Disclaimers: I do not own Aishiteruze BABY

I don't know how it started or where it could have possibly ended. But I do remember the time you told me to not think of anything, "Just stay in love with me." I'm trying not to think but it's so hard. Kippei don't you realize I won't be able to do that without you?

It's hard going to school without you.

It hurts not seeing Yuzuyu after school. She wont look at me much at all. I want to play in the sandbox again and be close to you and Yuzuyu.

But you aren't here Kippei, didn't you think about me when you jumped in front of that traffic? How I would feel without you?

When you left … I just wanted to die too … alone like I knew I would. Now, it hurts because I have to be the one to go last.

I miss you so much Kippei. Kippei, why do you have to be so nice?

You're sacrificing your life- the life that's precious to me- for another woman. But she's in trouble, isn't she Kippei? I know I'm talking in present tense. I just can't believe you're out of our lives. Your family, I and Yuzu miss you. We love you.

"I don't want to be with … any other man." Remember that Kippei? I don't think I can let that go.

Yuzu misses you … okasan is crying Kippei … please come back. I know you never will but … I wish you would come back. You were here one minute and gone the next, making love one moment for what seemed like forever and not the next.

Now, you're here … underground … Kippei doesn't it hurt not being with us? Don't go, don't say you're gone.

Can you feel my tears on your tombstone?

I know you can just say it; say you love me. I don't care how you say it.

I dream about you and I'm always listening for those words but I can never hear them. I always wake up, it makes me cry.

I miss you, I can't be strong anymore. I miss your smile too much. I want God or whoever it is up there to bring you back. I need you down here, not up there.

I should have stayed inside your house that night instead of running off. You would have never had to chase me and see that woman in trouble and we would be at the park with Yuzu like we were every day.

Nobody's at the park today. Ever since you left, Yuzu's stopped wanting bentos, and the sea saws are always empty.

I'm leaving now Kippei, I don't want to but I have school now. My mom is gone and so are you but it's okay, as long you're in heaven and smiling I'll make it.

I can't take my own life like I want to because then I won't be where you are. We'll end up being apart and I really want to be close to you. I should be going, but I might miss school today. If you were here I know you wouldn't think it was such a good idea but today is heavy. If I go to school and try to appear 'just fine' without tripping I won't be able to carry it all.

I miss you Kippei. You want me to move on I know it for a fact but I can't. I can't. I love you too much Kippei! I'll be single for the rest of my life if I have to because I just can't do it. I'm missing a piece of me Kippei. When you're gone … I'm gone too.

Yuzu misses you, she doesn't understand that you'll never come back. She waits for you every morning to take and pick her up from school. I watch her but she won't look at me. She doesn't know you're gone for good this time and not on a class field trip … I don't understand either.

Kokoro loves you Kippei for always and forever.

Owari

I love Kippei next to Kokoro and Yuzu but I was feeling kind of angsty and I thought this would be a great angst. I hope you liked it as much as I enjoyed writing it. It was kind of like a poem, writing this ... Merce (me) loves poems so writing this took me a little less than 10mins.