Author's Note: I don't know what honestly consumed me to write this, I just feel like it needed to be written. I'm not sure if I want this to be a one-shot or more but for now I'll leave it as it is. Let me know what you think should happen in the reviews if you please, I apologize for it not being edited, enjoy.
The crisp night air and enchanting veil of stars suspended above in the sky like shimmering diamonds with the snow white moon joining it's companions did little to cool the Tamaranean's envious, darker mood as she stood on the very edge of the roof that was the Titan's Tower.
She was so distraught that all she felt was the righteous fury common among her species and threw an endless amount of starbolts into the cold, frozen void of the ocean, along with a few eye beams and even on one occasion when her rage overwhelmed her she threw an enormous starbolt wave that sliced through the liquid like butter, powerful enough to destroy a bridge.
Now she sat on the ledge, tears sliding down her face with the owner doing nothing to stop them, her emotions on haywire and she could not for the life of her even having the common decency to summon a happy memory and fly away to be left in solitude so it seems her current predicament would have to do.
"After all we had been through, all the blood, sweats and tears he choses...her." She muttered to herself bitterly, not finding the strength to throw even one last starbolt into the calm, relaxing sea below.
She remembered that the argument that brought her to this state was as Cyborg would say "One for the history book." And knew for a fact that she should apologize to Raven for the obscene Tamaranean curse word she called her, knowing that her friend would not understand her language but at the time she truly did not care, now it left a hollow feeling in her chest, as if she had her heart torn out of her chest.
"I didn't lead you on, Starfire. You said it yourself, you feel like we're drifting apart and to be honest...we were. I love you...just not in the way I thought I did." She remembered Robin saying to her after she had been forced to calm down with the battle that ensued between her and Raven once she witnessed their friendly hug...and the gentle kissed that followed, from which one of the two, she did not know.
She still was sore and bleeding on her left side from her friend's attack, the wound was shallow but deep and she refused treatment, ignoring Cyborg's questions of what the hell happened and Beast Boy's confused yet hurt expression when she had angrily shoved him aside after he had transformed into a bear to try to contain her.
A foolish mistake on his part, now the right side of his head was bleeding from where she had punched him when he took the form of a different animal, which one she could not remember and though he was injured, she remembered that he was doing everything he could to prevent the fight from escalating further.
By himself, while Cyborg and Robin did all they could from allowing Raven's emotions from consuming her and no doubt killing them all, Beast Boy had took the alien princess head on without slowing down or if it was possible, hurting her.
Now her side burned and she hissed in pain when she shifted her weight to try to be more comfortable. She loathe fighting among her teammates so she had absolutely no idea what it was the possessed her to do something so out of character and hurt a dear friend in the process.
"If you two would have stopped dancing around the issues like children we wouldn't be in this fucking mess." She remembered the icy and furious words Raven spat at the other female member while Cyborg and Robin attempted to calm her down after the women's intense yet brief battle, any longer and one of them, if not one of the men trying to defuse the situation would have been severely injured, or killed.
Now all Starfire felt was remorse and heartache for rushing to conclusions without any sort of understanding of what had transpired between the two bird like teammates and it gnawed at the very core of her soul.
Both Raven and Robin were right, she was out of line and no doubt damage the team beyond repair, she hoped against hope that she was wrong but...for the moment Princess Koriand'r of Tamaran was walking on very thin ice.
She was half surprised Robin did not just outright kick her off the Titans, or she herself did not just quit in a jealous and angered fit for the property damage the two female's had done to the large entertainment room that doubled as a kitchen was massive.
It would take more than one crime stopping job for the city to even make a dent in what their budget could afford, and it was all her fault, for she threw the first punch.
Starfire honestly had no idea what had even sparked the rage inducing jealousy she felt as she watched them kiss, right in the common room in plain view of her and the changeling who made a smart aleck remark and told them to take it to the bedroom as he watched television and got up to get a glass of water.
