A/N: I know I'm posting a lot today but tomorrow is officially the start of my hiatus because I'm horrifically behind on college work and if I don't have everything in by the 25th June then basically, the last two years of my life, a total waste (N)
Anyway, this is set just after the scene where Addie and Amelia go into the waiting room in the finale, an alternate way for Sam and Addie to get it together =D
Enjoy, love Kelly. X.
"There you are" Sam smiled as he found Addison sat on the floor, her back against the wall, her knees pulled close to her chest in one of the empty hospital hallways.
"Hey" Addison said with a tired smile wiping stray tears from her cheeks, Sam walked over and slid down onto the floor next to her.
"At this point I'd usually ask if you're ok but that would be a really stupid question right now"
"Yeah" she said with a laugh.
"I just held my granddaughter for the first time" Sam smiled.
"How is she?"
"Perfect" Sam sighed.
"Well I guess that's something to be thankful for today huh" Addison said sipping her hot chocolate "Juju?" she said holding the cup out.
"Thanks" he said accepting it and taking a sip, from a distance Naomi went to turn the corner but stopped short and stepped back when she saw them sitting together.
"I broke up with Pete" Addison said quietly just as Sam said "I punched Pete"
"Why did you punch him?"
"Why did you break up with him?"
The questions again overlapping.
"You first" Addison said with a laugh.
"When I was in surgery, I found out the guy on my table was a drunk driver, I freaked out because I thought it was that driver, but then Pete told me it wasn't, I made him look me in the eye and promise me and he did, but then I come out of the surgery and the surgeon taking over said something about circumstances and I just knew, so I asked him again and he said we have to treat everyone the same which I know, I know that but I was just so angry so I punched him, you go"
"He's in love with Violet, it's that simple, and she's ready, she's ready for him and for Lucas and, I'm not, I'm not in love with him, I love him but, I'm not in love with him, I can't pretend anymore, it's not fair on him, or Lucas or Violet, and it's not fair on me either"
They both stayed quiet, only the sounds of their breathing could be heard, Addison took a breath "I can't believe you punched him"
"I know" Sam laughed "You don't know how many times I've wanted to do that over the past couple of months"
"Sam" Addison sighed.
"I'm not going to ask you again, I'm not going to push you, I know we've missed our chance, you don't want to lose Naomi, I get it, that doesn't mean I like it but I get it, but you have to know Addie I am in love with you, and I don't know if I can carry on like this anymore"
"I just wish, I wish I didn't have a conscience" Addison said with a laugh "But I can't Sam, I'm in love with you too but, I can't" she said sadly.
"I know" he said kissing her temple softly "I miss you, I miss, I miss Sam-and-Addison"
"We were never Sam-and-Addison"
"We were, you just couldn't see it" Sam said standing up "Thank you, for saving Maya and the baby, thank you, but I have to say goodbye now"
"I know" Addison said tearfully "I love you Sam"
"I love you too" Sam reached down and kissed her softly "Goodbye Addison" he whispered.
"Goodbye Sam"
Sam turned to walk away but was faced with Naomi standing with her arms folded across her chest and a scowl on her face.
"Na..Naomi" he stuttered.
Addison's head shot up, her heart racing in her chest, she stood trying not to be noticed and went to walk in the opposite direction.
"Addison, don't even think about it" Naomi said firmly, Addison froze on the spot "Come here" Addison took a breath and turned on her heel before slowly walking over to stand next to Sam, leaving at least a metre in between them.
"I get it" Naomi said simply "I know you didn't do this on purpose, I know you didn't do this to hurt me, and I'm not saying I like it, at this moment in time I don't like it but, I could, I could accept this, you two, being together" she stuttered "I didn't know you felt that strongly about each other, I didn't know that, that you're in love, I didn't know that so if you want to be together be together, don't think about my feelings, or anyone else's feelings for that matter, think about what you feel, if we can take anything from today it's that life is just too short, so please, don't, just don't say goodbye" Naomi said walking away.
"You know what I want Addison, and you know what I feel, so really, the balls in your court" Sam said walking in the direction Naomi headed.
