT a Joel/Ellie fic caus just…. cringe

Disclaimer: I own nothing from the game

In the six months that Ellie had been in Jacksonville she had only made a strong connection with one person. Well. Domino was a black and white horse that Ellie had volunteered to take care of. He stayed in a 'stable' behind the house that her and Joel shared.

fter Ellie had declared her dislike for the emptiness of their big garden, Joel had requested a structure be built. When he asked Tommy, he was thinking of something like a garden shed or a workshop. It was Maria's idea to build the stable, remembering Ellies love for the horses and the lack of space they had to keep them.

The stable also housed big gray cat that Ellie insisted they call Gizmo. Gizmo needed little taking care of, so Ellie spent her time grooming Domino and playing with the gray cat's kittens. She sat with the calm horse now. She was telling him about her day, how she had scouted the perimeter with Joel and they came across a group of bandits. They were becoming an issue. It was the first time that Joel and Ellie had fought together for what seemed like year.

Ellie spoke with a shine in her green eyes as she recalled how Joel had used a smoke bomb to distract the bandits. The horse listened patiently, chewing on the hay that Ellie had just replaced.

She was sat on a stool sharpening her flip knife. She had grown a fair bit after they arrived Jacksonville. She was now about the same height as Joel, give or take a few inches, much to his dismay. Domino was one of the smaller horses, he was however the fastest.

"Do you think that the hunters will attack again?" Ellies voice is quiet. "What do you think they would do to this place?" Ellie thought about the horses. The hunters would keep the horses, they might to care for them as well as they do though. She thought of the children that spend the day roaming the safe streets of Jacksonville, running, playing. If the hunters took over there would be no children running the streets. Hunters don't keep children around.

For a few moments Ellie wondered where the hunters really do keep their children. Was there some big camp with hundreds of children being taught that ruthlessness is the way to survive. Teaching them to kill or be killed.

Ellie was so caught up in her own thoughts that she didn't notice Joel in the entrance of the stable. When she does notice, she lets out a small start of surprise.

"You alright kiddo?" He stood slumped against the doorframe, a bandage wrapped tightly around a stab wound on his left arm. She nodded, standing and moving closer towards him.

"How's Julie?" She asked. Julie was a short, slim woman with fine ginger hair. She was far from a fighter and only went along with them because she wanted to look for any car parts. When the first shot was fired, it hit her in the leg and she fell like a sack of potatoes. Ellie had had to drag her behind a car wreckage for cover.

Julie wasn't used to violence or pain. Although she was a lovely person that was always kind to her, Ellie didn't understand why Joel liked her so much.

"She's a bit shaken but she'll be fine."

"How are you feeling?" Elli quickly glanced to his arm and the few cuts on his face.

"A bit sore but… I'll live." Ellie nodded. "C'mon. We're eating at Tommy's tonight. You better get changed." Ellie glanced down at her clothes. A pair of jeans and a long-sleeved t-shirt. Her jeans where covered in mud from where she fell during the fight, the ends of her sleeves where soaked in blood.

With a huff Ellie stalked out of the stable, through the back door, up the stairs, past the spare bedroom into her room. She had chosen the smallest out of the three rooms. It wasn't even that small. The double bed and wardrobe left little space for anything else but she liked it that way.

Unlike any other teenage girl's room, Ellies was neat. Her walls clean of any posters. All her clothes remained folded in her wardrobe. She didn't have many personal items, the few she did own stayed in her backpack that was kept at the bottom of her wardrobe. On the side of her big bed was a small nightstand. On it stood a small lamp and an old, tattered pun book.

It didn't take Joel long to recover from his minor injuries and he was back on scouting duty in less than a week. Joel didn't really have a set job, he did whatever needed to be done. He hadn't been doing it long but the original guy, Phil, and his wife had a baby so he's spending as much time as possible with her.

Ellie and the other kids at the small Jacksonville school didn't mix very well. Whenever anyone said the smallest of insults she would turn aggressive and start throwing fists. Instead she spent her days with Joel, he taught her what he knew (that he admitted wasn't much) and she got to spend her time helping him work.

