Hey guys thank you for following me to this story I am so sorry about the last story. the site wasn't allowing me to revise for some reason. The chapters on this story have the same plot but a lot of different lines. they are longer and less grammatical errors and flows better. I really hope you guys reread or if its your first time, enjoy it! I will be updating all my chapters revised or new on this story!

Chapter 1 revised!

I have added quite a bit to this chapter and fixed a lot of grammatical errors... I hope you guys enjoy!

DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN FULLMETAL ALCHEMIST

WARNING: THIS IS RATED M FOR SEXUAL CONTENT AND IS ALSO YAOI.

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"Ugh Ed!" My lover screamed after releasing into me. It has been half a year since me and Roy started dating and like usual we just had sex. And like always, I turned over quickly and gave Roy my back. I did not want him to see my tear filled eyes. Every time we have sex, this is the outcome. It is not that I do not love him, because I really do love him.

The day he finally asked me out I was so excited, but I was not ready to have sex, and to be honest I still am not. The only reason I let him 'make love' with me is because I am scared that if I don't, Roy will break up with me. Before we stared dating Roy was an infamous man-whore. Every girl knew about him and every girl had wanted him… they probably still do. He never had a relationship before me. It was all one night stands. I knew what he was like when he asked me out, but I have had a crush on him for so long that I went along with it.

They date was amazing. He took me out to eat and we flirted. We actually flirted. Normally Roy and I usually fight, but I guess you can say we made a peace treaty the moment he decided to ask me out. Don't get me wrong, when we are at the office we still pick on each other and call each other names like pipsqueak, old man, shorty, and sometimes stupid pony, but a lot of the time it is not to actually to be mean to each other. It is just who we are. It turned into words of love. Did I mention we work together? We work in the military. Roy is my commanding officer.

When I was younger, I made a mistake with alchemy and ended up hurting my brother. He would never admit it, but who wouldn't be hurt being stuck in a suit of armor for a few years. Well anyway, Roy came to the house I was staying at and told me if I wanted our bodies back we should join the military, so that is what I did. He was always there for us even if at the time I thought he was a real bastard. While I was searching for a way to get our bodies back I started to see him as a father figure. I have really never had a father so the feelings I had for him, I assumed was fatherly compassion. Then a couple years later I, my best friend Winry told me she liked me and I couldn't return the feelings. At first I thought it was because I was busy getting our bodies back, but then when we finally got our bodies back I still did not feel anything for her. What was worse, I started getting stronger feelings for my commanding officer.

That is when I realized something… I am gay. That's also when I realized that the feelings I had for Roy weren't fatherly. They were feelings of something stronger. At the time I couldn't say I loved him, but it definitely was something close to it. I never acted on it because I knew Roy was a ladies man and would be disgusted with me if I told him. I thought I would always have a unrequited love. That is until my 18th birthday. The day he asked me out!

Anyway, after dinner we walked around a beautiful lake at Centrals Park. Once it got late Roy invited me to his house to have some hot chocolate seeing as it was a bit cold that night. One again I agreed. When we got there he made the hot chocolate and we sat and talked while drinking it. After we finished drinking the hot chocolate is when it got interesting. Roy took my glass and set both of them down on the coffee table.

Then he leaned in and gave me my first kiss. It was amazing! He was so soft and gentle. I felt like I could kiss him forever. Then after we kissed for a while he pushed me down gently and started to strip my shirt off. Once he got it off he looked at me to ask if it was okay. Of course I knew what he was asking and to be honest I really don't think I wanted for it to happen, but I knew he wanted it so I nodded. He picked me up and brought me to his room. He gently placed me on his bed and continued to make love with me. Throughout the whole time he was gentle and I could feel his passion, but I just couldn't enjoy it because I thought it was going to be a one night stand. We both came. Of course I would came, I have been dreaming of this night since I had known the guy. Even if I was not ready I still wanted him. I wanted his love…even if it was pretend. He pulled out and spooned me seeing as I was already leaning on my side, hiding my tear struck eyes. He told me the words I was so happy to hear but did not believe.

"I love you."