By the time all the events of the night were over it was well into the early hours of the next day, after Naomi and Sam had both left Addison in the hallway she made her way home, she instantly showered, changed into her comfiest pajamas and got into bed to catch a few hours sleep. She slept for most of the day, her phone hadn't rang once so she assumed that someone else had taken care of the practice, she hoped so anyway, but if she was honest, for one day she didn't care. It's not like anyone would want to work, not after Dell, she still couldn't believe he was gone. By the time she actually climbed out of her bed it was late in the afternoon, she walked past Amelia's room and noticed that she was fast asleep, it had been a long night for her too. She walked down the stairs wrapped in a blanket and went straight out onto her deck, she lay down on her lounger and watched the waves, and without realizing it she fell straight back to sleep.
Sam spent the day at the hospital with Maya and the baby, he was surprised when Addison didn't stop by to check on her but he knew she was probably still sleeping, they were all exhausted. He made his way home late that evening, heading straight out onto his deck, he briefly looked over to Addison's and saw her wrapped in a blanket on her lounger fast asleep. He moved over to her and sat on the small space next to her, he brought his hand to her cheek and softly stroked her skin.
"Addison" he said softly "Addie, wake up"
Addison's eyes fluttered open, her hand instantly coming to her face to rub her eyes "Sam" she yawned "What time is it?"
"About 7, did you sleep out here all day?"
"No" she said shaking her head "I slept upstairs until about 3 and then came out here, I didn't think I'd fall asleep again" she said with a laugh.
"It was a long night" he said softly.
"Yeah" she sighed "Y'know, I was really hoping that I'd wake up and it would all be a dream"
"Me too" Sam said squeezing her hand "We'll get through it, we always do"
"It's taken us a year to get over the stuff with Violet, and if we're honest with ourselves that's probably a lie, I don't think we'll ever get over it"
"I know" he nodded "Look Addison, about yesterday I…."
"Sam" she said cutting him off "Kiss me"
"Wha….what?" he stuttered.
"I want you to kiss me, I want you to kiss me like it's the last kiss you're ever going to kiss, because if we're going to do this, if we're going to be together, then I need to feel" she whispered tearfully "I need to feel something, because I don't know how to feel anymore, I just feel numb, so just kiss me, help me feel again Sam"
Sam moved his arm so it was placed by the side of her head, much like it had been when they shared their first kiss, he slowly inched his face closer to hers, as their lips were less than an inch apart he whispered "I love you" and then he touched his lips to hers.
He somehow moved so he was kneeling between her legs, one arm hooked underneath her pulling her in so close that he swore he could feel her heartbeat against his chest. Their lips moved completely in sync with one an others, their tongues battling together, her hands moving up and holding onto the back of his neck, her legs moving up to his back. Sam could taste tears on her lips, he could feel her body shaking underneath him, he pulled away and kissed the tears from her cheeks.
"It's ok" he whispered "I'm here, I'm here Addie, I love you, I love you so much, I'm here" he said kissing her over and over.
"I'm, so, sorry" she sobbed "I've been so stupid"
"Sshh, it's ok" he said sitting back on his knees, pulling her up so she sat on his lap with her legs wrapped around him "It's ok" he whispered into her ear "It's ok Addison"
"I love you" she cried into his shoulder "I'm so sorry, I've been, I've been so awful to you"
"Sshh, it's ok" he said softly "We've both said and done things we shouldn't Addie, both of us"
"I didn't want, to, hurt you" she said her body still shaking with sobs "I spent so much time thinking about Naomi and I, I hurt you instead and, I'm so sorry"
"Addison" Sam said pulling her back a little, he brought his hands to her face and held it so she looked directly at him "Stop apologizing, I understand, everything you've done since this all started, I get it, I understand, all that matters now is that I love you and you love me, and we stick together, we get through all of this together, we're starting again ok?"
"Ok" Addison sniffed nodding slightly "Ok"
"Can I have a smile?" he said wiping the tears from her cheeks, Addison couldn't help but let out a laugh "There it is" he smiled "How about I make us some dinner? You haven't eaten since yesterday have you"
"No" she said shaking her head "I had a shower as soon as I got back then went straight to bed"
"Pasta sound good?"
"Sounds great" she smiled kissing him softly "I'm just going to grab my cell, I have no idea what's going on with the practice, I'm guessing someone went in but…."
"I called Joanne and Rachel, they went in this morning and cancelled everyone's patients for the week, I know we'll lose money but…."