She was with him now. There had been a rise in the number of infected seen in the area so they had been sent to see if they could dispose of any. They were probably about half a mile from Jacksonville, they'd only been out for two hours and already killed a dozen runners and four clickers.

"Jesus. I swear they respawn or something." Joel commented. Puzzled, Ellie looked at him.

"Respawn?" She asked, unfamiliar with the word. They had stopped at a cluster of wrecked cars, rummaging through the wreckage for anything useful. Joel had found a pack of cigarettes and was twiddling an unlit one between his fingers.

"Yeah, when we used to play videogames. The enemy would appear out of nowhere and attack you." Ellie, counting her remaining ammunition, shrugged with a sigh.

"You lived in a strange time." She had nine bullets for her pistol and three rounds for her rifle, they wouldn't last long. "What did you do?"

"Huh?" Joel looked puzzled at the girl. He'd pocketed the packet off cigarettes

"Before the world went to shit. What did you do? Like, what job did you have?" She sat on the bonnet of car, the tips of her toes touching the floor. She'd put back her revolver into her pack and was flicking the safety on and off on her pistol. Joel sat down beside her.

"Well, I was…" He was cut off by a sharp rustling in the bushes. In an instant the two were on their feet. Ellie with her pistol raised and Joel holding up his shotgun.

"I don't think it's an infected." Ellie whispered. "Hunter?"

"Hunters would've attacked by now…" Though he didn't sound sure. Slowly, soundlessly, he picked up a nearby bottle. He drew his arm back and threw it at the bush.

A small figure tumbled from it making noises of discomfort. The two quickly noticed that this figure was one of a child. The child was skinny. Very skinny. Even through its baggy clothes Ellie could count ribs. It was difficult to distinguish if it was a boy or a girl. The child had short hair, so short that Ellie couldn't see it's color. The child's face was covered with mud and dirt.

Dumbfounded, neither Ellie nor Joel said anything. The child moved first, scrambling to its feet. Ellie could see clearer now. It was a girl. About seven, Ellie thought.

Fear filled the girl's eyes yet she said nothing.

"Hey there." Joel's voice was so quiet that Ellie wasn't sure that the girl heard him. "What's your name sweetie?" Joel had lowered his gun but kept aa firm grip. The girl said nothing. She seemed to be too shocked to move. Her eyes darted to everywhere but their faces. The girl's eyes where blue.

Joel and Ellie glanced at each other. Neither one of them new what to do. The girl didn't move. She didn't speak. She merely stood there. Her eyes darting from place to place. It felt like forever until anyone moved. It was Joel, taking a step towards her. She stepped back nervously.

Ellie understood the girls fear. In this world it was hard to trust anyone. Joel knelt, taking off his backpack. From it he grabbed a cereal bar. He undid the wrapper and held it out to the girl. The girl stared at it for a long time, unmoving.

She shuffled forwards. A small bit at a time. When she took it, she did so quickly, her hand darting out and snatching the snack. After inspecting it she scoffed it down as if she hadn't eaten in days. Ellie suspected that that was the case.

"More." The girls voice was shaky and quiet. Joel didn't have anything else in his bag, he didn't tell the girl that though.

"I'll give you more if you answer some questions." His voice was gentle but his tone was stern. The girl reluctantly nodded. She was staring at Joel's bag, probably wondering if she could grab it and make a run for it.

"What's your name?" Joel was now sitting, his legs crossed. He no longer held his gun. Ellie had a tight grip on hers, she didn't look at the girl but studied their surroundings.

There weren't many trees or bushes, it would be difficult for bandits to ambush them here. Did the girl have a weapon on her? No, she couldn't possibly. She didn't have any bags and her baggy clothes hugged her body. It was as if she'd fallen in a river.

"Kara." The girl had a strange voice. Her syllables where broken up and she had an accent that Ellie couldn't quite pinpoint.

"Ok Kara… Are you alone?"