Then the tears fell.

The next morning I slipped out of bed and went home. I was able to pretend nothing happened. When I got to the office to give my report he smiled at me and told me he had a great time. He also wondered why I left early. I told him I had to get home to finish the report. He believed me. He then asked me if I wanted to go to out again tonight. I looked at him confused and accidently mumbled out loud, wondering if it wasn't a one night stand. Apparently Roy heard. He said to me "Of course it wasn't a one night stand! I told you I loved you and besides that was the best sex I have ever had." Normally I would have been happy that it wasn't a one night stand, however now I feel he only loves me because of sex. I did not tell him what I was thinking, but I nodded and agreed to go on another date. Soon it turned into us being exclusive and after every date we make love and I cry. Because of that dreadful day when he said I gave him the best sex, I keep thinking he only wants me for sex… Although he says were exclusive I feel as if I am a fuck buddy. So I cry. No, Roy doesn't know the truth and I don't on ever planning on telling him because as long as Roy is happy and he tells me that he loves me I just cannot deny him my body.

Again Ed drifted off to sleep with tear stained eyes, and the oblivious Roy, cuddling his 'lover' to sleep.

The next morning Roy woke up before Ed. He looked down to the bundle of blonde hair lying on his arm. It had been six months since Roy and Ed started dating and it has been the best months of his life. He finally figured out why he could never actually stay with any of the girls he went out with. It was because they were not Ed. Never in his whole life has Roy ever believed himself to be gay. He liked boobs too much, but for some reason Edward was different. Roy knew Edward was different since the first time he saw the kid in the wheelchair missing an arm and leg.

Once he got back to Central after convincing Ed to join the military, Roy thought a lot about the kid. He was wondering why he liked him so much. What intrigued him so? He figured out his feeling were love the moment Ed walked into his office to receive his watch and title. However Roy was a true military man. He never did anything wrong. Not long before he met Ed, the military had already made it legal to be in a relationship with other members of the military. They learned that it made people fight harder when trying to protect the ones they loved. So Roy didn't have a problem with Ed being in the military. However Ed was underage and that was illegal. So he knew he couldn't act on his feelings while Ed was underage. However it got more and more difficult seeing Ed and not acting on his feelings.
Of course Roy kept his feelings at bay by picking on the boy, but soon that wasn't enough. That is when he decided to have one night stands every time he felt the need to have the boy. At first it was a good way to coup, however near the time Ed got closer to age Roy got more anxious. Roy started sleeping with a girl every night… that is until the day Ed turned 18.

The day Edward turned 18, Roy went to the doctor and made sure he was clean. While waiting for the results he didn't sleep with anyone. But once the results came in and Roy figured out he was clean, he finally asked Ed out. It was the best date he has ever went on.

That one date turned him away from girls completely. With Ed they talked about stuff that was actually interesting. He actually participated in the conversation. Edward did not talk about shopping, and how hot Roy was. Edward talked about alchemy and the people they actually both knew. Out of all the "dates" he went out with before Ed, he had never had so much fun. He knew Ed was relatively new on the dating thing so he was surprised that Edward agreed to go all the way. After the amazing night he had, he would have been perfectly content with just cuddling up again Ed and sleeping the night away… too bad his dick was too excited to agree to that plan, but Edward said yes and it turned out to be the best sex ever. He could tell Ed was inexperienced, but because it was him he did not care. It being Edward made it perfect.

That being said, he was surprised that morning when he woke up and Ed wasn't there. It was their first night together and Ed ran away. That was usually his job. That is why he never brought a girl home. Plus he wanted to save that right for Edward.

When he was at the office and Edward came in he was so happy to see him. He was kind of shocked when Edward thought that it was only one night stand. He squashed those feeling as soon as possible and made them official.

This was the first time Roy had ever woken up before Ed and he was happy. He leaned in to give his lover a kiss but froze when he saw the dried up tear stains on Ed's face. He was confused as to why Ed cried. He didn't want to disturbed his lovers sleep though, so he got up and went down to make breakfast. He planned to ask Ed what was wrong when he woke up.

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