This is my first venture into TBBT fanfiction, so please forgive any OOCness. This little idea came up while re-binge watching The Big Bang Theory. :D

Disclaimer: I do not own The Big Bang Theory nor any of the characters.

If someone had told her when she was 16 that she would end up fantasizing about a geek like Leonard and had intense feelings for someone like him, she would've laughed in their faces and thought they were insane.

Up until the point where she had met Leonard, she had fantasized about men that were tall, handsome, rich, tan, and muscular. But that didn't mean to say that Leonard wasn't handsome or had no physical prowess. No, it just meant that Leonard wasn't the type she would usually go for. For God sake's, he was an experimental physicist and a doctor! Well, not a doctor doctor, but he was still a doctor!

She just meant to say that he wasn't her type. All the guys she had dated or slept with were jerks, complete assholes, had little mental capability, or a combination thereof – even David Underhill.

Leonard was sweet and caring and gentle. He was naïve and genuine. He was funny and incredibly intelligent. Essentially, he was everything a girl ever dreamed of or hoped for in a guy and then some – he was everything she strived to find in her various sexual endeavors.

With that being said, she felt that he was just too good for her. She didn't deserve him. Not in a million lifetimes would she ever come close to deserving someone like him. And it seemed that the universe agreed.

Currently, she was sitting on her couch – alone – thinking about her ex-boyfriend while he was lying in bed with another woman.

Priya.

Penny had no right to be jealous. She had been the one to break up with him. She had been the one to break his heart. She had no more say in Leonard's life. If it were up to her, she would've imprisoned herself for hurting him like that.

She guesses her punishment from the universe is watching him fall in love with another woman and being forced out of his life.

She huffed and fell back onto her couch, watching her reflection off the pitch black screen of her television.

She wasn't used to this. She wasn't used to being hung over on a guy. Sure, there was Kurt, but she didn't love him. Looking back on her life, she never really truly loved anyone until she met Leonard. She just couldn't voice it.

Oh, irony is thy name is a major bitch.

She sighs and turns to lie on her back. She should've never broken up with him. She had lost the best thing that had ever happened to her and said best thing was currently in bed with another woman!

"UGH!" she huffed.

She got up and contemplated wine. Instead, she took out a bottle of bourbon.

As she poured her drink into a glass, her mind raced back to Leonard and Priya.

Her 16 year old self would have been shunning her for being so overwhelmed by someone like Leonard.

She sighed once more as she plopped on her couch, drink in hand.

Priya may be more intellectually suited for him than she could ever be, but she was better for him. She could see how Priya was trying to change him. And she hated her even more for that. Leonard didn't need to be changed. He was perfect. Even with his asthma, and his insecurities, and his lactose intolerance, and his geekiness, and his allergies. He was perfect.

'God, she sounded like him now.'

She desperately wished that she could turn back time and change what had happened. It was only after their break up when she laid in bed alone did she finally realize what a huge mistake she had made. But she had convinced herself it was the best choice and Will Wheaton's story about being led on for two years just kept ringing through her head.

Maybe if she had acted sooner, she would be cuddled against him in his bed instead of her. Maybe she would've become jealous and Leonard would've held her and told her that he loved her and nobody would ever change that. Maybe she would've told him she loved him. Just maybe…

A knock on her door shook her out of her reverie. She waited for the "Penny" to come after it, but it didn't. So she assumed it wasn't Sheldon. Maybe it was Bernadette. Or Amy. These days, they were the only people she hung out with; they were her only connection to Leonard.

As she got up to go to her door, another hasty knock sounded. Whoever the hell it was, they sounded extremely impatient.

She opened her door to find someone she was definitely not expecting.

"Leonard?"

A/N: Reviews are much appreciated! (But no hate, please. If you want to pick apart a story, go pick apart your own. )