"None of us will be able to work, I know, thank you" Addison whispered "I love you" she said resting her forehead against his.
"I love you too" he smiled.
Addison climbed off of Sam, she gave him a quick kiss before heading quickly back into her house, she ran up the stairs and into her room to grab her cell, almost crashing into Amelia as she walked out of the bathroom.
"Woah, hello to you too" Amelia said with a laugh "Oh, what's that face? You've been crying but, is that a smile I see?"
"Yeah" Addison said biting her lip a little.
"Your not settling anymore are you" Amelia stated.
"No" Addison said quietly.
"Well then, go get yours" Amelia said standing to the side.
"Don't wait up" Addison shouted over her shoulder.
"I won't" Amelia laughed.
Addison made her way quickly over to Sam's house, as she stepped inside she saw Sam in the kitchen putting the pasta on the stove.
"Hey" she smiled.
"Hey" he said looking up "Any messages?"
"Nope, nobody loves Addison"
"Sam loves Addison" Sam said with a grin.
"I heard a rumor that Addison loves Sam too" Addison smiled walking over to him, Sam instantly grabbed her waist and pulled her into a kiss, Addison let out a light moan, Sam wrapped his arms around her and lifted her to sit her on the counter top.
"Now" he said breathlessly as they pulled away "Drink this" he said handing her a glass of wine.
"Are you trying to get me drunk?" she said with a raised eyebrow.
"No" he laughed "But you need to relax, we're going to eat dinner, have some wine, watch a movie and then sleep ok?"
"You're not even going to feel me up a little?"
"Well, maybe a little" he smirked.
~x~
3 days later.
"Hey, you ready?" Sam asked leaning up against Addison's bedroom door.
"No" she said looking over at him "Are you?"
"No" he sighed, he walked in and kissed her softly on the lips "We're getting through this, together, like we promised ok?"
"Ok" she nodded "We can do this"
"We can" he smiled "You look beautiful"
"Thanks" she smiled "I went against mascara, I'm pretty sure even waterproof isn't going to survive this"
"You'll be fine babe, we'll all be fine"
"I hope so" Addison whispered "Let's go before Amelia makes an inappropriate comment"
"Addie, Amelia always makes inappropriate comments" Sam smirked.
"True" Addison laughed "Ok, I'm ready, we're ready"
"We're ready" Sam nodded.
~x~
"Well, that's new" Cooper muttered as Addison and Sam walked towards them hand in hand, Amelia trailing behind.
"She didn't waste any time" Charlotte quipped.
"They've been in love since before she got with Pete" said Violet "I think she finally realized that life is too short to settle for second best"
"Thanks" Pete said dryly.
"Shut up" Violet said smacking him "You know what I meant"
"And you didn't think to tell me this?" asked Cooper.
"Well when I found out me and you weren't exactly speaking Coop"
"Ok, shutting up now" Cooper said clamping his lips together.
"Hey" Addison said with a small smile as they reached the group.
"Hey" everyone replied, the group fell into an awkward silence.
"Oh for the love of…." Amelia started "Yes Sam and Addison are a couple now, yes they're in love, yes they have been in love for months but because Addison is a complete moron she kept turning him down and started a friends with benefits deal with Pete, which stupidly turned into something more because they were both too idiotic to realize that they were settling for each other because they wouldn't fight for the people they really loved so, can we please just move on?"
"Amelia Shepard ladies and gentlemen" Sam said patting her shoulder.
"What?" she shrugged.
~x~
"6 months ago we were out here celebrating Maya's wedding and now, now we're here because Dell isn't, how insane is that" Violet said sitting down next to Addison at the edge of Sam's deck "Hello! Addison!" Violet said waving a hand in front of Addison's face.
"Huh? What?" Addison said snapping her head to the side "Sorry" she sighed "I was, I don't know where I was, what were you saying?"
"Just that it's insane, that 6 months ago we were out here celebrating Maya's wedding and now we're here because Dell isn't"
"Yeah, yeah that is pretty, insane" Addison said wiping a hand across her face "Do we know what's happening with Betsey yet?"
"Well her Aunts been staying with her but, I don't know if that's permanent"
"Right" Addison nodded.
