I'm not going to look over my shoulder. I refuse to look over my shoulder. Without the needle in my hand, without a skill to be useful with, I can feel minute tremors shivering down my body.
I helped... I protected Weiss. Maybe part of it was out of instinct, but... Well, I also did it partly as I told Ran. I want to make him happy, and if helping Weiss makes him happy, then... then I guess I'll keep patching up Yohji and Eden.
I glance up slightly. Yohji still looks tired and pale. It's safe to say he's lost a lot of blood and I'm worried about delaying getting that tetanus shot. I would have preferred to stitch him up if he'd taken some sort of drugs, even just over-the-counter pain pills, first; he can be so stubborn. Eden looks a bit better; the anethetics are probably really starting to kick in now.
I know I shouldn't look to my side, but I do anyway. Ran too is pale, paler than normal, a thin sheen of cold sweat covering his face. He's staring at the floor like it's the most interesting thing he's ever seen. I just hope he's not going into shock. And Schuldig isn't even here anymore. Last I saw he was stumbling out of the kitchen in the direction of the bathroom. I was a bit zoned out myself at the time and missed why he was leaving; I think sometimes that healing people is more exhausting than killing them.
What a day it has been, as Ran said. What a sorry lot we are. I'm probably in the best condition of us all, and that's not saying a lot, considering earlier this mornig I was talking to Ouka and now I feel like I'm about ten seconds away from completely freaking out. Looked like Ran and Schu were closer than that. It's enough to make me glad I'm insane, not a telepath.
And speaking of insane, where was Siberian? It's not like him to miss a fight. And now he's missing a huge chaotic brawl like this? Too weird. Not to mention the sheer weirdness factor of Farfarello actually listening to me in the fight. And neesan... She seemed so completely different now than she was a few days ago.
I think this is a time when one of Yohji's sayings applies: The world is going to hell in a handbasket.
19 March 2002
I think I like this one the least of all my posts so far. It's included with great hesitancy.