Welcome back! Here is the first chapter of the sequel! *bows at the screaming fans* yes yes, thank you, thank you. I'll be here all year cause I have no life. I have another note at the end of this chapter for you to read =) .

The Title goes with the song "Fix You by Coldplay" I definitely suggest listening to the song at some point while reading

Where we left off

"Everything all right in there," Deidara calls through from the other side of the door, his voice anxious.

"Yeah," I reply back, not opening the door, "Everything is fine."

"Sakura, are you sure your okay," Deidara persists.

"Yeah, I'm fine Deidara," I try to say back calmly but I hear my voice come out in a more frantic tone.

"Sakura, please come out from there, I'm worried about you."

"I'm fine Deidara!" I should back getting annoyed, my voice once again is filled with the fear that is jumping through my veins.

"Sakura, Please," Deidara pleads. I turn and open the door, almost hitting a scared Deidara with it.

"Deidara… I'm…"

"What, yeah, you can tell me."

I stare into his worried eyes wondering if I can really tell him. He shouldn't be the one who I tell first. The fear in my veins begins to use my insides as a trampoline. I wonder how he is going to react. What will he think of me? Will he be angry? Will he kick me out? But wasn't I just saying this morning I was going to leave? Where would I go? Maybe if Itachi knew he would be like he used to?

"Deidara… I'm… I…"

The words get caught in my throat by fear's strong hands strangling my vocal cords. Deidara waits silently, looking at me as if I'm about to tell him I have cancer. A small part of me wishes I did have cancer, the other part tells me how stupid it is to wish for cancer. I force myself to speak the shaky words.

"I'm pregnant Deidara."

DEIDARA'S POV

I closed my eyes and opened them, as if I would wake up from sleeping. Sakura was still standing in front of me with fear etched into her face though.

"You're… what?"

"I'm pregnant Deidara…" She repeated. I was hit with a wave of shock, then a wave of anger, then a wave of fear, then a wave of affection, and finally a wave of determination. All these emotions swam together inside me.

"How many months," I asked her.

"At least two… maybe three…" Sakura replied quietly. Shock and Anger both did a canon ball into the pool of my emotions. I tried to remain calm for Sakura.

"It's… It's Itachi's child…yeah?"

Sakura nodded silently as she looked down at her stomach. She brought one hand up and began to rub her stomach. "I doubt the baby is still alive though…"

"What?! Why!?"

"Because…" Sakura began, looking up at me with eyes on the verge of tears, "Itachi has beaten me in that time…" Then the tears came and I caught Sakura in my arms. She began to sob on my shoulder as I held her close to me. "I… I… couldn't live… with myself… If… If… I lost… another… child Deidara… I… I can't… go through… that again Deidara… Itachi always… always accused me of… of… of murdering… our baby… boy… but… if he… if he killed… this baby from… beating me… I wouldn't… be able… to live… with myself… It would… be my fault… because I… I stayed with… him!..."

I rubbed her back softly as she cried in my arms. "Sshhh… It's going to be alright. I'm sure the baby is okay. I'll drive you to the doctors tomorrow if you like."

"You… You would do that for me?"

I looked into Sakura's red puffy eyes and nodded, "Yeah, un. I would. You're not going to be alone in this."

Sakura smiled and began crying once more into my chest, holding my shirt in her fists and mumbling about something concerning Itachi. Anger surged through me by her thinking about him. She shouldn't be worried about him at all. The man clearly would not be a good father and he shouldn't even be told that Sakura is pregnant. I wished that Sakura would stop thinking about him and start thinking more about herself. After a couple of minutes Sakura calmed down, she let me go and back away as she wiped her eyes. A strong pink blush covered Sakura's cheeks.

"I… I'm sorry… Thank you Deidara."

"It's alright, yeah," I told her although I was angry that she had been focusing on Itachi, "You just need time to heal and relax. I'm going to help you through this, you're not alone." Sakura looked as though she was about to cry again then closed her eyes and took a deep breath. When she opened her eyes all I could see was sadness and gratitude.

"Thank you Deidara. So much."

"I'll continue to save up money and you can live here for as long as you like, hm. I'll drive you to your appointments and get you whatever you need."

Sakura nodded.

"Alright, hm. Now let's try to have a relaxing rest of the day. What's your favorite movie?"

