Lauren's POV
I still can't believe she left. After everything we've been through, she would just leave us. It's been a month sense she left and I miss her, I feel like her leaving was my fault if I would have listened to her we would have not gotten into that fight. I should have faught harder for her to stay.
So here I sit in the recording studio with the girls writing and recording our new and first album as a foursome. I couldn't think straight, I miss her, I need to talk her somehow. Apologize for not hearing her out and jumping to conclusions before letting her explain her side of the story.
But I didn't, I let my own ego and brain take control instead of my heart. Everything is fucked up, I need to fix this somehow, if she won't come back then at least be on good terms with her. Then slowly try and fix our relationship, she's the love of my life and I fucked it up by being selfish and senseless.
Lauren are you okay? You zoned out again." Ally asked breaking me out of my train of thought. "Yea, I'm fine just thinking is all." I replied trying to sound convincing. "You're thinking about her again aren't you?" Normani asked. "No. Maybe, yes. I can't help it I royalty fucked up. I should had let her talk me to me, instead I told her I didn't want her in my life anymore and to rot in hell. But now it's to late." I said my voice cracking a bit.
"Okay yea. You could had listened and let her talk. Explain what really happened. But it wasn't your fault, you were protecting your heart." Dinah explained with a caring tone. "Yea I know, but it broke my heart more when I found out she didn't do anything wrong that it was him. I should have went straight to her asked her about it then turning my back on her." I answered with tears starting to form in my eyes.
"I'm going to go for walk around the building to clear my mind." I said standing up. "Okay just be careful Laur." Ally said. I gave her a smile and walked out. I decided to walk down to the little café they had in here. Walking down the hallway, I looked at all the posters of the different artists here. But I stopped at one that caught my attention, it was a poster of our cover to our last album.
Even though we were serious in that photo we were so happy that day. We were joking, dancing, just having fun. I miss those days all five of us together taking the world by storm. Her and I were planing on coming out at the end of the year. But that didn't happen till that photo got leaking of us kissing exactly one month till she left. (A/N: Let's pretend it was them instead of Lauren and Lucy. No hate towards them they were cute together.)
"Everything was perfect back then huh?" I heard a familiar voice next to me. I knew who it belonged to, I was afraid if I looked at her I would break down crying. "Yea, it was." I barely answered not trusting my voice completely. I still didn't look at her I kept my eyes trained on the picture. "Still can't look at me, I see." She stated more then questioned.
"It's not that. If I look at you, I'll start crying realizing how I fucked everything up and I missed the chance to let you explain. 'Cause I know you don't love me after the heartache I put you through and I'm sorry." I answered before taking of running before she could answer. I hoped in the elevator and hurried to close the door, 'cause she started to walk really fast almost jogging towards the elevator. I managed to close it before she reached it.
I went to the first floor to the café and grabed a coffee before taking the stairs back up, I didn't want to chance running into her again. Lucky for me the studio we were in was on the third floor. As I made it to the top of stairs on the third floor I popped my head out and looked to see if I see her, when I didn't I ran straight for our studio.
I ran straight and slammed the door shut and leaned against it, panting. The girls jumped and looked up at me confused. "What happened to you? You looked like you saw a ghost." Dinah joked laughing a bit. "No. I just saw her." I said looking at Dinah. She went from laughing to a serious face in less than a second. "Wait her as in her?" Normani asked shocked. "Yes as in Camila." I stated going to sit down on the couch.
"What happened?" Ally asked looking at me. "I was walking down to the café, but stopped when I saw the poster cover of out last album. I was looking at when she came up to me saying that 'everything was perfect back then' I told her 'yea' but I didn't look at her so she went 'still can't look at me still, I see' and I told it was that I said 'it's not that. If I look at you, I'll start crying realizing how I fucked everything up and I missed the chance to let you explain. 'Cause I know you don't love me after the heartache I put you through and I'm sorry' then I took off before she could answer." I explained in what seemed like one breathe. I was still in shock from seeing her.
"Well shit. What are you going to do now?" Dinah asked. "Right now, I don't know. But I do know this won't be the last time I see her." I answered. "How do you know?" Ally asked confused. "This feeling in my stomach tells me." I said looking back the door. "I also know one day I will get her back. All I have to do is stop being selfish and senseless."