"Look Addison, we're ok right? Me and you"
"Of course we are" Addison said squeezing her hand "Isn't it me who should be asking that? I stole the man you loved and your kid, and then told a court room that you're not a fit mother, great friend I am"
"Ok, number one, you didn't steal them, you were there when I couldn't be, I should be thanking you for that, number two, you were right, I'm not, I wasn't fit to be his mother, I put everyone through hell for a year and for some crazy reason I expected more people to be on my side, I shouldn't have even forced everyone to choose sides"
"We've all made mistakes Violet, every single one of us"
"Yeah, we're a pretty messed up bunch huh?"
"Yeah" Addison laughed "Look I'm sorry, about the abortions thing, I didn't tell him that so he could use it against you, I don't even know why I told him, I don't know why, a lot of things"
"I don't know why a lot of things either" Violet sighed "Shall we start again?"
"Definitely" Addison smiled "Friends?"
"Friends" Violet nodded "You can still see him y'know, whenever you want"
"Pete?" Addison asked with confusion.
"Lucas!" Violet laughed "You can still see Lucas, I think he kind of misses you, you're like, fun Aunty Addison, you'll be the one he comes to when he wants to run away from home"
"My door will always be open" Addison smiled softly.
"So you and Sam finally went for it huh?"
"Yeah" Addison sighed "We got a kind of blessing from Naomi, she's said she doesn't like it but she's going to try and accept it"
"She'll come around, she always does"
"I hope so"
"I'm gonna go get a drink, do you want anything?"
"No, I'm good" Addison nodded.
"Ok well, I'll speak to you later then?"
"Speak to you later" Addison smiled.
"Hey" Sam said dropping down on the other side of her making her jump a little "Sorry" he said sheepishly "Everything ok?"
"As ok as it can be" Addison nodded "Hug me" she said dropping her head onto his shoulder, Sam wrapped his arm behind her back and held her hands in his, his head falling on top of hers "I love you" he whispered.
"I love you too" she whispered back.
~x~
1 month later.
"You haven't slept with him yet?" Amelia exclaimed loudly in Addison's office.
"Amelia!" Addison hissed "Be quiet!"
"I'm sorry but, seriously? What the hell are you doing over there every night?"
"We talk and kiss and there's a little under the shirt action but, then we just go to sleep"
"Oh my god" Amelia groaned "Seriously? Addison, you've waited how long for this? 6 months at the least! Just go there already"
"I'm scared" Addison said biting her lip a little.
"What of exactly?"
"What if it's bad? I mean, I love him, so much, and I know sex isn't the be all and end all but, it kind of is"
"Addison, are you honestly telling me you think Sam Bennett is bad in bed? Hell, if he was 10 years younger and not in love with you I so would"
"Amelia!" Addison said with a laugh.
"I'm locking you out of the house tonight, and I'm not letting you back in until you have a postcoital smile across your face"
"You can't lock me out of my own house!"
"Shame, because I'm doing it anyway"
~x~
"Is something wrong?" Sam asked softly as he and Addison lay together on his sofa, his hands running through her hair.
"No, nothings wrong" she said quietly.
"Liar" he smirked.
"It's just, do you, do you not find my attractive or something?"
"What?" Sam spluttered "Of course I find you attractive! God Addison you're the most beautiful woman I think I've ever seen" he said kissing her softly "You're still the hot girl" he said with a grin.
"Then why haven't you tried to get me into bed!" she said smacking his shoulder.
"Oh Addison" he laughed stroking her cheek "I just didn't want to push you"
"Well, for the record, I'm ready ok?"
"Ok" he said kissing her again.
"But not like, now, because now it's planned and I don't want it to be planned I just want it to happen and…."
"Addison, it's fine" he said with a laugh "I love you"
"Even though I'm a little crazy and neurotic?"
"Yes" he nodded "I love all of you"
"I love all of you too" she whispered.
"Sam" Addison mumbled as she woke the next morning "What are you doing?"
He slowly slipped her t-shirt off her, placing a soft kiss on her lips and moving them down her neck, she looked at him with a raised eyebrow, he merely grinned at her and kept moving his kisses along her body.
