A/N: Hello everyone. I know that the West Coast hasn't seen the finale yet, but I've gotta go to bed soon, so here's the first chapter. Obviously this will contain SPOILERS, so be warned West Coasters. I watched the episode when it was leaked, but don't worry I watched it tonight too.
I debated with myself on how to approach the ending of the finale. At first I contemplated making the whole thing a dream Amy had while passed out drunk, but I realized that would just be avoiding the problem. I will attempt to salvage what they gave us, so bear with me. There will be drama and to make things better I might have to make them slightly worse first, but we'll get there.
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Chapter 1: Uncrossing the Line
Amy didn't know what made her do it. She could blame it on the copious amount of champagne that she drank, but that would be avoiding the truth. She was hurt and heartbroken, and yes a little drunk, but that didn't excuse what was happening. She was in bed, in her underwear, making out with Liam Booker and it disgusted her. His lips tasted like champagne and a hint of Karma. Amy didn't know if the latter was only in her mind, but either way it made Amy hate herself, because she knew why it was there. She was lost in thought and almost didn't notice that Liam was trying to unhook her bra, but the feel of his hands fumbling around in a drunken stupor was enough to bring her back to Earth.
"Liam stop!" Amy said.
"What's wrong?" he asked.
"Everything is wrong. This is wrong! I'm not even attracted to you," Amy said.
"You're right, oh god what the fuck are we doing?" Liam said as he got off of the bed.
"We're drunk and hurt and we got caught up in the moment; that's all," Amy said.
"Amy I am so sorry," Liam replied.
Amy broke into tears and Liam was unsure what to do. The two of them were still half naked and he didn't want to embrace her in his current state. He fumbled around the room until he found his shirt and put it on before handing Amy her own clothes. Amy then dressed quickly and then started pacing around the room.
"What are we going to do?" she asked.
"What do you mean?" Liam answered.
"When Karma finds out she will kill us both," Amy said.
"We're not going to tell her. We just forget this ever happened," Liam replied.
"I can't keep anymore secrets from her!" Amy cried.
"I know, Shane told me everything. I'm so sorry. If I had known the truth I never would have gotten involved with Karma in the first place," Liam said.
"Shane told you!? What happened to gay scout's honor?" Amy cried.
"He never keeps that. Half the time he's crossing his fingers behind his back and thinks I don't notice," Liam said.
"Does Karma know that you know?" Amy asked.
"Yeah, and frankly I'm done with her. She lied to me and used you just to get to me. Anyone that would do that to their best friend isn't the girl for me," Liam said.
Amy didn't answer, because she was afraid she would sound too happy at the news that Liam was done with Karma. She almost smiled, but then she remembered that none of it would matter if Karma found out what they did. Amy turned to face Liam, but at that moment she felt something rumbling in her gut. A mixture of too much champagne and too much guilt was turning her stomach into Mt. Vesuvius and she couldn't find a trash can.
"Are you okay?" Liam asked.
Amy was afraid to open her mouth, so she shook her head and then bolted straight for the bathroom door. When she pushed the door open it slammed straight into something on the other side and that something let out a cry of pain.
"Ow! Watch it!" Lauren cried.
"Lauren!?" Amy said in shock and then puked on the floor at Lauren's feet.
"Oh my god! Not on these shoes!" Lauren said and backed away quickly.
"Oh shit," Liam said when he saw Lauren standing there.
"Lauren please, you can't tell anyone about this," Amy pleaded.
"To think I actually believed you when you told Karma you were in love with her," Lauren said.
"I meant it!" Amy cried.
"Then why are you here with Liam?" Lauren asked.
Amy couldn't answer, because anything she said would sound like empty excuses. She just knelt there on the floor and stared at the pool of vomit.
"Why do you care?" Liam asked.
"As strange as this may sound I actually felt pity for Amy, but now I see she's just as big of a bitch as I am," Lauren replied.
"She's not a bitch," Liam said.
"No Liam, she's right," Amy said.
"Look, I won't tell Karma about your little romp, but this is the last time I will help you. Got it?" Lauren said.
"Got it," Amy said.
Lauren left the bathroom with a look of disgust at the smell. Amy then grabbed some toilet paper and started cleaning up the mess, but Liam came over and took it out of her hands.
"Here, let me do that," Liam said.
"No, I need to do it," Amy replied.
Amy started cleaning the mess in silence while tears ran down her face. Liam was unsure what to do, so he stood awkwardly by and watched.
"Do you think she meant it?" Liam asked after a few minutes.
"Meant what?" Amy asked.
"That she wouldn't tell Karma about us," Liam replied.
"No, she's just keeping it ready for the right time to use it against me," Amy said.
"You mean against us?" Liam asked.
