Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto.
You know, I never once questioned why you always liked my hair down or why you wanted to call me Shika so badly and not Shikamaru. I never thought deeply about it but then again…I didn't have to think deeply of something so simple and easy to figure out.
I am a genius after all…
I never once questioned, never ever in my life.
Why you always closed your eyes when you kissed me.
Touched me…
You know I loved you with all I had? That I would've put my life on line in order to keep you safe? I would've done anything for you…
I always loved how your long angelic blonde hair blew in the wind. When you smiled, it made me smile, no matter how lazy I was. Your soft blue eyes always made me feel warm.
So I question why?
I loved you and loved you until it became hard for me to breathe on my own…I needed you with me. I thought that you loved me. But after all I am a genius…
Aren't I?
So the equation was simple…everything you did made since so I never questioned. Because I knew the answer already. But Hey, I might be miscalculating…right? Right?
You called me Shika because it was closer to the amount of letters that the person you really admired.
Sasuke 6 letters
Shika 5 letters
Heh it even starts with the name letter.
And the reason why you always like my haired down is because it looked like his hair. But the most painful equation that I didn't want to solve was why you always closed your eyes when you kissed me.
When you kissed me…you imagined me as him.
But hey…I can be wrong right?
But my suspicions were confirmed when I lie awake after we made love to each other, I heard you whisper his name. It angered me but you were still at least mine, even though you loved some one else.
The next day we had a mission, with Chouji, me, you, Naruto, Sakura, and him…Sasuke. We were ambushed my many ninja's, but we were doing well until I saw a kunai whizzing toward your unprotected back.
I jumped in-between the kunai and you…A gush of blood splattered onto the green grass. And I heard you gasp, or was it a scream? Everything sounded as though it were a mere whisper.
"Shikamaru!"
You called me by my whole name. Not Shika, not Sasuke, but Shikamaru.
Did you love me after all?
I let out a soft laugh as I lay in your lap, its feels hot, or is it because my body is getting colder?
I had to say one more thing to her, I know it was wrong but…I wanted her to bear the hurt I felt all along. The guilt.
With mustering the last of my breath I gurgled out, "I know you never loved me, and I never loved you…" I lied, I loved you, loved you, loved you, I fucking loved you!
"Shikamaru how..how did you?"
"Find out?"
I laugh a soft laugh.
"I'm a genius after all…aren't I?"
Nara Shikamaru : Jounin
Deceased
Age: 17
Cause: A kunai wound in the heart.