Soldier
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Rating: Free
Genre: Angst
Warnings: Language unfit
Synopsis: Please, father, meets… Please… - Tag to 1x12
Chapter 1 — I'm a good little soldier, aren't I?
I've always been a good son, wasn't I? I always took good care of Sammy, didn't care? So why don't you call, father? Was it something I said? It was something I left to do? Please, tell me. I need to know. 'Cause it seems that all they're seeing, it seems they're all sorry. I don't want them to know. Hey, don't want them to look at me that way. I don't want.
Please, please, please… Get me out of here, father!
You've always been my hero. My example. My idol. I wanted to be like you, dad. I wanted to be you. Why don't you come? Sam is beside me, but I never felt so alone in my entire life. Not when he went to Stanford. Not when you left me. Even when mom died the pain was so intense!
Please father, meets… Please…
"[…] Here is John Winchester, leave a message. […]"
And you never will, isn't? 'Cause I'm just a fucking soldier, and my life is worth nothing!
But then why are you still… Why… Father, why does it hurt so much?