Sakura's POV

I stood in the shower massaging my scalp while thinking about my past week since I find out I was pregnant. After I told Deidara that I was pregnant –and cried more times than I care to admit- I had a nice day with him. We went to the library and he checked out a few of my favorite movies and spent the day watching them on the couch. The next day Sunday, we did much of the same things although we watched comedies. He made me popcorn and fruit salad and treated me like a goddess…

Like a goddess…

I washed the conditioner out of my hair and thought about my past with Deidara. He had been my friend for so long then in past couple months he had become something more than a friend… He made me feel happy and safe and I had fun with him… I would see him in secret when Itachi was not home. It started with simply going to the park for walks or out for a small lunch, then it became more…

I thought back to the last official date I went on with him. He took me to a restaurant that was so glorious I knew he couldn't have afforded it. We had kissed that day like normal, but the kisses were so much more. I knew I wanted to be with him but I wouldn't allow myself to do so.

I turned off the water and grabbed my towel off the toilet seat. I began to dry myself off. I was so stupid to not leave with him all the times he wanted me to. I should have said yes and gone with him and never looked back. But I didn't, and now I had to live with that.

I began to dress myself in a pair of jeans and a light blue shirt. It had been so long since I'd actually worn jeans that the texture felt foreign against my fuzzed legs. I wondered if Deidara would mind taking me to the store some time soon so I could buy a shaver and shaving cream. I stepped out to see Deidara cutting up fruit for breakfast. I walked over to his bed and put my clothes and the towel I was borrowing into my plastic bag of dirty laundry. I walked over to the table like routine and sat down and waiting for Deidara to finish.

I knew I loved him. I loved him longer than I wanted to admit to myself. And I knew he loved me too. But was I ready for him? I just left my abusive husband… Just discovered I was pregnant with his child… Have no job… No money… No cell phone anymore… I was a mess and would getting involved with Deidara really be the right choice? I wanted to… but so much held me back…

"I thought something light without much sugar would be good for today because I'm certain you will be having blood testing later, hm." Deidara placed a small bowl of fruit in front of me and a fork. I began to eat silently as he ate across from me.

That was right… Deidara was taking me to the doctors today. Anxiety swam through me by the idea of being pregnant once again. What if I lost the baby? What if something went wrong? What if I got pregnant too soon after my miscarriage? What if the baby didn't get enough of what it needs to grow healthy?

"Hey."

A shock went through my body, I looked down at the hand resting on my own. The hand felt soft but was callused from working hard job, constantly getting blisters. I knew that Deidara used to work in a repair shop and also did construction work for a time, but I never thought about why he did such jobs. It was because he needed the money.

"You okay, hm?"

I looked into his worried eyes, filled with affection and concern.

"Y-yeah. I'm…"

I couldn't lie to him. Not anymore.

"No…" I admitted.

"What's wrong," Deidara asked me in such a soft voice. I continued to stare into his eyes, I knew that if I kept seeing that pain and affection and concern, I wouldn't be able to lie to him anymore. How could you lie to someone who did so much for you and held such strong feelings for you?

"I'm unsure about things…"

"Like what, un."

I closed my eyes and tried to force my chaotic mind to form a single file line of thoughts and worries. Everything continued to swarm around and wouldn't listen to me. I took a deep breath and tried my hardest to grab one at a time. I opened my eyes and returned my gaze to the man who had done so much for me for so long.

"What if I lose the baby… what if I have another miscarriage? What if something goes wrong and the baby is born too soon? What if the baby dies inside me? What if I can't keep it? What if Itachi finds out and wants custody? What if Itachi finds me and kills the baby? What if the baby is already dead? What if I kill the baby?" Tears began to sting the corners of my eyes as all my worries about being pregnant flew out of my mouth in the same chaotic mess they were flying through my heart.

"Sakura, first of all Itachi is not going to kill the baby. I promise that I will not let Itachi near you ever again, hm. Second of all, you just found out a week ago that you are pregnant. You need to take steps. Breathe. We're going to the doctors today, they will spend hours doing tests and making sure that everything is okay. You're going to get through this. Take some deep breaths, yeah."

I nodded and closed my eyes and inhaled through my nose. I breathed in until my lungs felt as though they would burst from all the air inside. Then I opened my mouth and let the air out slowly, like a deflating balloon. I did it again, and then one more time. My body began to breathe with me and I felt myself calming down. Thoughts and emotions still raced each other inside of me, but not as badly as before. I looked at Deidara.

"Okay…"

"Okay… We'll leave in a couple of minutes, yeah. Once you're ready."