"No. Yes." She didn't seem quite sure what the answer was. She seemed to think very hard and she said every word as if it drained her.

"What is that supposed to mean?" Ellie had never seen Joel with a young child before. It was strange. He was… nicer? Less rough.

Kara's face contorted with concentration.

"Cleo." She stuttered. "Infected. Running Shouting. Falling. Water." It seemed that she couldn't make a sentence. Joel nodded. Did he understand what she said? Ellie could barely hear her, let alone interpret her words.

Joel stood up. "So, this Cleo… You know where she is?" The girl looked towards the horizon. East, west then south.

"No." She said defeated. She had her head hung low. Joel nodded slowly. Joel walked over to where Ellie was leaning against the bonnet of a car. Kara stayed still, her head hung low.

"I say we take her back to Jacksonville." Joel said quietly. He let out a sigh. "We uh. We look after her. I'm sure we can find someone to look after her."

"What?! Are you crazy? We don't know this girl. She could be a spy or something." Ellie retorted.

"She's only a child Ellie. A little girl. We can't leave her here." Joel protested.

"Humph. Fine." Ellie said, pushing herself off the car and walking towards the girl. "But if she kills us in our sleep. I am holding you responsible."

Kara said a little more on the car ride back. Turns out she cools speak full sentences just… in a different language. Not very useful when asking for information. She seemed to understand English just fine and she could grasp big words but failed to string them together into a sentence.

"So, Kara." Ellie was sitting next to her in the back of the car, sitting sideways in her seat to face her, while the young girl stared out of the window. "How old are you?"

Instead of speaking, Kara held out all ten of her fingers. Ten?! She looked barely seven. She was extremely short and frail. Although her eyes didn't hold much innocence.

"Was it just you and this Cleo girl?" Ellie asked. Kara nodded. "How old is she?"

"Seventeen." She seemed to deliberately ignore the first question. Ellie nodded.

"Is she dead?"

"Ellie!" Joel said sharply. Kara continued to stare out of the window.

"Probably." No one spoke after that.

"I couldn't just leave her there Tommy." Joel was in his brother's living room. Ellie, Kara and Maria where in the kitchen attached. The older woman was making sandwiches for the girls. Ellie was still very suspicious of Kara and looked at her with scrutiny in her gaze.

"We don't know this girl… What if she was with the bandits? What if whoever she was with comes looking for her?" He was leaning against the back of a chair, opposite to the one Joel was sitting on.

"She said that, before, she was with a girl called Cleo and that she's probably dead."

"But-"

"You said the population needed to grow!"

"I was thinking, adult population."

"She's still a person."

"That can't speak English…"

"She can. Just, not very well." Tommy sighed.

"Who will look after her?"

"I will." He said without a moment's hesitation.

"What?!" Came Ellie's voice from the kitchen.

"She'll live with us." Ellie walked towards Joel.

"But she…" Ellie began.

"She's staying with us and that's final." Joel rarely raised his voice so Ellie decided not to push him. Ellie wasn't the only one unhappy with the new arrival, Tommy didn't seem too pleased. However, Maria had taken a liking to the girl.

Joel knew that Ellie wasn't too keen on their new housemate. He thought that it would be good for her. She needed someone to relate to. Someone from the outside. Someone closer to her age he'd hoped someone perhaps closer to her age but hey, you can't have everything.

One of Tommy's conditions for Kara staying was that she had to get checked in the infirmary. Joel wasn't sure if it was for. Check for bites? Maybe. Kara seemed wary of everything. As she'd walked into the infirmary she'd squinted, looking away from the bright light. Her eyes constantly darted from one person to another, not looking at them for too long and never looking them in the eyes.

Even as she sat on the table, being checked over by Cameron she studied the room. Ellie stood in the corner of the room leaning against the wall. Cameron looked a tremendously similar to his brother Luke. A boy that Ellie had been messing around with…

Joel didn't know about Luke. Obviously. Or he probably wouldn't be breathing. Luke wasn't necessarily very bright or very brave but he was tall and muscular. He had dark skin with equally dark eyes. His hair was jet black and came down to his shoulders in thick waves. Luke was about a year older than her.

