When my grandpa died of cancer, I used to think that his soul will reincarnate into some animal or someone, I loved hi so much that the first thing that came to my mind was "I wonder if his soul could be into someone's already grown up body?" that was when I turned to the source of the barking noise and saw it… no, him, I saw Darko-chan, my cousin's dog, wagging his tail happily and hopping up and down eagerly, it seemed as if he was smiling at me, reassuring my thought of reincarnation, my next thought was "what if…grandpa's soul has… reincarnated in… Darko?" since that thought I saw it as my grandpa.
I was so proud of Darko when my aunt told me that he and nii-sama had killed a really big rat but mostly Darko. I ruffled his fur and patted him, he was breathing with his tongue hanging out, I smiled and giggled a bit too loud, so my cousin asked me "what the hell are you doing? Are you crazy?" I just said "nope!" and continued petting Darko. I was so proud of him for being my half dog.
On the last Christmas Eve night, Darko-chan came to the bed where I was sleeping. Its soft sniffs and its ticklish fur on my hand awakened me. Its eyes were like saying "hey, c'mon! wake up! It's almost Christmas" because when I turned to see the time on my cell phone it was 11:50 exactly. I ruffled his furry head and said "ii ko, Darko-chan, thanks" and smiled to him and, as if on response he wagged its tail happily but not as eager as before… that was awkward for me, but, anyways I got up and went to the livingroom where my family had gathered to receive Christmas.
The last day of the year I came to say hi to him, "waa~, kawaii Darko-chan is maybe gonna be scared by the fireworks! But no worries, today won't be as much as before, they're banned! Ne, Darko-chan nante shizuka na yoru desu-nya?" and patted his head. I went to the bathroom afterwards to wash my hands but I didn't. Instead, I went to eat lunch just like that, because I didn't thought that my hands were dirty just by grabbing his fur, I just thought that I was doing something immunological to myself, and giggled a bit of my silly thought. After my half lunch, I went back to pet him so he wouldn't feel alone while we're gone, (we were going to leave after lunch so I only ate half to have time with Darko-chan) and once again "ii ko, Darko-chan, you'll be alright! No worries, Helen-baachan's gonna stay, take care of everybody~" I smiled at him once more and left the house.
When I went to my other grandma's house, after holidays, I turned my laptop on and opened my account in facebook… what I read made my heart tug almost painfully inside my chest, it read "I don't like to use those catch up phrases on any fucking blog but let me say this to you: I'll do everything at hand to save your life my beloved Darko" it was my cousin's entry from 22 hours ago… then at like 10:23pm another one appeared, also from my cousin: "you're my all Dark, that illness had been the negative thing of our time together...you had almost 13 fucking awesome and cool years with me...I thank you for all this! And I won't miss you anymore, because wherever I look to you're always there...I like you and love you with all my heart's content DARK, REST IN PEACE! (19 APRIL 1999 - 03 JANUARY 2012)", with that last sentence, I started crying my heart out silently. One of my favorite and oldest dog pets had JUST passed away the year that I thought was going to be one of the best ever, the best organized year and the one when I'll be turning eighteen, I thought that Darko-chan would last almost until I were thirty or some year when he were really old that he would sleep and when the morning came he would be peacefully going side to side with a certain raven haired shinigami (that, only in my shallow world)