Deidara had been right about spending hours at the doctors as they did different tests. They took two vials of my blood. The nurse had me do a pee test then took a sample also. They took my pulse and checked my eyes and throat although I didn't understand why. They asked me all sorts of questions too. I was asked about any family history of genetic illnesses and chronic diseases. I was asked about any family members with developmental diseases. I was asked if I had any addictions to alcohol or drugs. I was asked if I had traveled out of the country recently. I was asked if I had done any physical labor in the past few months. I was asked if I had been in any traumatic or abusive situations in the past few months, to which I said no. Finally, the ultra sound came.

Deidara offered to come into the room with me but I hesitantly told him that I would be okay and to wait in the hall. Although I was grateful for his presence, I just needed some space from him. Deidara wasn't the baby's father, and it felt almost wrong to have him caring so much for me and taking me to this appointment. If Deidara came into the room for the ultra sound… It just was too much.

I laid down on the bed while the nurse asked me to pull up my shirt. I had not paid any attention to my weight in the past few months but I now noticed that I was thin. It didn't even appear that I was pregnant although it should have. My stomach seemed almost flat except for a slight bump that could have been thought of any a small belly. The nurse was quiet as she rubbed a cold clear jell on my bear skin, I shivered from the contact. Then she used the device and began to rub it on my stomach. We both looked to the screen.

"And there… is your baby."

I looked at the screen and was hit again with the fact I was pregnant. Up until then it had all felt a bit surreal, now looking at the screen where there was a small bundle surrounded in grey and black that was clearly a fetus made it all real.

"C-…Can you tell… the gender?" I asked, my voice cracking.

"Not yet," she said as she moved the little device around on my stomach to view different angels, "We will though in a few weeks. You're only about ten weeks pregnant."

"Ten weeks?"

"Yes. I'm surprised your stomach hasn't grown any more, most come in with more of a bump than you have."

I rested my head back and stared up at the white ceiling.

"Do you want pictures Ms.?"

"No, thank you."

I continued to stare at the ceiling as she removed the little device and whipped my stomach clean of the gel. I was pregnant. I really was pregnant. I had a little life growing inside me. A little baby. I was responsible for a life once more. I was a mother.

I stood up and walked out of the room slowly when given permission. I walked into the hall and past Deidara, everything seemed to be a strange lucid dream that I had just woken up from and wasn't able to register what was real or not yet.

"Sakura? Sakura! How'd it go?"

Deidara jogged to my side, I ignored his questions and continued to walk down the hall. He was silent after a minute and just walked with me. I kept my face forward, still feeling in a strange state of realization and shock.

"I've got to use the bathroom," I told him when we came across the hospital bathrooms.

"Oh-okay."

I walked in and leaned my hands on the sink counter and stared at myself in the large mirror. My mind was running all over the place yet at the same time it was blank. I washed my face and looked at my body. I had never noticed how thin I had truly become. Surely that couldn't be healthy for the baby. I stared at the person in the mirror, it wasn't me. That think person looking as though she had run a marathon was not me, it was someone else. I tried to look for a genuine smile in her but I couldn't, all I saw was sadness and exhaustion. I sighed and walked out of the bathroom.

"You okay, hm?"

"Yeah," I mumbled to Deidara without looking at him. "I'm just… It all feels so real now…"

Deidara stood in front of me silently. The silence became almost unbearable until Deidara once again did me another favor and broke it.

"The doctor came by and gave me a packet for you. It seems to be a bunch of precautions and medications to not take and medications you can take and vitamins you should take and stuff."

I nodded and looked at the packet the Deidara was holding down at his side, it looked to be no more than fifteen pages.

"Can… can we go home…"

Deidara stood quietly for a moment, I could feel his intent worried eyes on me.

"Sure."

FIRST CHAPTER OF THE SEQUEL! I expect multiple reviews of random letters followed by a typed squeal. :D Sorry to keep everyone waiting but here it finally is after such a LONG and AGONIZING wait.

How is Sakura handling being pregnant with Itachi's child? How were the medical bills covered? Should Sakura stay living with Deidara or find someplace else to live? Will Itachi find out about Sakura being pregnant? Will Itachi try to win Sakura back or will he try to get revenge for her leaving him? Will Sakura feel shame and pity and seek Itachi out herself instead? Will Itachi begin to beat Sakura again if she goes back to him? What will be Itachi's reasoning for beating her if she goes back to him? Will Deidara beat the crap out of Itachi? How will we ever know the answers to all these questions? Who. Will. Tell. Us?!

Stay Tuned! And don't forget to feed me my writer's motivation food of reviews. The more reviews the more likely I will feel obligated to post the next chapter sooner!