~x~
"Ok" Addison breathed "We're doing that again"
"Absolutely" Sam grinned kissing her softly "That was, amazing"
"Best wake up call ever" Addison smiled, she pushed him onto his back and straddled his body leaning down to kiss his lips "Do I look postcoital enough to get back into my house?"
"What?" he laughed.
"Amelia won't let me back in until I look postcoital"
"Oh really?" he smirked "Y'know, I don't think you've quite got the hair right, maybe we should do it again, just to make sure"
"We'll be late for work" she whispered against his lips.
"I'm sure they'll cope" he said flipping her onto her back.
~x~
"Samuel, stop it" Addison said firmly as Sam kissed the back of her neck in the elevator.
"No" he said kissing her again.
"Sam, we're already late, please don't make it obvious that it's because we've been having sex all morning"
"Addie, I think they'll think that themselves" Sam laughed.
"I really don't like you" Addison mumbled as they stepped out of the elevator, she went to walk away but he grabbed her wrist and pulled her into a kiss "I love you too" he whispered, Addison kissed him quickly and made her way quickly to her office, Violet following in after.
"Busy morning?" she smirked.
"I…." Addison started "Shut up"
"You've got that pain from too much sex look all over your face and you're 3 hours late"
"Oh god I'm so sorry" Addison sighed "Is everything ok?"
"We handled it" Violet laughed "So, details, I haven't had sex in, a long time, me and Pete are so not there yet"
"Well this morning was, this morning was the first time, and it was, the first time was really loving and everything, it was perfect and then every time after that? I didn't know I could bend that way"
"Wow" Violet muttered.
"It's like, you know when you try something new and you think why the hell haven't I done this before? That's what Sam is like, he's my something new" Addison said with a smile.
"God look at you" Violet laughed "Your all, swirly"
"Is that a technical term?" Addison smirked.
"Absolutely" Violet laughed.
~x~
1 month later.
"Sam, I know" Addison said into her phone as she slipped into the elevator "It's fine Sam…." the elevator stopped on the fourth floor, Naomi stepped in and nodded slightly at Addison "Sam, I think I'll remember to feed my own cat….ok, that was one time!….Sam, will you please relax, your in San Francisco for 4 days not 4 years….yes you packed your inhalers….because I packed them! When did you get so panicky?….Sam just call me when you land ok?….I know, I love you too….bye honey….bye!" she laughed hanging up the phone, she started mumbling under her breath as she put her phone in her bag pulling out a bottle of water and taking a sip.
"Sam's in San Francisco?" Naomi asked quietly.
"Yeah, there's a cardiothoracic surgery conference" Addison nodded.
"Look Addison can we, can we talk, maybe tonight or something"
"Sure" Addison answered quickly "Um, come over to mine tonight, say about 7-ish? Wine and pizza?"
"And cake?"
"And cake" Addison said with a laugh "You'll come then?"
"I'll see you there" Naomi nodded.
~x~
"Hey" Addison smiled letting Naomi into her house "Come on through" they walked through to the living room, Naomi leaving her coat and shoes in the hall "Wine" Addison said holding out a glass as she sat on the sofa, tucking her feet under her own body, Naomi took the wine and sat next to her.
"So…." Addison started taking a sip of her wine "What did you want to talk about?"
"I'm ready" Naomi said quietly.
"Your ready?" Addison said slowly.
"I, since, since you and Sam, got together I've, I've done a lot of thinking, and watching and, well Violet and Maya haven't really stopped talking to me about it all and, you really love him don't you"
"More than anyone I've ever loved before" Addison said hugging her legs.
"And you think this is it, your in this for the long run"
"Yes" Addison replied simply.
"He makes you happy?"
"Very" Addison smiled.
"You just tell me the minute he doesn't and I'll kill him for you ok?"
Addison just looked at her in awe.
"Nobody hurts my best friend" Naomi said reaching across and squeezing her hand.
"Thank you" Addison whispered, tears coming to her eyes.
"Addie don't" she sighed "Because if you go I'll go and then we'll just be a pair of pathetic middle aged drunks who eat there feelings"
"I've missed you" Addison said with a laugh "Cake or pizza?"
"Cake while we wait for the pizza" Naomi said with a grin.
"I've really missed you Nae" Addison sighed.
