A/N: So this is basically the beginning of a random storyline I thought up and decided to write down. I love Addison and Alex. Addison's my favourite character and I'm so upset she's leaving the show...Oh well.. Don't know how long this will end up, because I have so much work to do for school, but we'll see how we go! Enjoy and tell me what you think!

'... the truth is the hardest missile one can be pelted with.' - George Eliot

As Addison was talking with Callie in the foyer of the Church after the shock surprise at the wedding she heard the irritating yet familiar buzz and beep of her page.

"Argh," she sighed, "can't get away for even an hour."

She rolled her eyes at Callie before she looked down at her page.

Callie sighed helplessly at her friend, "why did we enter into these professions?"

Addison just looked up at her with exhausted eyes, "I'll catch you later…"

With that she turned on her heel and exited the church.

2 hours later Addison was exiting the OR after performing an emergency C-Section on a 8 month pregnant woman whose blood pressure had suddenly sky rocketed. She had had to get the baby out of there fast so that the woman wouldn't have a stroke. She hadn't had a proper examination of the baby, he seemed healthy but she didn't want to be too sure, so she headed to the nursery to reassess him.

As she examined the baby she felt a swelling in his abdomen. He was nearly 6 weeks premature and so tiny. She ordered tests and sat down and waited in an armchair in the nursery until they returned. She relaxed back into the chair but a baby started crying. She got up and took the tiny baby in her arms. She looked at the chart on the end of the cot; baby Ava Cooper.

"Ava, what a pretty name you have their sweetie," Addison cooed to the tiny infant in her arms as she rocked back and forth to soothe the baby, "yes you do, you do have such a pretty name…" The baby's screams began to cease and she began to fall asleep. Addison kept rocking her back and forth, she hadn't realized she was crying until a tear dropped down onto the baby's blanket.

She would never have this. She still couldn't believe that she was barren. Her mind raced back to when she found out she was pregnant with Mark's child. She would have kept the child now, regardless of who the father was. She signed heavily as she placed the baby back in the crib.

As she turned around she was startled to see Alex Karev standing in the doorway.

"Alex…what are you doing here?" Her initial shock wearing off as she realized she was the one to send him here in the first place, "I thought you would be with your beloved Jane Doe," she added with a hint of sarcasm, as she brushed the tears from her eyes, not wanting him to see her so vulnerable.

"Turns out I missed her. Too late." Alex shot out somewhat defensively, he noticed something was wrong and added, "are you ok?"

"Yeah I'm fine, just tired. That's too bad," Addison replied as she sat down in the arm chair again.

"Yeah, I guess it is. I mean, what was I thinking anyway? She was a patient…" he trailed off, then started again, "why are you back again so soon? Shouldn't you be at the wedding?"

"Turns out the wedding didn't happen, and I got called back for an emergency C." Addison closed her eyes as she leant back in the chair, fatigue creeping over her.

"Wedding was off, damn I always miss the good stuff." Alex perched himself on the chair opposite Addison. "Is the mother and baby ok from your emergency?"

Addison looked at him, got caught in his stare… "ah, oh, um yeah, mother's stable now, the baby is six weeks prem though and I'm worried about a possible haematoma in his bowel."

"Really, that's too bad, nothing you can't fix though." He added with a smile. "Hey are you sure you're ok you look a little upset? You've been quiet since you've got back from your trip to LA." He looked at her, his brow furrowed.

Addison looked at him, he was genuinely concerned. "Yeah, well…" Addison trailed off as she felt the tears coming and her throat choking up. She swallowed hard, trying to make the emotions go away, 'not now!' she thought to herself pleadingly. It was too late, the tears began to flow freely down her face. "I'm, I'm fine."

Alex stood up really concerned now, he hadn't really seen her like this before. Not this upset. He walked over and perched himself on the arm of her chair and put his arm around her. His fingers tangling up the hair at her neck. "What's wrong Addison, you can tell me, you can trust me."

Addison looked up at him, the tears blearing her vision. She blinked and stared clearly now, straight into his eyes. He stared back. For that one moment, she felt safe, she felt comfortable and sad all at the same time. She looked down again. "I, well I found out something I didn't want to hear."

"Oh, is, um, is everything alright?" Alex spoke lightly, trying not push her.

"Well I'm fine, but, but…I'm barr…I'm freaking barren." Addison eventually blurted out followed by a huge sob. "I've never wanted a baby until now, and the time finally comes when I think I'm ready, but no, I'm freaking barren and can't have a baby. I'm still young…I thought I had time…" She took another breath and started sobbing again.

Alex tightened his arms around her and this time moved his body down so that he could hold her. Alex was shocked, that was the last thing he had expected to hear. He didn't know what to say, how to comfort her. "Shhh, shhh, calm down, just breathe. It will be ok Addie, there's other options you know…But right now, just breathe…shhhh." He stroked her hair and then turned her around and held his face in her hands and brushed away her tears. He leant forward and brushed his lips gently over her forehead.

Addison leant into his chest and just leant there, sobbing for the next few minutes, as he comfortingly consoled her and rubbed her back. Eventually she calmed down and looked up at him, embarrassed. "God, I'm a mess, I shouldn't have told you, why would you want to know…"

"Addie, I would want to know, because I care about you. I do. I wouldn't have asked what was wrong if I hadn't wanted to know." He just kept stroking her hair for another 10 minutes or so.

Eventually she sat up and wiped her eyes and pulled her hair back. "I'm just going to go to the bathroom, wash my face, get changed. Then you're coming with me to Joe's. I need a drink." She stood up, her scrubs terribly crinkled and walked slowly out of the nursery.

Alex also stood up. He glanced around the nursery then began to walk through the rows of tiny babies sleeping in their cribs. He occasionally lent down and tickled or stroked a baby on the head.

He liked kids, he thought to himself, he had even hoped to have them one day.