I was bored. SO I MADE THIS! (dont kill me) I also set this in October because really I like things that are sorta future-set so if I go on Hiatus I can continue it when it's around the time it's supposedly set. WHICH WOULD BE BETTER! (thats why i have the journal entries)

DAY: Thursday Oct. 09th, 2014.
TIME: 03:32 pm.
CURRENT LOCATION: Skaia Rehab and Mental Hospital.
STATE OF CONDITION: Feeling fine, records say okay health.

Dear journal,

Apparently my name is Karkat Vantas. At least, that's what everyone has been calling me these past two weeks. I don't remember what happened at all. I just remember my parents and my brother. That's all I know and that's all I care to know for the rest of my life. I learned that I didn't have many friends, and I can understand that. I seem to keep looking over my arms and notice that I probably hated myself with all the numerous scars on them. I got my phone and iPod back today so I could look over what kinds of things I liked. I apparently used to fantasize about some boy whom I don't know of. From the looks of it I seemed to be heart broken over the knowledge that they're with someone else, another person of whom I don't know of.

I also learned that I was recently in a car crash that was caused from my own hand. I have to keep wondering if I have problems or not. I apparently tried to commit suicide since the doctors and the said police say that I didn't try to stop. If I even knew why I was trying to commit suicide in the first place I would know. But I don't so for now they're just saying that I have a concussion and that I'm lucky to be alive right now. At least, I think I'm lucky to be alive right now. I'm not sure. The woman that is saying that she's my mother, and I believe her, was sobbing when I woke up and my brother and father, again they say they are and I believe them, weren't even in the room. At least, my father was. My brother was in the same state as my mother, sobbing and smothering me.

The doctors are saying that I'm gonna be going back home soon, so I don't have to write on a piece of hospital paper. I also over-heard them talking to my parents about me and "School", they're gonna have me continue going. But I'll have to catch up on all my missing work and lesson plans in a separate room at school before going back to the classes. I'm okay with that. I should end this quickly and add this onto a computer later on. Until then, I will update on these three scraps of paper.

TIME: 03:58 pm.

You set down the pen and paper and looked over at what you wrote. You couldn't even really recall anything. All you really remembered was some parts of the crash that you were told about. Which was driving off of a bridge. How you even survived, you don't know. You do know that you were in the water. God you hope your car was still in tact. At least you think it was your car. God you hope that car was still in tact. You heard the door open and you turned your head to see who you were pretty sure was your brother. He better just be checking up on you and nothing completely stupid.

"Hey Karkat. H9w are y9u h9lding up?" You had to respond to that name so you could get a better hang at it. "I'm doing fine...uh..." "Kankri." "Oh. I'm doing fine Kankri." "That's g99d, heh, 9ut 9f everything we've ever talked, well argued, a69ut, I never th9ught y9u'd have t9 ask me what my name was." "Yeah..." "9h, s9rry, if this is making y9u unc9mf9rta6le then I'm s9-" "It's fine, I don't mind it." He sat there for a minute like you just told him some horrendous lie. "9h. Well. That's a first." Since you didn't know how to respond you just nodded. He got the hint quickly. "I'm g9nna g9, see y9u at h9me Karkat." "Anytime." He left, shutting the door.

After an hour or so, you don't know how long it's been you've been too busy looking through your iPod to see what kinds of music you liked. Apparently it was weird music, bands like Blink 182 and Panic! At The Disco and even Red. You can't say that they aren't bad. Oh wait where were you? Sorry you sorta gout off-track. But anyways, after an hour or so the doctor let you leave and go home. Which was pretty cool since the first thing you did when you came home was just walk around quietly and look at everything. You heard a chuckle from your dad.

"So um..." You turned and looked at your dad, who had made everyone else leave the room. "You remembering the place?" "A little...not really though." "Yeah." "I think there's something missing though." "Really?" "Yeah um...did we have a family pet?" "Do actually, she's probably upstairs in your room." You were confused so you went upstairs to one of the few rooms. One was definitely not your room, but you recognized it as a safe place. How you recognize it as that is unknown, but you closed it and looked in another room. That room was filled with nothing but books and red. Yeah, you were positive that this was DEFINITELY NOT YOUR ROOM. You quickly closed the door and stood there for a minute.

"Um...okay then." You mumbled to yourself as you turned around to a door covered in 'Hello, my name is...' stickers with different writing on it. You opened the door and quickly found yourself with a Pomeranian. A really excited Pomeranian. You picked her up and looked at her collar. "Lucy huh? Heh, hi Lucy." She started licking your face and yipping happily. Well, you clearly remember her now. Sorta. Not really you don't remember her, but you do remember her barking.

God you hope you remember everything before the end of this year.

Yeah I sorta added some of the bands I like to keep the "Karkat Vantas likes Punk and Rock" headcanon ALIVE AND HEALTHY.

And yeah I don't really fucking care about the whole "IT'S JULY/AUGUST NOT FUCKING OCTOBER YOU IGNORANT BITCH!" YEAH I MEANT TO DO THAT SO DON'T TRY TO HASSLE ME!

God I love having fanfictions to help me out with actual real world problems (im sorta in a weird argument with my matesprit and idk if were gonna split or not) and junk (i havent eaten since 9 am and its like 5 now and im starving and thirsty help) so yeah w/e.