"Where's your brother?" Ellie asked nonchalantly. Cameron looked up briefly before answering.

"At the house with the others." He returned to Joel with a worried look.

"I'm off." Ellie pushed away from the wall and walked out of the room before Joel could protest.

"Hey, sweetie. I'm going to have to have a private chat with Joel here for a minute. In private. We'll be back in a few minutes. We'll be just outside the door. Is that ok?" Kara nodded slowly.

Cameron walked quickly outside of the room with Joel on his heels. He sighed.

"She isn't infected, which is good. But she is in very bad condition. She should be about 70 pounds but she's only about 45 lbs. She's extremely weak. She has three broken ribs and a dislocated shoulder. And from what I can gather, she's autistic."

"Autistic?" Joel said surprised.

"Yes. High functioning but… It's there."

"How does that affect her though?"

"Um. She hasn't got any learning difficulties, in fact she's extremely intelligent, she just can't express it. She can't interpret other's facial expressions properly. She's always looking around, studying people, if you haven't noticed she won't look people in the eyes." Joel was very confused.

"Notice how she's almost always squinting?" Cameron pointed at her through the small glass window. Joel nodded slightly. "It's because of the light. Her brain is making it seem brighter than it is. She doesn't like loud noises. Notice how she's constantly shifting." Again, Joel nodded. "She doesn't like the metal table. Her senses are super sensitive. It's a wonder how she survived this long on her own."

"She uh-she wasn't on her own. There was someone else, a girl, Cleo. She looked after her. But we found her alone. It's strange that she came with us so willingly…"

"Not really." Cameron replied. "I guess she thought you were her best bet. You offered food and protection. She seems to also have gone through some serious trauma."

"Who hasn't" Joel replied.

Luke's house was close to the infirmary, a three-minute walk through wide roads and narrow back streets. It was very different to Boston. Here in Jacksonville there was no curfew. Here in Jacksonville she didn't need to constantly check over her shoulder to ensure that no one was following her. Here in Jacksonville she was safe.

Ellie rarely entered Luke's house through the front door. She climbed the scaffolding up to his bedroom window. He was sitting on his bed reading a comic as she'd expected. She lightly tapped on the window.

Luke smiled as he dropped the comic, moved across the room and opened the window.

"Hey beautiful." He said in a deep voice leaning in and giving her a peck on her fore head. "Hey handsome." She smiled. He was indeed handsome. His dark hair was messed up from rolling around in bed. His brown eyes sparkled, his dark skin stretched tight over big muscles. They could easily be seen through his grey t-shirt.

She easily climbed through the window and flumped down onto his double bed. She rolled onto her front and picked up the comic Luke had been reading.

"Deadpool…" She read slowly. "Sounds lame." Luke scoffed. "Where'd you get this one?" The older boy's eyes showed a flash of panic, it was so sudden that Ellie believed she might've imagined it. He sat down next to her and rubbed the back of her neck in discomfort.

"I uh-got it from Megan." Ellie raised her eyebrow. She wasn't surprised.

"Oh. I didn't realize she liked comics." Ellie said carefully.

"Yeah, it was weird. We didn't speak much I guess it was a peace offering." Ellie moved to sit by him.

"From what I hear, you two have been talking a lot." Luke sighed.

"Ellie." He sounded weak.

"Why would you sleep with her?" She didn't seem angry. This made Luke nervous. He would've been less scared if she'd shouted.

"Look babe…. I'm… I'm sorry. It was a one-time thing. We were both drunk. I-I. I'm sorry." She nodded slowly. She wished she could say that she was surprised but she wasn't. She wished she could be angry but she wasn't. It was her own fault after all. She'd been constantly teasing him but never letting him have what he wanted.

She hadn't slept with him yet. She hadn't slept with anyone. She was sick of being the innocent little girl. She wasn't a child. Her body had matured and she'd killed more people than most of the other teenagers in the town. She shouldn't still be a virgin she thought. Most of the other fifteen-year-old girls weren't virgins.

