a/n: i like 1st person pov...so anyways...this was inspired by "By Your Side" by Cocorosie

Disclaimer: dont own FMA

By your side

I'll always be by your side
Even when you're down and out
I'll always be by your side
Even when you're down and out
I just wanted to be your housewife
All i wanted was to be your housewife
I'll iron your clothes
I'll shine your shoes
I'll make your bed
And cook your food
I'll never cheat
I'll be the best girl you'll ever meet
And for a diamond ring
I'll do these kinds of things
I'll scrub your floor
Never be a bore
I'll tuck you in
I do not snore
I'd wear your black eyes
Bake you apple pies
I don't ask why
And i trys not to crys
I'll always be by your side
Even when you're down and out
I'll always be by your side
Even when you're down and out
And its nearly midnight
And all i want with my life
Is to be a housewife
Is to be a housewife
'Cause it's nearly midnight
And all i want with my life
Is to die a housewife
Is to die a housewife

I watch you from across my office. You're beautiful and you don't even realize it, with you're blonde hair and curvy figure.

And your eyes, oh god, your eyes, they're so beautiful.

I try to catch your gaze, just to get lost in them, but you never look up, not when people are around.

I love your mystery.

I watch you walk towards me but you stop and turn quickly as if what was on the tip of your tongue wasn't really that important.

I wish it had been.

You glance back me with those golden eyes and I do everything not to smile, this is hell.

And then you leave.

I bite your lip, just to hear you moan, you never would be so rash in public.

Oh god you drive me insane.

I feel your hips writh under my grip and I want you so bad...

But not like this.

I nuzzle my face into your throat and sigh.

It's damnable, my love for you.

I could be faced with never seeing you again, or you would leave me when you decide you no longer need to be here.

Either way is unimagineable.

All I want in this life is you. You just don't see that, and that's why you're always leaving.

I feel tears in my eyes and I continue to breathe into the hollow of your throat.

You say nothing but I wonder what you think; I'm not strong enough to love you, to help you through the horrible times.

Why do you have to pick me up when I'm down, why can't I be the one to make it all better?

You must be able to read my mind, you must know I'm weak because you run your hands through my hair soothingly.

I walk away, muttering a goodbye as I go to slump behind my desk.

I feel empty, a shell.

I'm not even strong enough to tell you it meant more to me than a fling.

I'm not even strong enough to tell you how I feel, just as I was never strong enough to tell Maes how I felt.

I can tell myself how I feel though, it's easy, I say it so many times in one day, as if to cheer myself up...

But with that thought is doubt, not doubt of my feelings but doubt of this world, this law, the only thing keeping me from you.

I could never live without you.

We both hate to sneak around like this, but I can't bring myself to end this, to start a new life, because my mind just keeps whispering into my ear.

Why do you tantalize me so? You smile at me and taunt me, and whisper to me in the back of my mind.

This is your fault.

Why do you make me say it? Why do you make me say it...

I love you Eward Elric.

And I damn you for that.

a/n: kinda short...but oh well...