"I don't think she cares about hurting you," Amy replied.
"Either way Karma will find out eventually, won't she?" Liam asked.
"Probably, which means I will have to tell her before that happens," Amy said and then broke into tears again.
Liam squatted down and put an arm around Amy to console her, but Amy flinched.
"Sorry, I should just go now," Liam said and then turned to leave.
He made it as far as the bedroom door when he turned around and walked back to the bathroom.
"I never meant to hurt you. I see now that you and Karma belong together. I won't stand in your way anymore," Liam said and then left.
Amy wished that things were that simple, but she knew that her actions pretty much guaranteed that she would never be with Karma. Even if Karma did feel the same way that Amy felt it wouldn't matter once she found out what happened. Amy couldn't believe that a couple of hours before she had professed her love for her best friend only to be shot down in flames. She wasn't even angry that Karma had slept with Liam anymore, because she lost that right the second she kissed him.
After cleaning the bathroom she threw herself onto her bed and buried her face in her pillow. Between her sobs and the lack of air she thought she might suffocate and part of her felt that she deserved it, but finally she turned her head and took in a deep breath. She started to replay the entire scene of her confession to Karma in her mind. She could picture every reaction and every expression on Karma's face, right down to the tears in Karma's eyes when she admitted to sleeping with Liam, but she couldn't figure out what it all meant. Karma had said that she didn't feel the same way, but Amy knew there was a spark there. Would it survive the awful truth of what Amy did?
Amy didn't remember falling asleep, but she didn't wake up until she heard a knocking on her door.
"Go away," Amy mumbled.
"Amy?" Karma asked from the other side of the door.
Amy's eyes flew open and for a second she was worried that Karma knew the truth. She worried that Karma was standing on the other side of the door with a gun or a knife, but then she realized that she was being ridiculous. She noticed for the first time that it was morning and she was still wearing the dress that she had hastily thrown on after making out with Liam. She contemplated changing, but knew she didn't have the time, so she sat up and smoothed out her dress.
"Come in," Amy said.
The door opened and Karma walked into the room. She was dressed in her normal clothes, unlike Amy, but her face showed the signs of a girl who had stayed up all night crying. Karma walked over to her and stood silently, unable to make eye contact. It was a few moments before either of them spoke.
"I never meant to hurt you," Karma said quietly.
Amy couldn't help but think back to Liam saying the same thing the night before and that only brought up feelings of guilt.
"It's okay, I overreacted," Amy replied.
"No it's not okay. I lied to you and I can't forgive myself for that," Karma cried.
"I forgive you Karma," Amy said and reached out to take Karma's hand in hers.
Karma stood there and let Amy lightly caress her hand with her thumb. She still didn't make eye contact with Amy, but Amy could tell that she was calming down for the moment.
"Amy, about last night," Karma said.
Amy tensed up for just a moment when Karma said this, because she once again worried that Karma knew what happened.
"I understand that you are in love with me and I accept that, but you have to understand that I don't feel that way about you," Karma continued.
"I know," Amy replied.
"This is all my fault. I never should have made you pretend to be my girlfriend," Karma said.
"It's okay," Amy replied.
"No it's not, I used you to get to Liam and that makes me a horrible person," Karma said and then started crying.
Amy stood up and pulled Karma into a hug. She was about to place a kiss on her cheek, but then she realized that it might not be a good time.
"You're not a horrible person," Amy whispered.
"I've ruined everything. Liam knows about us faking it. Shane told him the truth," Karma replied.
"I know," Amy said and then mentally kicked herself for saying it.
"What do you mean you know?" Karma asked.
"Um, Shane told me," Amy replied.
"How did Shane even know about us faking it to begin with?" Karma asked.
"Because I told him," Amy replied.
Karma took a step back and looked at Amy in shock. Amy hated the look, because it only made her feel even more guilty than before.
"I needed someone to confide in about my feelings for you, so I told him. I'm sorry," Amy said.
"Did you tell him to tell Liam the truth to break us up?" Karma asked.
"What? No, of course not!" Amy replied.
"Then why would Shane do that?" Karma asked.
"I don't know, but maybe it's for the best," Amy said and once again mentally kicked herself for saying what popped into her mind.
"So you're glad that Liam now hates me?" Karma asked.
"I didn't say that!" Amy cried.
"You didn't have to Amy. I know you don't want me and Liam together. If you can't have me then no one can. Is that it?" Karma said.
"No, of course not! Karma please listen to me. Hurting you is the last thing I wanted to do," Amy replied.
"I thought I could deal with your feelings for me, but if you're going to act this way then maybe we need some time apart," Karma said and then walked towards the door.
"Karma wait, please don't go," Amy said, but it was too late.