"I've missed you too"
~x~
"Addison!" Sam shouted as he let himself into Addison's house 4 days later, he instantly heard the sound of laughing, he dropped his bag to the floor and followed the sound out onto the deck where he found Addison, Naomi, Violet, Charlotte and Amelia all sat around the table drinking cocktails and laughing with each other "What's all this?" he said with a smirk.
"We're drinking Bennett what does it look like?" Charlotte said with a slight slur.
"I can see that" he smirked, he walked over to Addison and kissed her softly "Hey babe"
"Hey" she giggled grabbing his shirt and pulling him into a long passionate kiss "I missed you"
"I missed you too" he laughed "How much have you had to drink?"
"I lost count at 5" Violet laughed "You have no liquor left"
"You used my liquor?" he said with a raised eyebrow.
"We ran out!" Addison exclaimed, she stood up and fell against him her arms wrapping around his neck "We're all friends now Sam, isn't it great!"
"Yeah" he laughed.
"Do you still love me?"
"Of course" he smiled kissing her "But you should really slow down on the cocktails Addie"
"Ok" she said tapping his face "Now you should leave"
"I don't even get to stay for a drink"
"Ladies only Sam" said Naomi.
"Get out of here" said Amelia "You can see her in the morning"
"I guess that's me told, I'm going to bed, night babe" he said kissing her quickly.
"Night" she giggled moving back to her chair "Hey! Your going into my house!"
"Someone's going to have to be the one to hold you hair back in the morning, and I'm pretty sure Amelia won't be able to do it"
"Wouldn't do it even if I was sober" Amelia slurred.
"Exactly" Sam smirked "So I'll see you later babe, have fun ladies, I'm serious, slow down on the cocktails, night"
"Night Sam" they all smiled.
~x~
"I am never drinking again" Addison groaned as she slumped onto her bathroom floor after throwing up for the 3rd time.
"I told you to slow down" Sam said with a smirk.
"If your going to sit there and be a smart ass I'll kick you out" she mumbled.
"So, you and Nae are ok then?" Sam asked quickly changing the subject.
"Yeah" Addison nodded "The first day of your trip she asked if we could talk so she came over and, we're good" she smiled "She said if you hurt me she'll kill you"
"Oh, good?"
"It is good" Addison laughed "It's a girl thing"
"Right" he smirked "I love you"
"Even when I'm puking up my guts?"
"I love all of you"
~x~
10 months later.
"To us" Sam said raising his glass of wine.
"To us" Addison smiled tapping her glass to his, Sam instantly took a sip, Addison put her glass straight down on the table.
"Not drinking tonight?" he asked with a raised eyebrow.
"I think I need to back off from the alcohol for a while" she said quietly.
"Okay" he said slowly "Is everything ok?"
"A while being just under 9 months"
"You've lost me" Sam said with a slight laugh.
Addison reached into her pocket and pulled out a folded piece of paper "I had Naomi run a blood test on me today, 2 actually because I didn't believe the first one, these are the results" she said handing him the paper, he took it with curious eyes and opened it out.
"Oh my god" he whispered.
"I know" Addison said with a small smile.
"Oh my god!" he exclaimed a little louder "Addison I, I thought you, how is this even possible?"
"I don't know" Addison said biting her lip "There were two eggs left but, I didn't think, it's, it's been years since I took those tests and, I don't know how but, it's real Sam"
Sam shot up from his chair and pulled Addison up into his arms, he picked her up and swung her around.
"Sam!" she squealed "Put me down!"
"I love you" he said kissing her lips, he peppered kisses over her face "I love you, I love you, I love you"
"Sam" she giggled "Stop it"
"Your sure?" Sam asked as he placed Addison on her feet.
"Yeah" Addison laughed "I'm really sure, we're going to have to be extra careful, it's a miracle I'm pregnant at all, and it's even more of a miracle considering my age and everything so, extra careful"
"Does that mean no sex?"
"Ha, no" Addison laughed "When I get to my second trimester I'm going to want sex left right and centre"
"Are you now?" Sam smirked "Wanna get some practice in?"
"What about dinner?"
"Dinner can wait" Sam said backing them into the house "We have some celebrating to do Addie"
"We really do" she smiled softly "I feel like, this is a dream or something"
"It's not a dream" he whispered kissing her "This is real Addie"
"This is real" she smiled.
~x~ ~x~ ~x~