Okay, so I edited this, is it any better? I hope so, I tried to turn the vulgarity down, and all that... If not, suggest to me what would be better please?

CH.1

Kendra's POV.

I couldn't see, and hands were touching me, in placing I wish I still had the will power to tell them no. But that was long gone. I screamed and screamed, hoping they would stop, but instead, the hands slapped me across my face. I couldn't take it, my screams became nonsense so I stopped, when I did, the hands left, in their place, something long, and thick, and gross started something I would never forget, and always hate myself for.

"Kendra, Kendra, wake up! you're safe, I'm here, that's not real, calm down." A male voice said, taking me out of my nightmare/memory. I looked up to see, my boyfriend Josh, my brother Teddy, and Daddy's head security guard Taylor's worried faces watching me. They were the only ones I let see or hear me, other than the therapist Daddy makes me see, Flynn.

You see, a few months back, I'd been kidnapped and raped by my moms long ago ex boss, Jack Hyde and companions. Its been a total of six months, but now, I still apparently haven't made any progress. No one understands whats happening to me, no one gets what I've been through, but I really am not alone. I am one of many through out the world this has happened to, I just cope with it differently. My way is to only speak to and see a few select people, hence why my mother and father and anyone else in the house isn't here right now.

I reach up and put my arms around Teddy, and my boyfriend, and start to cry. "The same thing, every time I close my eyes, its the same thing, I-I can't deal with this anymore, I can't! I just, don't know what to do."

Josh, tentatively hugging back, says. "you'll pull through, that's over now. its just us, no one else will ever hurt you." Then Teddy and him must have registered in their minds that I was touching them, something I'd refused to do until apparently this very moment, but, I told myself, only them. Josh's brow rose in a silent question.

"I needed the sense of touch more than I thought I guess." I whisper in his ear.

Refusing to let go of them, I forced myself to get up, and hug Taylor too. He politely returned my hug, hesitantly, because I'd only just begun to speak to him. I let go of them after about five minutes, and decided to go to the kitchen to get a little bit of food, I hadn't eaten since like, three days ago. On the way, I hoped that the other security detail, or mom and Dad were up and about anywhere in the path I was going.

Turns out I'd been right, Sawyer, Mom, Dad, and Mrs. Taylor were standing in the kitchen, drinking tea, maybe and eating granola. I looked at the clock on the stove, it was six in the morning. All I wanted to do was see them, I did not want to touch, or speak.

As I poked my head around the door frame, all four of them looked up. My parents, stood up and gaped at me for a moment, making me start to shy away from the door. Mrs. Taylor just stood in her spot and looked surprised, while Sawyer nodded at me and then moved his gaze around the room. He made me feel a little safer. My mom was the first one to break away form her spot, coming toward me with her eyes beginning to water. I frowned, and started to back away, I should have considered how easily Mom would have broken. But instead, I'd thoughtlessly shown myself to them. Daddy, moved too, but not at me, toward Mom I think. I heard his voice.

"Ana, no, its taken her a lot of courage to come out here, can't you see she doesn't want to be touched and that she's backing away? Its been too long since I've seen my baby girl. Please, leave her be for now." My Daddy's helping me! He must be remembering his sad childhood. My Mom nods, and steps back to her seat. In turn, I return to my spot at the doorway. Behind me, I hear steps, and I turn to see Josh, Teddy, and Taylor coming up behind me. Taylor and Teddy go into the room and grab some breakfast, while Josh stays at the doorway with me.

Josh raises a brow again, asking permission for his arms to wrap around me. In front of these people? I thought, I don't know. I shook my head, no. I don't want them to see. I sighed, and watched as the people of the house went back to doing what they were before, except my dad, who was now on his phone.

"Flynn?" oh great, he's calling the damn therapist. "Yes, Kendra will need to see you sooner than the time we've already previously assigned." He paused. "Yes, there's a reason, just, can you maybe fit her in, in an hour?" another pause. "Alright. Good, Taylor will have her there."

"Taylor, Kendra needs to meet with Flynn in an hour." He said and walked off.

Should I go? I thought, well, maybe, its only Flynn. Taylor looks at me, I nod. Alright, looks like I'm going.

In the car, Josh put his arm around me, and I snuggled into his side, Taylor and my brother just watched the road, creating a peaceful silence. For the drive, it seemed like there was no one else accept for The two of us.

I must have fallen asleep, because we were at the centre and I felt sort of groggy. I looked at the time, I'd slept for like, forty minutes.

Flynn was sitting in his usual spot in his office. Josh and I came in and sat on the sofa, Josh kept his arms around me as we were sitting, but I shrugged them off when I noticed Flynn watching us.

The first thing Flynn said was, "Oh, now I understand why Mr. Grey wanted to have us meet earlier than scheduled. You've made progress."

I whispered to Josh so he could say it louder for Flynn to hear. "My dad did not see us touching, he only saw my face."

He frowned. "Yet you won't talk to me anymore, not directly."

"I touched three people, allow me not to." I whispered to Josh, and he repeated.

"And you still talk to all three of them?"

I glared at him, uh, obviously I thought, looking up at Josh.

"Anything else I should know?" He asked.

"The only person who hasn't seen me now, is my sister Phoebe." I whispered to Josh.

Just as I said that, she burst through the door. Reflexively, I pulled my hood up over my head and hid myself in Josh's side.

"Oh my fucking god!" She said, seeing me me in Josh's arms.

"Tell her to go away please, I can't face her." I whispered in his ear.

"Phoebe, I know you haven't seen or talked to her in a long time, but she doesn't want you yet. OK?" Phoebe, started crying, and ran out of the room.