Was Luke the best person to give her virginity to? She didn't love him but she found him very attractive. At least he wasn't a murderer…or a cannibal…or a pedophile. He was a safe bet.

She stood abruptly and walked towards his bedroom door and locked it, she shut the window and closed the blinds. The room was dark but they could still see each other. Luke was still sitting on the bed. He was quietly watching her.

Ellie took a deep breath and moved towards him. She straddled his lap. Her heart was beating one thousand miles an hour but her face showed confidence. She placed her hands under Luke's chin and lifted it so that their eyes met.

She pulled his face forwards, deliberately and met his lips for a slow, deep kiss. They'd kissed before, this was nothing new. Ellie wanted more. She ran her hands through his hair, knotting her fingers. Luke kept his hands to his side, weary of what might come. Ellie pulled away.

She grabbed the bottom of her top and pulled it over her head. She'd dreaded this moment and had overthought it loads in her head. He would see her bite mark. In anticipation of this event she'd covered it in a bandage and wasn't scared to show the rest of her body.

"Put your hands on me." She whispered into his ear then sucked on his earlobe. It didn't take long for the boy to comply, quickly grasping at her waist.

She noticed quickly that he was very…grabby. His hands rubbed and groped whatever skin they could find. It was almost uncomfortable. His massive hands fondled at her breasts through her bra and she wondered how any girl could enjoy this.

This wasn't something she intended to enjoy. She intended to prove a point. Prove that she was worth his affection. Prove that she can make him moan.

She pulled up his top and ran her hand along his chest. Her mind was racing. Was he enjoying this? There was no doubt that he was enjoying it but she wanted him to worship her. She wanted to prove to him that she could make him feel more pleasure than Megan.

She started to move her hips instinctively. Grinding against a spot that made him moan. Yes! That's what she wanted. She drank up his moans as if they gave her life. She needed more. She moved her mouth from his and down to his neck.

She kissed down his neck until she found his pulse point. When she found it, she began sucking and nipping, drawing out a shuddered gasp from the boy. She moved her hips faster and harder and he joined, rocking at the pace she set.

Ellie pulled his top over his head and discarded it to the side, her hands running free over his chest and back. He was extremely muscular and she could feel him shudder beneath her. What did boys like. They liked to feel powerful. They liked to be in control. They liked to be on top.

She rolled off him so that she was lying on her back. She slipped her bra off to expose her developed chest. His eyes glazed over and a primal desire filled them. For a moment Ellie was scared. No. He won't hurt me.

She grabbed his hand and pulled him over her. Resting his hand over her breast. He began to kiss her neck. Moving lower and lower. When his mouth reached her chest, he did something that Ellie didn't expect. He rolled his tongue across her nipple, sending a sensation that caused her to arch her back. A small shriek escaped her mouth. He grinned at this.

"You like that baby?" Dirty talk, seriously?! He continued to roll his tongue across her, moving swiftly. His hands were groping her backside. Squeezing painfully. She wasn't 100% sure what was happening but he seemed to be enjoying it.

Luke moved up from her mouth and kissed her. His hand trailed lower sliding under the waistband of her jeans. He slid the material of her panties to the side and ran a strong finger along her folds. Ellie moaned. She didn't think it could feel this good.

"Tell me what you want baby." Ellie internally rolled her eyes. What did she want? She didn't know. This wasn't for her. This was to prove that she was no longer a child. This was to prove that she could bring a boy, no a man, pleasure.

She leaned in close to his ear as his fingers continued to stroke her.

"I want you inside me." That was all he needed.

And that's it folks for this chapter. I hope you enjoyed and please, please, PLEASE leave a nice review, they make me smile. I welcome constructive criticism, just don't be an ass about it. I will be open to suggestions while writing this story. I have it mostly planned out but if you have any ideas or questions then just pm me :) I'll update as often as I can so please don't bug me about it.Hwyl Fawr x