She thought she had given them her blessing once Robin told her privately that he loved someone else and she in turn though at the time crushed he was not in love with her as she thought gave him a genuine hug and wished him the best on finding the one he held dear.
It was nearly a month since they had 'broken up' as Beast Boy explained and she was even happy, though disappointed when he saw Raven and Robin grow closer every day, it was a very slow and grueling process to get Raven to open up, but after all Robin had done for her, it was enough for her to return his feelings.
Now...now she had unleashed her fury in a way that though typical to her kind, did not merit the consequences, Raven did not deserve the alien's sour and hateful scorn and Beast Boy did not deserve to be stricken as he had.
She sincerely wanted to apologize to all of them, at least in part while another part of her just wanted to throw her communicator into the freezing water below and fly as fast as she could, to another part of the world or home itself, she could not say.
But it was not her nature to be so cruel and unforgiving, she was not Blackfire and she had proven that time and time again, so then why did she have such a disgusting taste in her mouth for her actions?
"Starfire?" A timid, frighten tone called out behind her, making the Titan back away from edge where she sat and hug her knees to her chest, it truth...she just wanted to be left alone.
But the voice that had called out to her, the green skinned young adult she had attacked so relentlessly to get to the half demon now sat beside her, a large white bandage wrapped around the side of his right eye and small spots of crimson staining the cloth was clearly shown as he didn't utter a single sound, waiting patiently for her to speak, looking at the stars above.
Time was immeasurable while the two sat together, nothing being slow, calm breaths being heard in the silence of the night before Starfire spoke in such a whisper that it would have been impossible to hear if not for Beast Boy's sensitive hearing.
"I'm sorry." The words were like a single stepping stone in the conversation towards rebuilding their friendship or if the trust after they had forged after so many years was truly irreparable, destroying it completely.
"I was there when you gave them your blessing...why now after not doing it when you and Robin-"
"He held such longing and affection towards her, said his real name, even shown her his eyes behind the mask...even I was never given such a privilege. I guess because I felt like a mere trophy for him rather than a real mate." She spoke, the words flowing out her mouth before she could stop them, brutal, emotionless but at least they were honest.
Starfire had to give him credit for not freaking out or jumping to rational conclusions after she had spoken her heart, instead he went a route she did not expect.
"I thought about quitting the Titans after Terra...I guess you could say died." It was brisk, shocking and caught Starfire so off guard that she was thankful she was not sitting on the ledge right now.
"What? But...Beast Boy-"
"I lost my parents, I'm an only child, I gave up people who treated me like family because I could not man up and do what I was told. Don't pity me, Star...but I know in a sense what you're going through." He spoke in such a serious tone that she did not know what to say, all she knew was that he had grown up and in her eyes, was now a man.
She did not know what made her reach her right hand out and gently placed it on top of his old, gloved no doubt dirty hand but she was grateful he did not pull away, flinch or even look at her, for she could not deal with the embarrassment of comforting him with such an intimate gesture if he did.
Instead he did something that caused her heart to pump rapidly in her chest and very slowly intertwined their fingers, not once looking at her all the while, no cheesy spouts of love, no hastily rushed kiss or even a moment of acknowledgment.
Instead it was simply a comforting yet no doubt romantic moment for the two heart broken souls, and on this night, at this very moment of time, she could honestly say she was beginning to see her hilarious, corny but determined and confident leader to be as something more than a friend.
But she was not one to test the wrath of X'hal and honestly had no control over her emotions at this time so she felt it best to simply give him something in return for his kindness, a glimmer of hope that perhaps one day, they could maybe be more in the future.
"My name is Koriand'r." She again spoke in the silent but cold wind that nipped at their skin, even though she was born to be resilient to such elements.
"Garfield...Garfield Mark Logan." He replied in the exact tone of voice she had making her give a small giggle despite the horrible night and again without knowing why, she leaned her body towards him as he hesitantly released her hand and wrapped an arm around her waist still without even glancing in her direction, neither one giving a damn about their height difference and enjoying the serene beauty around them.
All without speaking another word.